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last month of the year and it's going to be rough
i can't do shit when all of my money is going to medical bills and i'm going to feel horrible because i can't exactly do anything for christmas nor for the people who have birthdays this time of year because of this
i can't do shit when all of my money is going to medical bills and i'm going to feel horrible because i can't exactly do anything for christmas nor for the people who have birthdays this time of year because of this
December 1, 2025 at 7:12 AM
last month of the year and it's going to be rough
i can't do shit when all of my money is going to medical bills and i'm going to feel horrible because i can't exactly do anything for christmas nor for the people who have birthdays this time of year because of this
i can't do shit when all of my money is going to medical bills and i'm going to feel horrible because i can't exactly do anything for christmas nor for the people who have birthdays this time of year because of this
There's too many thoughts in my head.
I want them to leave me alone.
I want the universe to leave me alone.
I'm not built to handle this, I'm sorry.
I want them to leave me alone.
I want the universe to leave me alone.
I'm not built to handle this, I'm sorry.
November 29, 2025 at 5:40 AM
There's too many thoughts in my head.
I want them to leave me alone.
I want the universe to leave me alone.
I'm not built to handle this, I'm sorry.
I want them to leave me alone.
I want the universe to leave me alone.
I'm not built to handle this, I'm sorry.
i'm tired of crying until the sun comes up
November 26, 2025 at 7:57 AM
i'm tired of crying until the sun comes up
I'm so tired of this year
November 26, 2025 at 3:37 AM
I'm so tired of this year
i'm sure every single therapist on the planet would have something to say about me turning showers into a form of self-harm by mass-activating my skin writing so my brain stops thinking a bit
it didn't work as much as i wanted to today
it didn't work as much as i wanted to today
November 21, 2025 at 6:47 PM
i'm sure every single therapist on the planet would have something to say about me turning showers into a form of self-harm by mass-activating my skin writing so my brain stops thinking a bit
it didn't work as much as i wanted to today
it didn't work as much as i wanted to today
the worst thing about my current situation is that i can't do anything that i want to do
projects i wanted to get done are on hold because i can't guarantee i can pay for them now, i can't travel anywhere, i can't even treat myself to lunch or something to lessen the blow
projects i wanted to get done are on hold because i can't guarantee i can pay for them now, i can't travel anywhere, i can't even treat myself to lunch or something to lessen the blow
November 14, 2025 at 6:13 PM
the worst thing about my current situation is that i can't do anything that i want to do
projects i wanted to get done are on hold because i can't guarantee i can pay for them now, i can't travel anywhere, i can't even treat myself to lunch or something to lessen the blow
projects i wanted to get done are on hold because i can't guarantee i can pay for them now, i can't travel anywhere, i can't even treat myself to lunch or something to lessen the blow
the next few weeks will determine if I can continue being me online
streaming, moderation, even just existing in online spaces
all of it is at risk of vanishing entirely and I'm so fucking scared
I don't want to lose any of it
streaming, moderation, even just existing in online spaces
all of it is at risk of vanishing entirely and I'm so fucking scared
I don't want to lose any of it
November 13, 2025 at 7:47 AM
the next few weeks will determine if I can continue being me online
streaming, moderation, even just existing in online spaces
all of it is at risk of vanishing entirely and I'm so fucking scared
I don't want to lose any of it
streaming, moderation, even just existing in online spaces
all of it is at risk of vanishing entirely and I'm so fucking scared
I don't want to lose any of it
everything's slowly being denied
I can't do this
I can't do this
November 13, 2025 at 4:53 AM
everything's slowly being denied
I can't do this
I can't do this
I can't exist like this today
I'm taking my tranqs
I'm taking my tranqs
November 12, 2025 at 7:03 PM
I can't exist like this today
I'm taking my tranqs
I'm taking my tranqs
all of my hospital insurance claims are in and being reviewed and i'm having a horrible time
i shouldn't have looked at them
i shouldn't have looked at them
November 10, 2025 at 7:22 AM
all of my hospital insurance claims are in and being reviewed and i'm having a horrible time
i shouldn't have looked at them
i shouldn't have looked at them
fuck the assholes that tried to use my credit card multiple times to buy over $2k in medical supplies while i was streaming
i'm having a horrid panic attack now and i feel like shit
i'm having a horrid panic attack now and i feel like shit
November 7, 2025 at 4:37 AM
fuck the assholes that tried to use my credit card multiple times to buy over $2k in medical supplies while i was streaming
i'm having a horrid panic attack now and i feel like shit
i'm having a horrid panic attack now and i feel like shit
not a fan of this seizure making me lose my autonomy (driving ability) for 6 months
makes me feel useless and very not good
makes me feel useless and very not good
November 5, 2025 at 4:41 PM
not a fan of this seizure making me lose my autonomy (driving ability) for 6 months
makes me feel useless and very not good
makes me feel useless and very not good
my anxiety tonight feels like those noises that just keep going up in pitch forever
October 15, 2025 at 4:27 AM
my anxiety tonight feels like those noises that just keep going up in pitch forever
i'm a mess
i just want things to be okay
for me, for friends, for family
because right now, they're very not
i just want things to be okay
for me, for friends, for family
because right now, they're very not
October 7, 2025 at 5:08 AM
i'm a mess
i just want things to be okay
for me, for friends, for family
because right now, they're very not
i just want things to be okay
for me, for friends, for family
because right now, they're very not
i'm stupid for thinking that something could have saved this garbage year
no matter how much i hang onto hope that things won't be bad, the bad cards keep being dealt like they're the only ones in the deck
no matter how much i hang onto hope that things won't be bad, the bad cards keep being dealt like they're the only ones in the deck
October 3, 2025 at 6:57 AM
i'm stupid for thinking that something could have saved this garbage year
no matter how much i hang onto hope that things won't be bad, the bad cards keep being dealt like they're the only ones in the deck
no matter how much i hang onto hope that things won't be bad, the bad cards keep being dealt like they're the only ones in the deck
i'm not getting good sleep tonight
the new ID law takes effect in the morning and if i'm not able to access anywhere without my ID then I might literally be forced to give it to a third party or actually die
the new ID law takes effect in the morning and if i'm not able to access anywhere without my ID then I might literally be forced to give it to a third party or actually die
September 29, 2025 at 7:42 AM
i'm not getting good sleep tonight
the new ID law takes effect in the morning and if i'm not able to access anywhere without my ID then I might literally be forced to give it to a third party or actually die
the new ID law takes effect in the morning and if i'm not able to access anywhere without my ID then I might literally be forced to give it to a third party or actually die
can't sleep
brain loud
skin loud
pd loud
brain loud
skin loud
pd loud
September 24, 2025 at 8:01 AM
can't sleep
brain loud
skin loud
pd loud
brain loud
skin loud
pd loud
i have so much i want to say about Current Events but good god if i even vaguely breathe in that direction
these are The Normal Times and Everything Is Normal And Fine
these are The Normal Times and Everything Is Normal And Fine
September 17, 2025 at 11:19 PM
i have so much i want to say about Current Events but good god if i even vaguely breathe in that direction
these are The Normal Times and Everything Is Normal And Fine
these are The Normal Times and Everything Is Normal And Fine
i'm scared.
September 14, 2025 at 6:13 AM
i'm scared.
It's days like today that I wish I had anxiety medication that wasn't just a tranquilizer
August 26, 2025 at 10:37 PM
It's days like today that I wish I had anxiety medication that wasn't just a tranquilizer
I wish I could be okay
August 24, 2025 at 6:42 AM
I wish I could be okay
just found out that pretty much every shipping service sending things to the US has suspended operations because the de minimis was forcefully expired
the US is about to be cut off from every other country in every single way and i'm fucking horrified what that's going to mean for the future
the US is about to be cut off from every other country in every single way and i'm fucking horrified what that's going to mean for the future
August 23, 2025 at 6:30 AM
just found out that pretty much every shipping service sending things to the US has suspended operations because the de minimis was forcefully expired
the US is about to be cut off from every other country in every single way and i'm fucking horrified what that's going to mean for the future
the US is about to be cut off from every other country in every single way and i'm fucking horrified what that's going to mean for the future
found out there's a high chance my grandpa has some form of liver cancer and with his age it might be inoperable
also found out my parents have waited until now to tell me
this has been going on since late last year
also found out my parents have waited until now to tell me
this has been going on since late last year
August 20, 2025 at 4:35 PM
found out there's a high chance my grandpa has some form of liver cancer and with his age it might be inoperable
also found out my parents have waited until now to tell me
this has been going on since late last year
also found out my parents have waited until now to tell me
this has been going on since late last year
power went out again
it's like everything is against me today and I can't handle it
it's like everything is against me today and I can't handle it
August 13, 2025 at 11:34 PM
power went out again
it's like everything is against me today and I can't handle it
it's like everything is against me today and I can't handle it
I shouldn't have gone out today
people are watching me have a breakdown in my car
I'm not okay
people are watching me have a breakdown in my car
I'm not okay
August 13, 2025 at 4:54 PM
I shouldn't have gone out today
people are watching me have a breakdown in my car
I'm not okay
people are watching me have a breakdown in my car
I'm not okay