I'm not too depressed. I honestly think it's more likely that my life is over than it is going to be good. Kind of running out of time, willpower, the mistakes I've made are compounding, I don't see how I can recover.
November 10, 2025 at 6:16 PM
I'm not too depressed. I honestly think it's more likely that my life is over than it is going to be good. Kind of running out of time, willpower, the mistakes I've made are compounding, I don't see how I can recover.
If I drank a coffee or red bull now I would become hypomanic, I can feel it.
November 10, 2025 at 11:19 AM
If I drank a coffee or red bull now I would become hypomanic, I can feel it.
I am watching a blu ray of the first harry potter film, I will add my thoughts
November 9, 2025 at 9:15 PM
I am watching a blu ray of the first harry potter film, I will add my thoughts
thinking about getting into lego, could be very relaxing. I was obsessed with lego as a child.
November 9, 2025 at 8:17 PM
thinking about getting into lego, could be very relaxing. I was obsessed with lego as a child.
I face massive paralysis when it comes to starting any video game these days, I stare at steam and my massive library of ROMS, my PS4, my PS3, I have SO much choice, I can play 85% of all games made since the 1980s... and I mostly just stare until I decide not to play anything
November 9, 2025 at 7:52 PM
I face massive paralysis when it comes to starting any video game these days, I stare at steam and my massive library of ROMS, my PS4, my PS3, I have SO much choice, I can play 85% of all games made since the 1980s... and I mostly just stare until I decide not to play anything
my mood is more stable so I'm not skeeting as much. A lot of it must have been down to mirtazapine leading to mood cycling - stronger euphoria but then stronger depressive phases, with things like being unable to move, I don't get that any more
November 9, 2025 at 7:08 PM
my mood is more stable so I'm not skeeting as much. A lot of it must have been down to mirtazapine leading to mood cycling - stronger euphoria but then stronger depressive phases, with things like being unable to move, I don't get that any more
been thinking about wearing all black, getting a nice belt, wearing black turtlenecks
November 9, 2025 at 7:05 PM
been thinking about wearing all black, getting a nice belt, wearing black turtlenecks
feeling kind of funny today, like unsure, like things are unsafe - but I think it comes down to being lonely and isolated.
November 9, 2025 at 5:20 PM
feeling kind of funny today, like unsure, like things are unsafe - but I think it comes down to being lonely and isolated.
probably the most efficient way imaginable to get glucose into your bloodstream - way quicker than chocolate, white bread
pushed my kcal deficit too far and ended up with atypical (for me) cravings for syrup or treacle
November 8, 2025 at 9:45 PM
probably the most efficient way imaginable to get glucose into your bloodstream - way quicker than chocolate, white bread
I'm going to have a coffee tomorrow. It's going to be good.
November 8, 2025 at 9:44 PM
I'm going to have a coffee tomorrow. It's going to be good.
pushed my kcal deficit too far and ended up with atypical (for me) cravings for syrup or treacle
November 7, 2025 at 7:24 PM
pushed my kcal deficit too far and ended up with atypical (for me) cravings for syrup or treacle
sometimes it's tempting to think, oh I should grow up, I should be responsible, I should change my life around, sometimes I hear that advice and almost feel motivated by it - the idea of independence, being stoic, making progress - but that's not necessarily what reality is, our personal experiences
November 6, 2025 at 3:18 PM
sometimes it's tempting to think, oh I should grow up, I should be responsible, I should change my life around, sometimes I hear that advice and almost feel motivated by it - the idea of independence, being stoic, making progress - but that's not necessarily what reality is, our personal experiences
I miss being able to drink white monster due to it being a meme drink, I literally can't because it makes my physiologically ill (artificial sweetner) and psychologically ill (hypomania) lmao
October 30, 2025 at 5:55 PM
I miss being able to drink white monster due to it being a meme drink, I literally can't because it makes my physiologically ill (artificial sweetner) and psychologically ill (hypomania) lmao
horses really are such majestic animals
October 30, 2025 at 5:41 PM
horses really are such majestic animals
egyptian goddess gf with blue eye shadow when
October 29, 2025 at 8:34 PM
egyptian goddess gf with blue eye shadow when
nothing is better than being in love
October 29, 2025 at 7:12 PM
nothing is better than being in love
It feels like life is so scarily fragile sometimes. I can't deal with uncertainty or ambiguity. I need everything to be close to perfect forever.
October 28, 2025 at 7:07 PM
It feels like life is so scarily fragile sometimes. I can't deal with uncertainty or ambiguity. I need everything to be close to perfect forever.
Frazzled, having another kind of bipolar related episode, not meeting criteria for hypomanic or depression, just like, exaggerated mood, jitteryness
October 27, 2025 at 5:30 PM
Frazzled, having another kind of bipolar related episode, not meeting criteria for hypomanic or depression, just like, exaggerated mood, jitteryness
I'm feeling amazing again yippee
October 27, 2025 at 9:55 AM
I'm feeling amazing again yippee
I would probably be one of those gamers who play 10 hours a day but two things hold me back
- motion sickness: most games will make me motion sick, probably more than half, and higher than that for AAA FPS games which often lean heavily on camera effects
- ADHD: really struggle to overcome initial
- motion sickness: most games will make me motion sick, probably more than half, and higher than that for AAA FPS games which often lean heavily on camera effects
- ADHD: really struggle to overcome initial
October 26, 2025 at 5:51 PM
I would probably be one of those gamers who play 10 hours a day but two things hold me back
- motion sickness: most games will make me motion sick, probably more than half, and higher than that for AAA FPS games which often lean heavily on camera effects
- ADHD: really struggle to overcome initial
- motion sickness: most games will make me motion sick, probably more than half, and higher than that for AAA FPS games which often lean heavily on camera effects
- ADHD: really struggle to overcome initial
I've had a lot to deal with, chronic pain, stress, loneliness, isolation, bipolar type 2, lack of hope, unemployment, it's a lot
October 26, 2025 at 11:03 AM
I've had a lot to deal with, chronic pain, stress, loneliness, isolation, bipolar type 2, lack of hope, unemployment, it's a lot
as well as tech content and all the classic genres I've gotten really into react content, and react content of react content, and react content of react content of react content, it's pretty ridiculous lmao
I'm watching more youtube than ever before
October 24, 2025 at 8:12 PM
as well as tech content and all the classic genres I've gotten really into react content, and react content of react content, and react content of react content of react content, it's pretty ridiculous lmao
I'm watching more youtube than ever before
October 24, 2025 at 8:10 PM
I'm watching more youtube than ever before