For now I'm just aiming to get a consultation at a clinic (I have one in mind with good reviews) to discuss possibilities. Then I'll know the full goal amount. gogetfunding.com/help-ksenya-...
HEY FOLKS so i moved not too long ago AND ALSO my birthday is coming up on 11/1, im hesitant to ask for cash in exchange for nothing so instead DID YOU KNOW I GOT ALBUMS UP! you can actually get everything ive ever posted on here for like $20!
Most of my favourite art repulsed and offended my tastes at first, but for some reason left me covertly wanting to look again until it became my taste.
I had a dream as if my husband turned out to be a necromancer evolving into an immortal undead being(but that implied hiding from society forever due to an obviously inhuman appearance and keeping me hidden with him), and I tried to prevent that and keep him dead, but he turned me undead too first.
Something about drawing vaguely medical shapes that makes me feel so whole and connected to whatever is that place and time where my inspiration comes from.
When you discover a music artist who makes some of the most anguished electro-industrial you heard in a while that's a perfect soundtrack to your nightmares and your own anxiety, and you absolutely love it, but you also want to give the guy a comforting hug.
It may not look like it, but I actually get nausea from too much seriousness. At the same time I think it's never your call to tell someone they should laugh at themselves more, it's for them to decide. Maybe they do need to take themsleves seriously rn, there is a place and time for everything.
While I'm at it with my insomnia, here is another compilation of spring drawings (which counts as "new" to me compared to my more usual macabre art and therefore maybe not something people want to see, but maybe I'm overthinking it)
Also I just feel hollow and useless inbetween the headache-inducing news and the cold feeding me the most dreary restless dreams about people from the past treating me like they treated me in the past as if I haven't changed.
I'm in this period where I can't decide where I should go with my drawing and maybe I should even stop for a while, but I can't. I want to do something new, but I'm scared of disappointing people who want to see more of the old and of losing the uniqueness that my older drawings held.
Alas this year's spring was the most tranquil spring I had, the most safe I ever felt being outside (also there are lots of sketchbook photos from then that I didn't post here for some reason)
