violue
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That's MRS. Violue Medarda to you. she/her
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anyway this is all to say if you see yourself removed from my instagram it does not mean we are on bad terms it just means i'm having insecurity issues
my sleep schedule is in the upside-down

i'm going to sleep now 😶😶😶
is the algorithm dreaming?
i swear i'm not going to get back in the habit of posting ai but i was testing other episode names and this one even added billie

and sad dean

i keep trying to "picture" how gen ai works, how it can pull from its mountains of ill-gotten data and spit out something coherent. it's beyond me
it even did the damn spn font!
the words are spelled correctly, it "knew" the episode from the title and used relevant information. past models weren't so accurate.
gen ai is getting too detailed
so anyway my legs hurt and i'm pretty sure i heard a small animal being killed but I don't know.

just had to get that out so i can go back to doodling.
I even went around to the front of the house (i had to go AROUND the block to get to it) and I could tell the backyard isn't accessible from the front so there was just no way to look in.

and there were no more noises after I left my window.
for an insane second i thought about just trying to climb up the fence a bit and shine my flashlight, but then I was like who am I kidding.
anyway I saw nothing in the parking lot. I was thinking it might have been in the house across the lot, the one i can see from my window upstairs during the day. but the fence separating the houses from the apartment parking lot is high and full of dense foliage.
I think a cat but maybe a dog, but I literally forgot the sound right after I heard it, because I got up to rush outside in my shorts and slippers. my brain started replacing the sound with some "angry jaguar" stock sound and I KNOW that isn't what I heard, but I can't remember what it actually was.
i heard this squeaking from somewhere outside and i couldn't tell if it was an animal or like... a squeaky wheel. i kept thinking maybe it was like... a puppy or something.

i tried looking out my window but at 4:30am the view from my window is like pitch black. then i heard snarling noises.
one of those moments where i wish I could summon the perfect magical combination of words to change someone's view. but I guess he's the one that has to live his life, and this is what "works" for him.

:((((
because it sounds like his path to loving himself was built on hating others similar to him
I kept typing and deleting replies and now I'm just sticking with ":("
ok i started scrolling through their profile and saw a comment from 4 months ago defending JK Rowling, so
the main post is a guy whose best friend is a trans man that replaced the poster as best man at his wedding, seemingly to validate an enby friend that recently started to identify as male.

but it's the unrelated parts of this comment that really struck me.
i want to respond to this comment because it's a huge bummer but it also is super duper not my place

it just sounds so very "i'm not like other [insert minority group] because I know my place" and that's really sad

old.reddit.com/r/AmItheAssh...
i didn't really call the wrong line so much as i chose the wrong option in the menu, after correctly choosing it the first time, second guessing myself after 5 minutes, and calling back to choose a different and incorrect option
it's ok i'm done bitching i'm playing Hades now
ok well that was a fun way to spend 40 minutes i guess
OH MY GOD I CALLED THE WRONG LINE AND NOW THEY'RE CLOSED AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
they were supposed to contact ME and never did *________________*
also i forgot that cooling temperatures would mean other apartments using their gd heaters so my room is 75 degrees
calling to schedule that zio patch thing and i've been on hold for 33 minutes *_*

part of me wants to give up and try another day, but... sunk cost fallacy...