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@til.bsky.social

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 10h

im fucking broken

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 10h

ah Fuck i forgot to go to the Swirlies show i had tickets for :/

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 10h

i just need to be held you know

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bites u @bitesu.kawaii.social · 1d

welcome to transgenderism! we have:

dehumanization fantasy (animal)
dehumanization fantasy (robot)
dehumanization fantasy (corpse)
dehumanization fantasy (divine psychosis)
dehumanization fantasy (womanhood)

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 1d

for a while now yeah

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 1d

the goal is to play all of itaots front to back. vocals are further away from being *good* but also i dont totally dislike how i sound considering im starting from zero with that. still feel im lacking some direction but ill figure that out, need to play amped with fx to get inspired sound-wise

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 1d

guitar status: derusting after falling out of the practice loop. focusing up on getting rhythms better. in the aeroplane over the sea got sloppy i keep forgetting the lines. king of carrot flowers pt 1 is just about cracked. adding communist daughter (easy) & holland 1945 (easy but fast) to practice

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 3d

with the thinning veil today, feelings once cast away may find themselves sneaking back into one's mind. or is that just me

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 3d

always been a quiet sort but in this era im hit with the inhumanity of being me more ever, but in a way im relatively at peace with at least its not an anxious tension rly

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 3d

feel like a sort of creature that's not rly supposed to be around human citizens in public spaces like there's something wrong with my presence. it's chill though

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 3d

if u see a fox u have to show me

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 4d

jesus, that sounds scary. best wishes

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 5d

aside from yknow, everything else, i feel so alienated from sexuality

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 5d

i need to either collapse from exhaustion or to relight the metabolic fire in me forever

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 5d

its all in my head until i push past it and get floored the next day. but it's all in my head i need to break these chains just to see what happens, how real it is

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 5d

feeling that fundamental incurable error in my body that induces paralysing fatigue

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 9d

if ur sad and its 3am and you haven't eaten today u can just throw some japanese style curry blocks and some milk in a pot of lentils

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 9d

2027, 2077, 2033, 2012

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 9d

it's also fucked how these things happen and kinda get swept under the rug because from elsewhere in the world posts like this are basically how i know shit like that is going down. anyways stay safe out there

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 10d

www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkOa... hadnt listened to the lost tapes before i think it might be peak Can

Can - Obscura Primavera

YouTube video by Ia Patatishvili

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 11d

yeah in this era of my life i feel something like this too. i feel like a frightened dog. i dont rly know how trust/comfort works either aside from simple Exposure...

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 12d

i met this delightful little sir today

a grey squirrel standing bipedally amidst fallen autumn leaves. they have lighter softer looking fur on their belly and reddish brown fur on their face and hands. their expression looks confused. their hands are together awkwardly

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 13d

i am trying to find out

tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 13d

why does it feel so violent to want to be something

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tilde 🦊🌹 @til.bsky.social · 13d

the last thing i want is to overcorrect and be ascerbic and mean. Just. im starting to feel a traumatic weight of self-negation