Ashessss
@starryxashes.bsky.social
Hi I'm Ashes!
25 - edsky - shsky - venting - she/they, plural a lot
Manic restrictive dream girl ✌️🌙
Kinda recovering, kinda relapsing
SW: 167
CW: 145.2
LW: 135
GW: 115
BMI: 23.4
Minors and non ed dni
25 - edsky - shsky - venting - she/they, plural a lot
Manic restrictive dream girl ✌️🌙
Kinda recovering, kinda relapsing
SW: 167
CW: 145.2
LW: 135
GW: 115
BMI: 23.4
Minors and non ed dni
Pinned
November tracker! Probably getting back on it this month but who knows.
Manifesting comfort and self care in safe places, positive transformation and the intuition to guide it, gentleness towards those around me and connection to nature, and quiet but fierce self reliance and protection
Manifesting comfort and self care in safe places, positive transformation and the intuition to guide it, gentleness towards those around me and connection to nature, and quiet but fierce self reliance and protection
Um hey gang what if hypothetically im starting to realize I might have romantic feelings towards my best friend who I live with
November 27, 2025 at 4:15 PM
Um hey gang what if hypothetically im starting to realize I might have romantic feelings towards my best friend who I live with
Waking up at 8 am to make my mom and sister happy (I was disossicating until 3 am)
November 27, 2025 at 1:29 PM
Waking up at 8 am to make my mom and sister happy (I was disossicating until 3 am)
Everything is growth but I don't understand how this can be helpful for my Soul
November 27, 2025 at 7:42 AM
Everything is growth but I don't understand how this can be helpful for my Soul
I'm so bad at living. The only thing I'm good at is self destructing. That I'm super good at. All I can do right is immolate everything good in my life and self destruct
November 27, 2025 at 6:52 AM
I'm so bad at living. The only thing I'm good at is self destructing. That I'm super good at. All I can do right is immolate everything good in my life and self destruct
Screaming crying throwing up (mentally irl im staring at a wall emoly)
November 27, 2025 at 6:50 AM
Screaming crying throwing up (mentally irl im staring at a wall emoly)
Love is good
Love is all
Cut off the ropes and just let me fall
Love is all
Cut off the ropes and just let me fall
November 27, 2025 at 5:15 AM
Love is good
Love is all
Cut off the ropes and just let me fall
Love is all
Cut off the ropes and just let me fall
Miss our exes rn. Someone big and dominating who can tell us that they'll keep us safe and make it better when we get back. To tell us we're theirs and that isn't changing. That our pain is temporary and they'll take it away and make us safe. A role to go back to when everything feels bad and scary
November 27, 2025 at 4:37 AM
Miss our exes rn. Someone big and dominating who can tell us that they'll keep us safe and make it better when we get back. To tell us we're theirs and that isn't changing. That our pain is temporary and they'll take it away and make us safe. A role to go back to when everything feels bad and scary
"Why can't you just play along you can do that for me just seem interested and happy!" says my mother apparently completely unaware that I HAVE been "playing along" since I fucking came to visit her
November 27, 2025 at 2:36 AM
"Why can't you just play along you can do that for me just seem interested and happy!" says my mother apparently completely unaware that I HAVE been "playing along" since I fucking came to visit her
This is why I never talk to my mother when I'm having a bad day and barely talk to her at all. I'm so sad and I'm so tired. Masking is so fucking tiring and it's been nonstop since I got back
November 27, 2025 at 12:06 AM
This is why I never talk to my mother when I'm having a bad day and barely talk to her at all. I'm so sad and I'm so tired. Masking is so fucking tiring and it's been nonstop since I got back
Day 1 with mom - ok this is going to be fine
Day 2 with mom - I can just track cals and res a little it'll be fine
Day 3 with mom - ok if I get the salad I can limit cals and then when I get back home I can res bc I'll be able to control it again also I miss smoking
Day 2 with mom - I can just track cals and res a little it'll be fine
Day 3 with mom - ok if I get the salad I can limit cals and then when I get back home I can res bc I'll be able to control it again also I miss smoking
November 26, 2025 at 9:52 PM
Day 1 with mom - ok this is going to be fine
Day 2 with mom - I can just track cals and res a little it'll be fine
Day 3 with mom - ok if I get the salad I can limit cals and then when I get back home I can res bc I'll be able to control it again also I miss smoking
Day 2 with mom - I can just track cals and res a little it'll be fine
Day 3 with mom - ok if I get the salad I can limit cals and then when I get back home I can res bc I'll be able to control it again also I miss smoking
If I skipped tahini lunch would've been 270ish but now it's 380ish :/
November 26, 2025 at 8:19 PM
If I skipped tahini lunch would've been 270ish but now it's 380ish :/
Do yall believe in set point theory? I do. And feel like that's why it's like I'm fighting my body just to maintain let alone lose
November 26, 2025 at 7:28 PM
Do yall believe in set point theory? I do. And feel like that's why it's like I'm fighting my body just to maintain let alone lose
My mom is actually making it so easy to res 😭 eat twice one of them small and she doesn't ask questions if I barely eat anything in both. And this is why my therapist was worried about me relapsing bc of seeing my mother xD
November 26, 2025 at 6:31 PM
My mom is actually making it so easy to res 😭 eat twice one of them small and she doesn't ask questions if I barely eat anything in both. And this is why my therapist was worried about me relapsing bc of seeing my mother xD
I sure do love being a goth tgirl in the middle of nowhere (I've had several weird old men stare daggers at me and double back already) (I've been in a public place for 10 minutes)
November 26, 2025 at 5:34 PM
I sure do love being a goth tgirl in the middle of nowhere (I've had several weird old men stare daggers at me and double back already) (I've been in a public place for 10 minutes)
Nunca de mis amigos saben mi nombre moriendo y lo encanto. Mi vida es para la real me no para una persona falsa. Mis padres piensan que soy la persona falsa que fingí ser cuando estoy una niña. Neutralidad es una pelea a decir nada de femininidad. No ven la persona reál ven la persona les quieren.
November 26, 2025 at 3:20 PM
Nunca de mis amigos saben mi nombre moriendo y lo encanto. Mi vida es para la real me no para una persona falsa. Mis padres piensan que soy la persona falsa que fingí ser cuando estoy una niña. Neutralidad es una pelea a decir nada de femininidad. No ven la persona reál ven la persona les quieren.
Ohhhh dysphoria is bad today
November 26, 2025 at 3:06 PM
Ohhhh dysphoria is bad today
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I hate bsky doesnt let me share images in the dms like... what if I wanna consult my fashions decisions?!!
November 26, 2025 at 5:47 AM
I hate bsky doesnt let me share images in the dms like... what if I wanna consult my fashions decisions?!!
"Not all men" yet somehow always a man
November 26, 2025 at 1:07 AM
"Not all men" yet somehow always a man
My mom bought me energy drinks!!!
November 25, 2025 at 5:32 PM
My mom bought me energy drinks!!!
Trying to avoid w!ck3d 2 like the fucking plague but all I see all over my tl is pics of ar!@na and ¢ynth!a and my mom/sister keep asking me to see it and ughhhh
November 25, 2025 at 2:32 PM
Trying to avoid w!ck3d 2 like the fucking plague but all I see all over my tl is pics of ar!@na and ¢ynth!a and my mom/sister keep asking me to see it and ughhhh
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ITS A JOKEEEEEE i scream as they drag me back to my chamber
November 25, 2025 at 12:20 AM
ITS A JOKEEEEEE i scream as they drag me back to my chamber
Guys I fit an extra pair of shoes, 2 pairs of jeans, 4 or 5 tops (2 of them sweaters), shorts, sweatpants, socks, underwear, 3 books, and a stuffed animal all in one backpack!!! I am so so good at packing things you don't even KNOW
November 24, 2025 at 1:27 PM
Guys I fit an extra pair of shoes, 2 pairs of jeans, 4 or 5 tops (2 of them sweaters), shorts, sweatpants, socks, underwear, 3 books, and a stuffed animal all in one backpack!!! I am so so good at packing things you don't even KNOW
Caffeine save me from feeling soooo sleepy
November 23, 2025 at 4:28 PM
Caffeine save me from feeling soooo sleepy
I can't hurt myself bc I have aerial tomorrow and I don't wanna be hurt for that
I can't hurt myself tomorrow bc I have aerial on Tuesday and don't wanna be hurt for that
I can't hurt myself for the next week bc I'm with my parents
"Recovery"
I can't hurt myself tomorrow bc I have aerial on Tuesday and don't wanna be hurt for that
I can't hurt myself for the next week bc I'm with my parents
"Recovery"
November 23, 2025 at 7:22 AM
I can't hurt myself bc I have aerial tomorrow and I don't wanna be hurt for that
I can't hurt myself tomorrow bc I have aerial on Tuesday and don't wanna be hurt for that
I can't hurt myself for the next week bc I'm with my parents
"Recovery"
I can't hurt myself tomorrow bc I have aerial on Tuesday and don't wanna be hurt for that
I can't hurt myself for the next week bc I'm with my parents
"Recovery"
O crippling emptiness, I did not miss you, please go away again
November 23, 2025 at 2:31 AM
O crippling emptiness, I did not miss you, please go away again