Paradise Eve
@softfantassy.bsky.social
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Stephyhime. feral housecat. 🔞 NO MINORS. ✋🏾Only interested in cute fictional characters. transgressive content.
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softfantassy.bsky.social
Thank you guys for being here and just letting me vent.... I know its prob not ideal to share all my horrors but it's a way to express myself. It will get better!!!!! ⭐ 😭
softfantassy.bsky.social
Thank you 🥹 💕 I am def lacking some self love so you know I'll be working on it!
softfantassy.bsky.social
y'all gonna end up seeing every panel before this is done bc I cannot shut the fuck up
softfantassy.bsky.social
Yeah I was actually to a point where my nervous system was in over drive for days at a time and it was starting to make me sick. I had to go to the doctor for back pain that ended up being my gut from stress.

Now I have to get used to feeling calm again xD
softfantassy.bsky.social
Once I feel unsafe with someone that's it. There's no more trying. No more fawning/people pleasing. That's it. I'm cutting myself out.
softfantassy.bsky.social
I gotta stop apologizing for things that aren't my fault. Fawning is SUCH a bit trauma reaction that I give up my own power sometimes just to quell someone's anger.

I'm going to try to focus more on how people make me feel than what they do or say.
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sitting here, again, with these words from james baldwin.
softfantassy.bsky.social
I know I am still just a lonely latchkey kid.
softfantassy.bsky.social
My weekend is going to be me studying, drawing and hearing battlefield 6 along with my husbands maniacal laughter in the bg 😂
softfantassy.bsky.social
Universe really do be providing fr
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softfantassy.bsky.social
I need to think of some names!!
softfantassy.bsky.social
I'm playing on my ds to get away from big computer

Do u like my line up
softfantassy.bsky.social
Yes it is! Very relaxing -v-
softfantassy.bsky.social
Also drawing doesn't have to always be optimized or "fast." That's just capitalism in there trying to make you efficient (which is okay).

But I prefer nowadays to just enjoy the process so I take as long as I need to esp with my wrist.
softfantassy.bsky.social
I really like "carving" out of sketches. Like it's messy then I clean it to kingdom come. Like it makes the process WAY longer but... there's something methodical and mind numbing to clean the lines.
softfantassy.bsky.social
I'm in love with a girl.

(This is a warning)
softfantassy.bsky.social
If you do this to someone and claim you love and care for them, you are only deceiving yourself.