Snomflakes
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Currently watching this episode in sub and I noticed they translated this part wrong

What they actually said was:

"HE'S JUST A KID LIKE YOU, DAVIS!"

"YOU GOTTA OUTRUN HIM!"

"YOU CAN DO IT, AND EVEN IF YA CAN'T, WE WON'T THINK ANY LESS OF YA, MAN!"

"...some nice friends you got there, Davis."
Even so, I'd rather avoid anything that COULD be a spoiler
OI, AVOID SHOWING ME FUTURE MONS!

Still, I have a few contenders, such as MetalEtemon, Ogremon and Leomon, for starters
Currently watching 02 and I already miss Brave Heart

The new song's a bop too but still 🥺
A few days ago, a pal convinced me to give Digimon a shot, and I decided to binge watch all 54 episodes of the original Digimon Adventure

Damn, that ending's got hands
A few days ago, a pal convinced me to give Digimon a shot, and I decided to binge watch all 54 episodes of the original Digimon Adventure

Damn, that ending's got hands
Decided to give Neru some attention on this fine Tuesday because she deserves it and I love a good underdog story
Well yeah duh I'm right hereee 🙄🙄🙄
I said a NEW Fire Emblem game

Engage is already over 2 years old, they gotta have SOMETHING in the works by now
I don't know man, I just loathe being such a sore loser, and KNOWING that I am one

Sometimes, that fact alone makes me embarrassed to even entertain the idea that I could ever be as good as my peers

They may feel jealousy of their own too, but at least they're not making it everyone else's problem
And I hate how little control I have over the feeling

No matter how much I try to hold it in, I have a burning need to express it in some way, shape or form

Something NEEDS to be on the receiving end of those thoughts or it'll just tear me up inside

Though I figure doing this isn't much better
I'm stuck in this endless cycle of wanting to have my own merits to justify feeling like I'm remotely on the same level as the people around me, but my lack thereof and the growing number of feats on their part just keeps widening that ever-disproportionate gap between myself and them by the day
God, it's so draining to feel such seething jealousy towards the achievements of my peers 😮‍💨

I WANT to be happy for them, for going places and making something out of themselves, but my first instinct is ALWAYS to feel like those victories are just one more thing they have to their name that I don't
The "thump-thumping" speeds up, you're my idol~
So here I am, a barely competent artist in his 20s desperately struggling to amount to something, not having nearly enough to show for it, and a dusty guitar that never got to sing a song in its entire life

All the "talent" in the world is worthless if you never develop the discipline to work hard
And yet, despite that, I never had the courage to try

Because the fear of failure and proving my incompetence was greater

It's why I never pursued things like animation, despite my interest in it

I always feel like I'm never gonna be good enough for these things; that I shouldn't even bother
I wanted to learn this instrument because my dad and his dad know how to play it

I didn't grow up with them, so I always felt like there was a big, empty hole in my life

I felt so detached from them and I hated it

So, to me, this guitar was my best bet to have some kind of connection with them
And I kept doing that

For years

And years

And years...

And to this day, I still am, because I'm just as afraid of failure as I was the moment I got this guitar

And the worst part about this is that this one of the few things in my life that I actually DON'T want to do for the social validation
I have no patience for long endeavors

Art was already taking me long enough to get good at, and I can't bring myself to commit another huge chunk of my lifetime just to be decent at something else

I was so scared of my efforts amounting to nothing that I never even dared to try; to spare myself
Throughout the years, there were a few times where I would get the sudden, slight urge to pick it up again, and try to learn

But reality was quick to set in when I did, and ruminating on all the turbulence I'd have to deal with just so I can MAYBE eventually get good at it disheartened me
Ever since I got this thing over a decade ago, I felt perplexed by how...elaborate an instrument is to even play right

The way it required such a heightened dexterity to play was overwhelming

I couldn't fathom ever doing anything so...specific

It felt almost inhuman

So I never even tried