Slow Motion Train Wreck
@slomotrainwrec.bsky.social
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Exmo architect in the mid-Atlantic navigating the far side of one long train wreck of a faith crisis. Picking myself back up as a mostly non-practicing secular Buddhist.
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I finally realized I have the plan of salvation too deeply embedded in my brain's hardwiring. "Nothing after this" is tied directly to "this has no purpose. Life and death are equal" in my brain, and that's NOT a good place to be. I can't seem to rewire it, I choose to believe otherwise.
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Absolutely. I tried on atheism, but the idea of death being the end sent me into unhealthy nihilism that I couldn't shake. I landed on agnostic, with "After this, More" as my only credo, and secular Buddhism gave me the clarity to see that as a story I tell myself for my mental health.
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Maybe, but my conviction relied on "the spirit". Once I realized that concept was made up... there was no reliable way I could see to confirm spiritual truth--therefore it's all just guessing. I feel no desire to live my life based on someone else's guess, even if a lot of people like it.
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After leaving, I cannot fathom how exmos find another theology they can square in their mind. My faith transition was "Oh no, it's made up. Oh wait, it's ALL made up. Ohhh, it's ALLLLL made up."
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What a bizarre subject for them to choose to film. Considering how much the church placated the Nazi regime, I'll bet they're going to be doing a lot of dancing around the truth.
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Oof. Always good to know what I'm in for before I start chatting with that side of my family--thanks!
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I'd like to hear more on the overlap when/if you have the bandwidth later. I don't find interacting directly with conference very healthy for me.
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An older car is a constant-effort project of love. It's either broken, or on its way to breaking. Multiple old cars means one is always broken. So my car policy is one 4wd, one zippy, and one of the two must be newer and reliable. the other can be an old project.
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I have found that the only effective way to get thru to members is to use properly Mormon-coded language. They have a much harder time othering you when you sound like a testimony meeting.
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Crazy MIL: But what about free speech? Me: I’m sorry, but rights are not unlimited. Your freedoms end when they are marginalizing and endangering others. We should not platform N*zis, and Mormons should know better. None of this is “Of good report or praiseworthy.” Then she got real quiet…
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“Ernst vom Rath received a state funeral on Nov 17, 1938, with Adolf Hitler and other high-ranking Nazi officials in attendance. They used the funeral as propaganda, claiming the assassination of vom Rath by a Jew was the "first shot" of a war against Germany and that they accepted the challenge”
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The administration plans to attack public festivities in Chicago around Mexican Independence Day (which may include this weekend's parade in Pilsen or related activities) because they want to attack folks in settings where people will try to protect and hold onto community members.
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We all see that Trump is picking a fight, right? I think he was really surprised that NG in LA didn't cause the violent backlash he needed as an excuse, so now he's trying a few more to see which city finally has enough.
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"It is also incorrect that agricultural properties benefit from indentured labour provided by African slaves. Recently purchased properties are managed by established American citizen plantation owners."
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Those books are just the best. We had quite the collection for our kids. We Are In A Book, Happy Pig Day... weirdly enough, we even saw them live at the Kennedy Center once.
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If you tear it down far enough, it's just metal! But yeah, that sticker says bye-bye interior--probably gonna need to start from scratch.
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Holy smokes, this just put into words something I've been feeling for years and haven't been able to articulate. Thank you
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My standard response to this nonsense has been pretty successful in shutting down conversation. "Are you saying the veil is so thick between the Lord and His anointed prophet, that over 40 years Brigham couldn't hear the simple message that slavery and racism is wrong?"
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My kids have also tried the argument of, "You know, if we got a THIRD cat, maybe..."
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I have a similar... cat palette, but these two are NOT snuggly. Two years in, still holding out hope...
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Just found my old scriptures from middle school. I feel so bad for this kid, but there's nothing I can do for him, for his years of guilt and shame and pointless striving.
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There is a random moment in KPop Demon Hunters that chilled me to my bone for no apparent reason. Took three days for me to realize it was temple-coded, at least to me.
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Duuuude a low country boil is the BEST. I got introduced to it by some "good ol' boys" back in my YM leader days. We'd make it at camp and pour it out on newspapers with some sticks of butter tossed on the table as well. Heaven for an outdoor dinner on a muggy night. Your's looks fantastic.
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I'm actually hella proud of mine.