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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 13d

OK having done some REALLY fucking in depth musical, literary and philosophical analysis of a huge array of people it's like, raise your hand if you DON'T have BPD or autism lmao

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 20d

I don't think I can hold all this much longer. It's too much for one person to have to deal with all this. My whole life has just been a series of steadily worse things happening to me. What's next?

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 20d

The flip side of this? As if I needed more terrible things happening? The day I get admitted - it will be the last time I see Chomsky. My baby. My angel. Without the thyroid medication and arthritis shots (which I now can't afford bc I'm using PHI to expedite things), she won't outlive my stay there

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 20d

Am going to be admitted to The Austin real soon to get things started. I'm going to be in for MONTHS. Silver lining though, they do ketamine infusions there and it will be very easy to argue it's necessary for my recovery. And oh man, doing chemo, they're gonna give me SO MUCH WEED about it

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 20d

I don't use it much but it's so way nicer than the twitter experience now

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 21d

Also fucking incredible display name btw

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 21d

Hey I think we were? I'm following anyway

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 21d

Ice cold Diet Coke from a can or glass bottle is the superior sugar free carbonated beverage haters don't get it they're not on our level

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 21d

Putting on the life of a showgirl after lateralus I actually had to stop it was so bad

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · 23d

Have now listened to enough of the new album to be a truther for all her best songs were at best heavily influenced by co writers (supposedly folk/more was a bunch of unused The National stuff)

PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Oct 3

This idea everyone has of her as some great wordsmith...I don't know if you've seen any of the "poetry" included in deluxe editions of her albums but as an actual good poet myself, it's like, offensively bad

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Oct 3

This idea everyone has of her as some great wordsmith...I don't know if you've seen any of the "poetry" included in deluxe editions of her albums but as an actual good poet myself, it's like, offensively bad

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Oct 3

Melbourne moots: anyone got a spare room or couch I can borrow tue/wed night next week? Will do housework in return!

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Oct 3

Conversely I legitimately looked like a teenager at 34 and had many a 'look if this was fake I'd pick something more believable than 30 dude' type convo getting in to clubs where they didn't know me

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Oct 1

@babbyunit.bsky.social hello! I'm still alive (just)

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 30

Hits out of nowhere when I go to drink something and it's like an electric cattle prod has been jammed into both facial nerves

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 30

Not saying this as a defence in that whole mess, but the 'st kilda schoolgirl' is a good example of this issue - she was assumed to be early 20s at the club by make-up, dress and attitude

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 30

Some people still haven't finished puberty at 16! I'm AFAB and in theory the basic structure of our faces isn't meant to change that much but I looked dramatically different at 18 than I did at 15. I have ehlers danlos (probably cEDS) and that REALLY affects that kind of thing

Kimmylea @kimmylea.bsky.social · Sep 30

I just don't think facial scanning for age checking is going to work. Not just the sheer broad range of faces it would need to accurately identify, but also somehow the difference of a kid's face before and after their 16th birthday, which is the whole purpose of the age check.

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 30

The new track from catch your breath is such a blatant bad omens rip-off holy shit. Cmon guys you're clearly talented don't do that

PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 29

Oh also it seems like my NMO is flaring up again after a quiescent decade. Got bilateral trigeminal neuralgia and holy shit I get why it's called the suey disease

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 29

Sadly it's definitely cancer so bye-bye titties (I'm not sad about that part actually)

PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 25

In 'are you fucking kidding me with this shit' news it looks like I might have breast cancer

PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 25

The followup referral for biopsy just says 'invasive carcinoma'. Not much room for nuance there. I just...I just can't anymore. This isn't fair. My ex will hear about it eventually I guess who knows maybe he'll finally speak to me after going no contact (for ???reasons??) 6mths ago

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 25

In 'are you fucking kidding me with this shit' news it looks like I might have breast cancer

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 24

Never realised just how long my legs are until I got really skinny (yes unhealthy I know not on purpose). Always had that slim-thick going on which hid it. I look like a ballerina now

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PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 19

I... what?

PTSD Barnum @sirlolsworthy.bsky.social · Sep 15

Alice In Borderland sorta fits this category but I can't say much more about it other than its way better and far more spiritual than Squid Game which unfortunately massively overshadowed it. Like I'm on my 4th watch of AiB right now but I don't think I'd watch Squid Game again

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