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Shailene

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Here for my personal digital diary. Ignore the long, boring threads and just scroll. Rahzie👌🏻

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Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 20

Reminder:-

1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.

2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).

3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 3d

Its been 5 days tk bckp dgn bdk 3. Ahh bia la dia. Hidup aku bjln je spt biasa. Lagi tenang tk bckp dgn dia. Tk kene mrh, tk skit hati. Bia la masa yg menentukan bila aku akn bbaik dgn dia smula. Maleh aku nk pkr nk mntk maaf ke ape ke. Thats not my style. Ego? Sure thing. The question; slh aku ke?

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

I will try to change myself.

1. Diam kalau ayah marah2, perli2, bebel2. Jawab dgn tenang and tak emosi.

2. Don’t argue with bdk 3. Let her be. Stick to the plan and Let Allah handle the rest.

3. Jangan tinggal ibdh wajib, rajin bt ibadah sunat, doakan selalu for palestine - the end is near.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Alhamdulillah for the reminder, Allah 🥹. Kalau tk tu mmg tk teringat nk solat. Ada bgusnye jgk borak psl masjidil aqsa tu. Alhamdulillah smpt sunat ba’diah and baca quran and al-mulk 🥹.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

The time is coming. I should not malas2 nk solat ngaji, ibadah sunat and so on. Astaghfirullahalazim, by the time aku tulis ni, baru teringat tk solat ishak lgi weh. Tdi terpkr tk ngaji pn harini pastu bru tringat; mmgla lps briskwalk tdi trus mndi. Sbb biasa briskwalk lps ishak 🥲kkkbye nk solat 🥲

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Risau tau sbb mmg israhell ni setahu aku dia nk something yg dh disimpan bwh masjid tu. maybe perjanjian yg tanah palestine tu milik dia ke cane tah. Pastu diorg nk runtuhkn masjid tu and nk buat temple of solomon gitu for dajjah masa kiamat nnt. Allahu 🥹.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Kdg2 teruk btul rasa. Aku dok focus nk g sarawak lah, bli hp baru lah, nk tkr style fashion lah. Pdhl masjidil aqsa pn dlm emergency situation sbb israhell tgh gali sbb nk cari something bwh dia. Not exactly bwh masjidil aqsa tu but tmpt yg diorg gali tu mcm ad laluan nk g bwh masjid tu.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Tk phm la weh. Sumpah tk phm dia ni. Dia igt dia je betul. Pasni aku nk buat reverse psychology. Bila dia tgur aku mcm2, ad yg tk kene ke ape ke, aku akn jwb ‘yela lang nnt aku ubah la perangai aku. Kau punya prgi tkyh ubah pn tkpe’. Bia dia annoyed. Dgn hrpn dia sdr slh dia jgk. Bkn aku je. Kbye.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

elleehh kalau dulu tu aku nk bt esaimen ke, keje halal ke, dia peduli apa? Ttup je dgn alsn dia nk bgun awl esk nk g kje. Tu tkpe plk 🙄.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Pastu tdi bru je aku ttup lmpu bilik (tbh aku tk sgje. Aku nmpk je dia tgh bt keje pakai laptop but aku ttup gak out of habit). Pastu dia tye mcm sinis ‘knp ttup lmpu?’. Aku mls nk gduh so aku bkk je blik lmpu tu.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Mse nk g kndri tdi pn sama. Aku tggu dia besiap, dia mrh aku suh msuk kete dlu pnskan enjin. Aku pun pkr btul jgk dia ckp so aku trus msuk kete. Pastu kes yg lain bila aku tggu lam kete, expecting her to grk sekali, camtu plk di buatnye aku?

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Aku hangin la. Aku bls blik ‘knpla tk ckp je dri tdi’. Pastu dia bls ‘aik, kau mcm nk copek bona tdi’. Pastu? Ko tkde mulut ke nk ckp ppe? Mse aku suh ko besiap tu ad ko ckp dkt aku suh g dlu ke, jgn tggu kau ke, kau nk solat dlu ke.. ade? Tkde pn.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Harini bpe kali gduh dgn dia. Ptg tdi, kkwa wasap dh smpi baruh. Aku ckp dkt dia eh cptla siap kkwa dh smpi. Aku siap2, dia rilek je men hp. Aku siap2 msuk kete tggu dia. 15min gakla aku tggu, patu aku msg suh dia cpt. Hbs jgk myk kalau mcm ni. Pastu dia boleh kata ‘la pegi jela. Aku nk smyg dlu’.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

ha yela. Mmg sama. Ap yg kluar dkt mulut aku sume menyakitkn hti dia mcm cik suli menyakitkn hati dia. Tp aku tk phm, knp dia nk skit hati dgn bnde tu? Knp dia perlu offended? Tk phm? Ade jelah tk kene aku ni dkt mata dia. Selalu je aggp aku ni mslh. Tp bila ssh, cari jugak aku yg bermasalah ni 😒.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Sbb dia bls ‘ap lg kak?’ Mcm dia annoyed dgn aku. Aku ckpla balik ‘knp nk emosi?’ Dia ckp ‘kau cuba dgr balik ap yg ko ckp tdi’. Aku jwbla ‘aku ckp tgn ko pucat sbb putih sgt. knp ko nk aggp bnde tu negative?’ Dia jwb ‘kau tu sama je mcm acik suli’

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 9d

Ntahla ek. Tadi aku tgg nk mkn kuey tiaw goreng, tiber nmpk bdk 3 kluar bilik air. Tgn dia putih melepak mcm pale gitu. Sblum tu mmg dia mandi lama tk kluar2 blik air. So maybe sbb tu pucat. Aku tgur la ckp ‘uish pucatnya tgn kau’. Very not in a negative way tp dia aggp bnde tu negative.