Noah is trying|non-ed DNI
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I think if I actually believed in heaven/hell id probably kill myself just to get there faster,
I think the fact i believe this is it, no afterlife, is what keeps me around.
I may as well experience this life than nothing at all, plus it keeps my loved ones happy
I think the fact i believe this is it, no afterlife, is what keeps me around.
I may as well experience this life than nothing at all, plus it keeps my loved ones happy
December 19, 2025 at 2:36 AM
I think if I actually believed in heaven/hell id probably kill myself just to get there faster,
I think the fact i believe this is it, no afterlife, is what keeps me around.
I may as well experience this life than nothing at all, plus it keeps my loved ones happy
I think the fact i believe this is it, no afterlife, is what keeps me around.
I may as well experience this life than nothing at all, plus it keeps my loved ones happy
I hope everything will just be okay :( I'm sure everyone is exhausted including me it's been an awful few days and I've been a nightmare to deal with
December 18, 2025 at 11:36 PM
I hope everything will just be okay :( I'm sure everyone is exhausted including me it's been an awful few days and I've been a nightmare to deal with
Depression smoking is my least favourite kind of smoking
December 18, 2025 at 11:03 PM
Depression smoking is my least favourite kind of smoking
I feel so fucking ignored. I'm trying so hard to be a human after everything these last two days but I feel fucking ignored. Idk why I bother trying anymore :(
December 18, 2025 at 11:02 PM
I feel so fucking ignored. I'm trying so hard to be a human after everything these last two days but I feel fucking ignored. Idk why I bother trying anymore :(
The left side of my chest can't feel temperature anymore and when I lay down too long to make my back feel better my left arm goes numb... I fucking hate being disabled y'all this is some bullshit right here.
December 18, 2025 at 10:32 PM
The left side of my chest can't feel temperature anymore and when I lay down too long to make my back feel better my left arm goes numb... I fucking hate being disabled y'all this is some bullshit right here.
I hope one day I won't be triggered by literally everything so I can help people again :( I can't do anything anymore I may as well be brainless and devolve into a simple task robot.
December 18, 2025 at 8:01 PM
I hope one day I won't be triggered by literally everything so I can help people again :( I can't do anything anymore I may as well be brainless and devolve into a simple task robot.
I'll just be endlessly emotionally neglected it's fine.
December 18, 2025 at 7:35 PM
I'll just be endlessly emotionally neglected it's fine.
I wish I could shut down like a computer when it's overheating. I need to be entirely turned off and unplugged from the wall to cool for the night and try again tomorrow.
December 18, 2025 at 6:55 PM
I wish I could shut down like a computer when it's overheating. I need to be entirely turned off and unplugged from the wall to cool for the night and try again tomorrow.
Just scared and depressed. I don't talk about things cuz it's honestly really hard to. I don't listen to anyone anymore cuz I can't talk about things. I feel like a shitty person I bottle up and then explode and make people feel like shit. I'm so exhausted.
December 18, 2025 at 6:35 PM
Just scared and depressed. I don't talk about things cuz it's honestly really hard to. I don't listen to anyone anymore cuz I can't talk about things. I feel like a shitty person I bottle up and then explode and make people feel like shit. I'm so exhausted.
Had a meltdown and screamed at my gf today. I'm really fucking depressed and ashamed of myself. I hate that anger makes me into that kind of person. I just wanna curl up into a ball and die already I have been suffering so long.
December 18, 2025 at 6:30 PM
Had a meltdown and screamed at my gf today. I'm really fucking depressed and ashamed of myself. I hate that anger makes me into that kind of person. I just wanna curl up into a ball and die already I have been suffering so long.
At least I got groceries done finally. I don't wanna bake today, but now I'll be able to at least
December 18, 2025 at 3:03 PM
At least I got groceries done finally. I don't wanna bake today, but now I'll be able to at least
I barely slept and I feel just terrible. Still trying to process yesterday and idk how to it was just a lot to deal with in a day
December 18, 2025 at 1:45 PM
I barely slept and I feel just terrible. Still trying to process yesterday and idk how to it was just a lot to deal with in a day
I'm gonna be awake all fucking night but I don't have any energy whatsoever to exist anymore.
December 18, 2025 at 3:55 AM
I'm gonna be awake all fucking night but I don't have any energy whatsoever to exist anymore.
I hope I can sleep tonight. I had a shitty day with almost no sleep and no emotional support kinda just suffered alone about everything so I just want sleep now. It's been too long of a day and I feel alone and sad.
December 18, 2025 at 3:11 AM
I hope I can sleep tonight. I had a shitty day with almost no sleep and no emotional support kinda just suffered alone about everything so I just want sleep now. It's been too long of a day and I feel alone and sad.
One upside of the ECT for like 1-3 months I will either forget to eat or be too sick to eat so like... Cool way to speed run some weight off me while also mentally healing I hope
December 18, 2025 at 2:49 AM
One upside of the ECT for like 1-3 months I will either forget to eat or be too sick to eat so like... Cool way to speed run some weight off me while also mentally healing I hope
Had a cup of raisin bran cuz apparently medical news made me 100 years old.
December 18, 2025 at 12:23 AM
Had a cup of raisin bran cuz apparently medical news made me 100 years old.
Today's food bank haul was raisin bran, peanut butter again, canned tuna, canned veggies X3, almond milk, stuffing, can of chicken noodle soup, goldfish crackers, spaghetti, a small thing of easy rice, and several yogurt granola bars
December 18, 2025 at 12:00 AM
Today's food bank haul was raisin bran, peanut butter again, canned tuna, canned veggies X3, almond milk, stuffing, can of chicken noodle soup, goldfish crackers, spaghetti, a small thing of easy rice, and several yogurt granola bars
PDD being described as feeling "constantly stressed and/or tired" makes a lot of sense for my... Everything
December 17, 2025 at 11:32 PM
PDD being described as feeling "constantly stressed and/or tired" makes a lot of sense for my... Everything
Upstairs neighbours are still constructing it's been literally 8 hours.
December 17, 2025 at 11:03 PM
Upstairs neighbours are still constructing it's been literally 8 hours.
Deleted a bunch of spiral posts cuz I don't want these thoughts cemented in my skull.
December 17, 2025 at 11:02 PM
Deleted a bunch of spiral posts cuz I don't want these thoughts cemented in my skull.
I feel like an asshole for getting so upset, but also someone just told me incorrectly that my therapy for my sexually intrusive OCD is a kink so... Maybe I'm not an asshole idk.
December 17, 2025 at 10:46 PM
I feel like an asshole for getting so upset, but also someone just told me incorrectly that my therapy for my sexually intrusive OCD is a kink so... Maybe I'm not an asshole idk.
People should think before they type. There's so much time to think before you type. Now I have a lotta bullshit in my head to undo cuz of one lil oopsie error someone made mistaking ECT for EES...
December 17, 2025 at 10:41 PM
People should think before they type. There's so much time to think before you type. Now I have a lotta bullshit in my head to undo cuz of one lil oopsie error someone made mistaking ECT for EES...
Tried to rest, couldn't rest. Too sore and anxious about everything. Can't even talk about it without feeling like a problem or a burden so I'll just shut up for now and pretend everything is okay like I do every day
December 17, 2025 at 8:37 PM
Tried to rest, couldn't rest. Too sore and anxious about everything. Can't even talk about it without feeling like a problem or a burden so I'll just shut up for now and pretend everything is okay like I do every day
Well I fucked up my T shot and made a mess cuz I sprayed blood fucking everywhere that was nauseating and triggering af :/ I feel kinda sick after that.
December 17, 2025 at 6:08 PM
Well I fucked up my T shot and made a mess cuz I sprayed blood fucking everywhere that was nauseating and triggering af :/ I feel kinda sick after that.
Looked up stuff about ECT and I am not exactly excited to say the least...
December 17, 2025 at 3:58 PM
Looked up stuff about ECT and I am not exactly excited to say the least...