can attest to the aquarium. it's massive and so much to see!!

put a gag on i-

wait

LÄMP

mao

very very excited for this TSL lineup tonight :3

@brotherdurry.bsky.social
@dvocean.bsky.social
@zoommair.bsky.social
@ghostdata.com

What matters is the fact that I created the circumstances that led to this being the outcome.

The worst part of BPD is that anything just starts setting off questions if I'm even welcome or accepted in spaces anymore.

Even if it's more for precaution it just sucks. I've just kind of accepted it as it is.

That's the adult thing to do anyway. Getting over and moving on.

*laughs in biochemist acid bomb*

bnnyu

Had this knocking around in my head for about 6 months and finally got around to writing it out and filming it. This is my first time making a video essay and I haven't written VO since college but I'm happy with how it came out. Let me know what you think!

Filmed in #vrchat
Edited with #blender3d

Abby when they aren't nice still

STAR PARTY VOL. 67

THIS THURSDAY

DOORS AT 8:30PM CDT
FIRST SET AT 9:00PM CDT

FEATURING:

@driima.com
@tree.pshq.us
@crunchyjointsvr.bsky.social
@fel77.bsky.social

Group+ instance! Join on friends or through the group!
vrc.group/STRPTY.4082

had no ill will but willingness to help and see what they can do to help***

This doesn't absolve me of anything. I'm speaking for accountability. I haven't made enough changes to feel satisfied, nor was I open with my thoughts and feelings.

Instead I have no choice but to keep moving forward again. Just as the cycle, I need to keep doing better, with consequences accepted

This is not a justification nor an excuse. What I did was inappropriate. It reminds me of what I did almost 1.5 years ago with The Chateau.

Of course I'm thinking that I didn't learn enough. I feel guilty and ashamed for repeating the same mistakes.

I may be thankful to be let go.

Instead of doing better by really stepping back, I forced myself to keep pushing through, despite keeping things suppressed and silent. Instead of accepting that I needed a break, I just forced an obsessive drive to push myself.

In turn, it hurt several people around me. Yes, I lashed out.

This weekend I ended up splitting against several individuals from a community that no ill will other than to help support me.

I chose to close myself off because of feelings that I suppressed.

As justified, they had to let me go. I don't have any ill will, it needed to happen.

I'm sorry.

before you go on social media complaining about a world in vrchat, consider the fact that you probably don't a single thing about the amount of work and dedication it takes to build one.

its ungrateful people in this game that kill the drive to create new experiences in this game.

It's a reflection of my own self. This is the reality within me.

Regardless of what happened last night, I have to face the consequences no matter what.

No matter how much it hurts.

No matter how much I destroyed those paths.

No matter how much remorse I have.

All because of my paranoia.

This paranoia, mixed with guilt and shame, will kill me one day.

I am alone.
You are here.

I am trapped.
You are digging.

I am hurting.
You are soothing.

I am invisible.
You are present.

I am doubting.
You are trusting.

I am breaking.
You are fixing.

I am struggling.
You are helping.