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@rottenchihuahua.bsky.social

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🔞NSFW🔞 VENT ACCOUNT Anxious chihuahua // he/they/it/ghost // therian/otherkin // PTSD/anxiety/depression/Bipolar 2/plurality// ADHD? You will see vents/rants, personal pics, pinterest things, Lil pup sh*

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · Jan 24

Vent/rant account! (NOT AN AD!)

💉Do not follow if you are expecting good stuff...! I'm just a crazy barking chihuahua here

💊Medicalcore/weirdcore/bloodcore/etc

🏥Depression/Anxiety/PTSD/SA survivor/ED recovery process/etc

🔪Don't follow if I don't know you! And Don't Share in general!!!

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 1d

Gore Warning ⚠️
Sometimes, we feel like we are losing our minds... and that's okay... it won't last forever

#furry #furryart #fur #furryfandom #commission #opencommissions #acrilicocat #promo #discord #furryartist #furryartwork #blueskyartist

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

I'm better... much calmer... it was just a night in crisis...
I still need to think what to do... but I'm in a better head space now

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

I shouldn't have quit my job
I would have had money... and the worst scenario I would have died from exploration
Hopefully crashed I n traffic...
It was a win²... oh bit I had to be so sissy to fear dead?! I would have the guys to finally jump out ot th 🪟
Rn injusy want to Crack my head in the wall

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

The only thing keeping me alive are my books... but they are so many that I just don't feel them worthy anymore...

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

Why can't I just step outside and by ran over by a car....

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

Would it be too direct to tell my pchiquiatrist I feel like a shitbad and an inconvenience ti everyone and I wanna die? Yeah? Thought so....

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

I feel like a huracaine that hurt everyone around me...

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

Mixed episode... I just want to cry my head out

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

Ok ok I know I can't make big decisions while hypomanic....
So let's... just... work....

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

Now we are talking about the ensurence... I'm... I want to just... dissappear please
Idk what to do anymore....

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

What about is I sale my body? Pictures... really considering it.. I might be manic as I want to jump into that

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

If I stay or leave in either places I'm gonna be bad...
I'm... I'm so lost... if I only could be independent...
I wish I could pay for my shit...

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

Maybe I.... idk... I want to just fucking not exist

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

Im having so much mental struggle...
I thought I was already okay with my situation.. but man... I'm not even sure anymore

I wish I could just hide under a fucking bridge to die

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 3d

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 4d

They finally made my meds smaller... and in a cute bottle...
Why do I care? Idk... I needed to feel good about anything at this point

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 5d

Baby looks rusty ans worn out...

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 5d

Why do I have the urge to buy plushies? Soft cute and fluffy plushies....
Might be part the little.... part bipolar wanting to make reckless things
I have no money for this

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 6d

Does this... this is how people feel when high

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 6d

Meds are hiting...
I'm tired.. but my mind is not letting me.. it is so weird

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🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 6d

All things that I have studies of bipolar: it's a lifelong med thing.. you can't go without it

Family: why do you take so many meds? Shouldn't you be doing the contrary and taking less till you don't need them? I see you okay....

Me: trying to fight back stop taking meds....

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 6d

My brain is shaken... I feel so messed up

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 8d

I'm so unmotivated to do anything... I don't want to leave the house....
I want to rot in bed for some time

🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪 @rottenchihuahua.bsky.social · 10d

My body hurts big time