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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 10h

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 11h

"I don't understand, I forgive you for hurting me, why wont you stay with me in my haunted manshion???"

I guess I'm just a dick.

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 11h

I would much rather someone tell me to shut the fuck up instead of the anxious constant approval seeking like

I'm literally GOING to crush you if you do not fucking speak you wuss, this isn't safe for either of us. -_-

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 11h

Sometimes I do things to other people that I would NEVER tolerate done to me. & when they just roll over for it, & don't check me on my shit, it's one of the fastest ways for me to be like "oh. I have to LEAVE."

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 11h

It'd be merciful to everyone if I just said "nah the vibes were off" & that's all I had to say about it. u_o I do not need to be anyone's savior. Oh, you're really nice to me & want to be important to me but also your relationship's in shambles & you wanna rebound? No thanks.

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 11h

It's okay to be my priority & what I need to focus on right now. Even if "focusing on" also just means me kinda being available in the background. I don't know. It was so fucking hard to form opinions about someone new when I was getting "my fuck shit partner cheated on me & im stuck" in stereo???

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 11h

It is nice to finally have my brother understand what I was saying from the jump. It is much more merciful to put at end to something that is only beginning as opposed to chilling it, stunting it's growth, & behaving as if Im entitled to it later- when it is convenient for me
Neither of us need that

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 12h

there's a fucking hmart in my town lets fucking GOOO doryakiiii ANPAAAAN MELON PANBREAAAAD YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 12h

I find it personally distasteful when others project their autophobia onto me.

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 12h

Don't need it.

Didn't ask for the "life coaching."

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 12h

Cut the red panda off completely. Adults say "I don't like this. I don't want to do this. We aren't friends." No need for a bigger scene than that.

The pressure from my little brother to go grow fonder to someone else no matter what, & if I don't or flinch I'm a fucking "failure to myself " shit?

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 13h

Loneliness is part of the song.

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 13h

Specialized tchotchkes that do only ONE thing are the quitter's way out. There's got to be something charming & functional that would prop my phone up on my desk as secure as it once was, with my pen-cup turning the handle to buckle it in like that... 💭

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 13h

"There's something I need to be figuring out" true.

Like... What's a good way to prop up my phone on here like I used to have it? 9w9,

I had some monitor arm I thought I'd use but I'm putting that off, so like... A cup? a special stand just for my cell phone? huhu~ ♫ NO...

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 13h

Hmm. I haven't used my square whiteboard & micron personal-journaling-&-healing-speed-sketches approach to art in a while, now that I reflect on the pub Vanguard

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 14h

💭 Fiji 🍎 aren't so bad. 9.9,

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 14h

or it could be the beginning of something truly excellent uwo wild to think that all this stuff is just... mine. Home can be ... nice. Not only "the best I can do- & be grateful."

Heh. 💗

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 14h

i was unable to get any napping done post-dresser delivery & now that my belly's full & ive basically done all i can until I have the new cubbies & such I'm kinda like

~.~ mmf.

nice ~w~

if only this brief season of prosperity is all of the "normalcy" I ever get to experience, well

it was fun heh

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 14h

rapidly fills it with shoe boxes since i was already thinking how nice it'd be to get actual sandals now that questing season is over, heh

"play games, have fun, socialize?"

how about play house, have shopping, & reorganize? 😎

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 14h

I have a LOT more space in my closet now than I even realized. Since I've basically stacked up vertically as much as I can with the cardboard boxes my appliances & gizmos come in. The only thing IN it's box right now is my humidifier. Ooh & uh i had socks & stuff way up top & now it's like 33% more!

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 16h

Dinner was nice. I would like to play toys. Yet despite my desire to rot, I was just tired. I think I will put on something & start reorienting my room. At the very least migrate all of my clothes that are into my dresser. My new, sturdy, impressive dresser!

I LOVE COMPLETING MY SILLY LITTLE TASKS!

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 16h

"With You, Our Love Will Make It Through" gotta be the most cliche of cliched white bread romances I've ever seen but you give me furry boys I'm all in

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 17h

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JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 17h

hurry hurry hurry
worry worry worry

🏖 Later. Hmm~ hm, hmmmm...♫
Hmm~ hm, hmmmm... ♪
Hmm... Hmm... Hm, hmm-hmm... hm. ♫

JEALOUSEIZE @roostingphoenix.bsky.social · 17h

... I wonder...

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At least I know that it's just a game to the one who has nothing to lose except

me

would be a pretty good ghost story to spook me just telling me you dont need or want me

i might even let myself believe it enough to cry

again ha... haha... ah..

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