Rainy Kagetora 🐯🀍🌩️ White Tiger ENVtuber
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Rainy Kagetora 🐯🀍🌩️ White Tiger ENVtuber
@rainykagetora.bsky.social
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Stormy tiger agent🌩️ Vtuber. Anime, games, and spy thrillers. Pro yapper and annoyance. πŸ‡¨πŸ‡¦ Check my schedules! https://www.twitch.tv/rainy_kagetora https://rainykagetora.carrd.co/ πŸ’: Xylex_Starr model: chiyostudio logo: mikalogo chibi: blueiris
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I've never before been so fucking happy to be myself

In the end, we get to choose who we want to be.

Happy Pride Month, my first time openly celebrating it as a girl! 🀍🩷🩡🐯
Back from vacation and officially back on socials!

Wild stuff happened on my trip. My ring finger feels pretty heavy now.
I've never before been so fucking happy to be myself

In the end, we get to choose who we want to be.

Happy Pride Month, my first time openly celebrating it as a girl! 🀍🩷🩡🐯
You all have no idea how much getting to spend time with you has brightened my days. Having people I can relate to and not worry about judgment has been incredible.

I think it's no exaggeration to say I'm still alive today because I met you all.
This doesn't even feel real at times tbh.

It feels like such a big step to accept myself, like maybe this is some kind of dream. There's so much I don't know about this journey, but I have people to help walk me through every step.
I'm slowly making friends who are trans, nonbinary, gay, lesbian, bi, pan, ace, and lots who aren't LGBTQ at all.

Turns out all that matters is us all liking the same stuff and being nice to each other. Wild.

I came out as transgender in December, and then told my IRL family a few months later.
When I confessed to them, I got called a faker.

To be rejected after opening up like that messed me up bad. But once you hit your own rock bottom, you either give up or survive.

I became a vtuber because I wanted to find my own friends out there, who were able to relate to me or could accept me.
Eventually I worked up the nerve. I joined social media last summer because, while browsing the web, I met a vtuber who was just like me. I thought we connected, we flirted, we shared about our lives. I would've given them everything. I would've done or been anything for them.
Instead I'd live out my fantasies in video games as a girl. I could at least be happy in a game world like FFXIV or MonHun. I'd sometimes fantasize about being reborn in the game or in another world as one.

I worried I was too late. If only I had told my 12-year old self to chase those dreams.
I repressed myself so deeply that I had a mental breakdown and would hear voices everywhere.

Hurt myself by staying sad, or you'll hurt others by being happy. People can't hurt you if they don't realize you're different. And I don't have dreams, I can't be tortured by what I didn't have.
Me? I was never a brave person, I was a coward, who was so desperate to fit in and not disappoint her 'normal' family and friends that I would rather disappear than be different.

I knew since I was 12 what I wanted to see looking back at me in the mirror, but I thought it was easier to deny it.
I originally had no post for Pride Month.

I felt everything that needed to be said had been done already these past days by people much funnier, smarter or more interesting.

I felt like I didn't deserve to celebrate Pride. Because I used to be scared of being trans.
Wowza. Half a year ago this was my original homemade pfp when I joined twitter. Feels like I'm a totally different person now after all this time.

I was 100% convinced I would never make any friends online, glad I kept trying. I really want to try harder to keep making friends.
Thanks for coming to stream today! At the end I... started singing, for the first time in 15 years. I chose the Cups Song from Pitch Perfect.

It was rough, I was mortified by how off my pitch and rhythm were. And I started crying after because people still liked it. You dummies.
Storytime: Ladies need more iron. So I nearly bit off a piece of my fork trying to cram food in before stream. Accident, I swear.

Come chat with me about this as we continue playing Metaphor Re:Fantazio, right now!

www.twitch.tv/rainy_kagetora
Rainy_Kagetora - Twitch
Rainy Kagetora, tsundere white tiger and rookie secret agent. Gamer (RPGs, souls, MonHun, action and stealth), yapper. I also do art for fun on occasion.
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I remembered it now. It all started when the first person I fell in love with called me a fake girl.

To him: Thank you.

I would never have become a vtuber and a happier person without hearing those words and deciding I'd prove you wrong. I'm making real friends who I love.
I badly wanted to keep going but my voice was dying, so we raided @dragonspit.bsky.social for the first time, who was playing Runescape Dragonwilds with the most adorable chibi!

I'm so thankful and honoured to all of you for hanging with me last night!

Live tonight at 6pm EST to continue the game!
Streaming at 6pm EST tonight!

In Bloodborne we finish the main story by clearing the Nightmare of Mensis, and end the Hunter's Dream! This was the 2nd game I started since streaming so this is a major day.

Afterwards, we can finally get back to playing Metaphor: ReFantazio!

#vtuber #Bloodborne