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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Goodbye Bluesky.

I deactivated 4 months ago after a traumatic experience, having my boundaries and consent repeatedly violated by a former close friend. (Let’s call her Jane to protect her identity). I've realized that I'm unable to find closure.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

This experience has left me traumatized and disillusioned and made me feel very unsafe and alienated. This is the first and only time I'll talk about this. While I have proof for everything I will mention in these threads, I’m not including the 120+ screenshots here to protect people’s identities.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

For months, Jane has been pursuing a sexual and romantic relationship with me, pushed to be friends with benefits with me, and looked to be in a polycule with me and RAYN4. Jane did all this while knowing that I didn’t feel the same way and that I was already spoken for in a closed relationship.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Assigning meaning to a bodily response is a very dangerous thing to do, which made Jane’s constant boundary violations even more uncomfortable. RAYN4 said it did push buttons but nothing more, and explained how she felt familial love for Jane, as a friend and seeing her as a big sister.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

I’m leaving, because this unsafe place just reminds me of fake friends and broken promises.

From now on, I will just spend time with people who genuinely care about me, enjoy being around me, and love me, like 💞RAYN4.🥰

Goodbye.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

I’m tired of trying to put time and energy in people who will just ghost me like I’ve never mattered.

As long as people knowingly harbor sex pests in their community because they’re scared of losing them as a friend to the point of fully defending sexual abuse, this place will never be safe.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

I feel like my kindness and forgiving nature has been cruelly taken advantage of. The moment people care more about keeping up public appearances than sending a single reassuring message to a close friend is when I feel I have just been taken for granted.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Before all this, I was in a community surrounded by people who would loudly speak up against sexual abuse and sex pest behavior, but the moment the sex pest turned out to be a friend of theirs, people would choose to look the other way, or twist themselves into a pretzel to downplay the abuse.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Becoming isolated also made it harder to heal, I not only had to process Jane’s constant violations by myself but I had to experience the pain of seeing people who I thought were my friends just quietly abandon me one after the other.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

This really showed me that most people only care about keeping their community as long as they’re not personally affected. Even if it meant keeping a sexual predator in their circles, while broadcasting in public how they’re a beacon of kindness and safety. Instead, I was the one who got isolated.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

It made me feel that the friendships I had were nothing but a mirage. I never thought that when the chips were down, people I thought had my back would just cut ties with me, throwing abuse victims under the bus to preserve their own personal comfort. So many people are defending the indefensible.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

This severely damaged my trust in people, and made me scared to reach out to others. Not only did I not know who Jane had successfully manipulated into believing her false narrative, every time I reached out to someone I was scared people wouldn’t believe me despite the crystal clear evidence.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Even the person leading her own community while knowing Jane is a sex pest, chooses not to remove her, but to defend Jane’s sexual abuse by portraying Jane as a clueless victim. Using her autism as a shield by calling Jane a “confused autistic person”. Exposing her own community to be predated on.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Even people who have seen everything Jane had said and done, who experienced firsthand that Jane lied to them by showing only half the screenshots, and who told me “I would stand by you no matter what” ended up ghosting me while resuming friendly interactions with Jane, knowing what she did.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Even when being shown evidence, most people wouldn’t even take it seriously. They would either go silent in order to not have to deal with the issue they were presented with, or they would flat-out deny the abuse that was being shown in the screenshots before ghosting me.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

You would think that a person who pushed for a sexual relationship for months without any regard to boundaries, consent, or the fact the people she was constantly pursuing were neither available nor interested, would be kicked out of the communities they were in. You’d think wrong.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Jane thinks physical arousal means the person is in love with them and consenting. Jane told me that she wanted to love me sexually and romantically, and that it was okay that I didn't feel the same way. She wanted to fuck me, KNOWING that I didn't want that. This feels incredibly rapey.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Every time I was either sleep deprived or in a mental health crisis (like during my breakup), Jane would take advantage of this by pushing and violating my boundaries, so that I wouldn’t notice them as it happened since I wasn't able to process the full implications of her words.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

I want to be clear: Jane has been pursuing me for months, violating my boundaries despite me turning her down multiple times, only for her to keep pushing how she wants to love me romantically and sexually while knowing I don’t feel the same way, wearing me down. This is grooming.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

When I was adopted in the community, I thought I had found my place to belong, where I could express myself, be myself, and most importantly, be safe. Because I would be around people who would understand me, people I thought had my back. This experience has proven to me that it was all an illusion.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

I have not been in the furry fandom long, only two years, but during that time I have seen that the fandom has a sex pest problem. This platform in general has a sex pest problem, and a lot of people who advocate the loudest about being safe, choose to defend sex pests, or look the other way.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

This harrowing experience has left me feeling utterly alienated and disillusioned. Not only was what Jane did to me extremely traumatic, the wall of silence I was met with after the fact shattered any illusion of a semblance of community I thought I had.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

This sudden shift further traumatized RAYN4 and me in multiple ways. Because not only was I suddenly met with my social circle falling apart, people went from confirming we had been SA’d based on all evidence shown, to abandoning us while they made excuses for our abuser.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Mary wasn’t the only one who suddenly abandoned me. Other friends, even those who had condemned Jane after seeing the full context, unfriended/blocked me and RAYN4 out of nowhere, at the same time Mary did. When RAYN4 asked someone what was going on, she was met by another easily disproved lie.

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Poes ΘΔ @poesmyaa.bsky.social · Nov 25

Mary actively pushed the narrative that RAYN4 and I were “selling snake oil” and accusing us of harassing her, while calling Jane, our sexual abuser, a “confused autistic person who is also a victim”. This is unequivocally sexual abuse apologia and ableist for using our abusers autism as a shield.

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