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Peacebone (aka Adrian)

@peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social

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26 • hobby artist • transmasc (he/xey/it) My little safe haven to talk abt whatever is on my mind and my personal lived experiences /trauma. I occasionally do art too! Character designing is my passion.

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Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 5d

I've had sleep issues since I was very young, so I wouldn't be surprised if it was something genetic. But posing it as me staying up purpose is just..not true?? I'm tired 24/7..why on earth would the idea of WILLINGLY tiring myself be the conclusion 🤦

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 5d

Like are we being deadass..don't you think I've tried this countless times before?? If I didn't have chronic sleep issues, that clearly would've worked 🙄
That and them say "having to take sleep meds is bad"
Meanwhile being prescribed sleep meds is the only time I get good sleep..

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 5d

One thing that always makes me feel exhausted is trying to explain a very real mental health struggle to a family member who could care less. Talking abt a diagnosis I got a while back (unspecified sleep disorder) and how I've been struggling and all I get is "just go bed at night" :|

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Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 12d

It's been so rough lately, and with an impending birthday, all I want to do is retreat and be alone
I have such an overwhelming sense of dread and panic slowly accumulating within me

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 17d

Long ass thread just to say: I'm over it. I don't have time or energy for mind games if I'm owed an apology. I just want consistency and accountability.

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 17d

I'm just so sick of it bc if I hurt someone I do whatever it takes to make it up to them and I barely even get considered in return. The most I get is "I'm sorry you feel that way" which is a non apology. And this is why ppl who can't take accountability don't stay long in my life.

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 17d

This goes for like, 99% of my interpersonal relationships. People I know and even my own family acts like "oh, enough time has pased, get over it" but like..no?? I'm allowed to respond to emotional hurt and abandonment. It's not my job to soothe anyone's else's guilt for what they've done :/

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 17d

Nothing makes me more upset than when ppl don't take accountability for stuff. Passage of time isn't an apology. Popping up and acting like nothing happened isn't going to magically smoothe things over. Legit I don't want to talk to ppl when they owe me an apology. Just fess up to it bro.

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 18d

Daisy, my elderly dog, is doing so much better
She no longer stumbles and is back to her old self. Tomorrow is her last day on meds! :]

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 24d

Guess who got sick

Both me n my dog are going through it rn lmaooo

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 25d

Bonus doodle

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 25d

The absolute hysterics I was in when my childhood dog started stumbling..only to find out from the vets that she has old dog vertigo. She's okay!! And actually pretty healthy for being 15

Daisy is home and recovering ❤️

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 25d

I just realized I never explained what my little dude is. He's a bilbly w floppy ears. His glasses are round bc I got some Harry potter ass glasses going on that I wear...if I remember to...

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · 27d

Recent doodles from when I feel well enough to draw
Been super exhausted lately ugh

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 19

On today's misadventures: I lost my balance while babysitting my brother's dog and took a door handle straight to the dome ((I'm okay, it wasn't that hard. Still..ouch))

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 18

Something that makes me happy when dystonic symptoms get really bad and I get bummed out is that I like to watch videos of cats w cerebellar hypoplasia. They're just like me frfr (also known as wobbly cat syndrome)

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 18

How life is going rn

Also I really want raising canes rn

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 17

This dystonia shit is so ass. My coordination is so off that I stumble, fine motor movements like picking stuff up is challenging with the added difficulty of my tremors, and it's so exhausting that I've been donking out for hours

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 16

Why is my cat such a diva

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 15

Hitting him with the "inflicting him w current issues I'm struggling w as an outlet and self expression" beam

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 15

I forgot to share Cadaver, who's part of a personal project I'm working on
I not only inflicted the poor bastard with my own trauma, but he's also going to experience ADR due to meds he's put on later

All u need to know is that he's a retired test subject who lives w an adoptive family

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 10

My twin is moving away tomorrow...I'm totally not bummed out by it..

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 10

My sweet baby ❤️

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 9

Just an update to say that if I seem upset, it has nothing to do with anyone 🙏
I apologize if I come off cross or snappy, I'm not meaning to I'm just stressed rn

Peacebone (aka Adrian) @peacebonethetanuki.bsky.social · Sep 8

The only downside to taking an ssri honestly 💔 but my meds work for me, so if it means I have to occasionally deal w ADR then so be it