LEVIATHAN SEA MONSTER EXTRAORDINAIRE
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LEVIATHAN SEA MONSTER EXTRAORDINAIRE
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Everyone's favorite sea monster returns. The swarm of trans girls continues to intensify and the diaper accelerates. Kids, call your senators. 24/f
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I would devote my entire existence to the first and only human with even a little goodness in their heart.
If you think a single trans woman being allowed to stay in the south is forgivable you are the reason I dream of human extinction

When the fuck will I wake up in a world where saying "I want to live" will let me fucking live?

Why can't the world end for keeping me here? Even that's too kind.
Sometimes you just need a blunt and to talk to the only other person you know fucking gets it lol
...yeah can my meds hurry up and work I'm tired of being not pretty but at the same time I do my best to be upfront here because none of you know me and so I *can* talk honestly about my feelings because there won't be consequences in the same way there would if I spoke with someone IRL
I wish I could EVER meet someone even slightly kind that would understand that I need help overcoming this and getting the fuck out of the south.

Nuking it would be too kind.
When can it be my turn to run the fuck away and join the laughter and forget what it's like to ever be bothered and start leaving everyone like me for dead?

I'm tired of having to suffer. In my life I have done nothing wrong, why does it have to be like this?
Like I'm actively getting medicated this is supposed to start genuinely being better instead of "oh Odette now you have ~1 hr a day of lucidity and the rest of the time you're gonna wanna run away and blow shit up"
Still wondering when I'm going to *stop* feeling like I just took an epi-pen and as much opium as I could get my hands on because I'm constantly on edge and ready to fight everything and everyone.

For the love of everything can this at least pass before it gets me fired or in jail?
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Without downloading new pics, what is it like to date you?
Turns out it's time to nyodette.

Also slowly feeling better every day lol
Like I absolutely am glad I got diagnosed and I'm actively seeking and on treatment but it's not currently working for me to a point I can be a functional human instead of somebody who wants nothing more than fire for what she's had to go through and yet still nobody will believe her.
Yeah I'm genuinely sorry I'm currently going through one of the worst mental health episodes of my life and I think I'm going to be okay in the end but for at least a little bit I'm just lashing out at everything even though I don't want to.
Yeah I'm not sure knowing all of this is in my head is helpful when that's also all I have?

I feel like shit physically and mentally even if it's noticable that the new meds are part of getting back on the right track but I want to stop fantasizing about finally meeting the only good person.
Nakamura is neat in that I actually saw myself in her despite also feeling like she's a terrible person
Like I'm not going to say I'm thinking of harming myself because I'm not going to simply because I hate myself too much to do the only kind thing I'd ever be able to do for myself.
Yeah since yesterday I've felt genuinely hopeless and like it's time to finally admit to myself that I irreparably failed myself. I'll never get to a place where things could possibly get better and feel as though life is worth living. I've felt a strong sense of envy for those who don't exist.
Ok yeah quitting my antidepressants has made me the most miserable I've been in a long time, don't be surprised if you see a LOT more nyodette, I think I'm gonna be trying to take a bit of a break from the big girl world
This is why no potties ever, nyodette approved
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we really fucked up when we evolved from monkeys. we should have evolved from dogs instead
They like my skibidi, she love my rizzler, he gyatt my 6 7, nyodetting my ohio