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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 2d

YOU LOOK SO GOOD!!

mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 3d

oh well sure, to be honest i don’t think there’s many places i made a wrong move. there’s just the biting sense of “i wish i could do more for you” through it all, since in standing up i’m definitely running you through the dirt

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 3d

i’m sorry for my role in this. i dont know what happened recently but i know i set a lot of your disorder into motion and i really haven’t felt good about it. here’s praying next year brings the two of us stability

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 4d

hrt does that to you! i started feeling it like a year and a half in personally, (wouldve been four years ago,) when my t levels had first started to approach target levels. it’s faded away since but no i reaaaaally wanted to be a mom then, it’s the estrogen doing its work

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 4d

unironically yes

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

the youth has forgotten about bacon pancakes

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-in the years since. this is not about accountability or justice, it's all spite. and it's clearly working if you've got a completely unrelated party messaging one of my partners to amplify their lies and drag me through the dirt

enough is enough. leave me alone. you have nothing on me. stop it.

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

and that is the root of why i'm in any drama at all. because i don't think an adult should blame people (let alone a young teen) for murder over misunderstandings, this--what was once encouraged by these people--is now being dug up and slathered against me, despite everything i've done to improve-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

that was where the situation ended until alejandra contacted me. i won't post the whole chat but my understanding at the time was that we found common ground despite me completely disagreeing with her. so it was a surprise when she up and cut me off later

sexual harassment was never mentioned.

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

i was too scared to put my foot down myself--suicide blame is a touchy subject and i figured she was still volatile--but one of my headmates, kelly, did ultimately confront her when she briefly rejoined the v&v server

this caused nicole to block us and send these messages over bluesky.

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

i get you cant control yourself amidst a breakdown, especially one like this which led to a suicide attempt. it was (and still is) horrifying and i'm glad she was physically unharmed by it.

however, nicole's next move was to accuse ringo and sour poptart of ATTEMPTED MURDER

i repeat: MURDER

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-(which i can't share due to the rules of v&v) ringo was treated as the second coming of satan and the root of all evil over it. disproportionate, but i held my tongue, and not ultimately what i had issue with in the end

the issue was the second time around, with a non-american 13-year-old:

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

it's worded extremely brazenly, no doubt. even if it was genuine and without the necessary framework to word correctly, it's still bold wording worth criticism. nia broke down over this and the hosts strengthened some rules and put out plurality awareness. that's okay, though behind closed doors-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

were all part of this bfdi-style online reality game called Vacations & Ventures. it's a community that doesn't intersect much with plurality, so there was confusion over the APP tag attached to each of nia's messages. there were two huge instances of this, with this being the first:

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-first indicator since i had apologized to him, after i had entirely fallen out with the gc.

thirdly, and absolutely foremost, that is not REMOTELY why alejandrite talked to me. like AT ALL LOL

the situation mentioned here is why the gc actually fell apart. me, alejandrite, & raisin (nicole/nia)-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-the guy was in my server up until i purged inactive people (this july, or august) and we're still twitter mutuals. my only clue was having a friend request denied around this same time (i was the one who removed him, i was breaking down and blocked like 400 people) and even then that was the-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-from my perspective; the first screenshot would've been taken from april-june this year.) it was a number of years ago, had been apologized for at that time, i grew apart from the gc and grew as a person in this aspect. i didn't have any reason to believe any feelings remained on this front,-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

firstly, quickly, i don't drink myself to the point of being drunk, and even if i was tipsy or high here then the series of behaviors started and continued while sober

secondly, i omitted this from both documents because it was not just utterly irrelevant but entirely moved past from (at least-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

(admittedly didn't stop me from making advances with others, though i tried my best to be clear it was no-strings-attached and i hadn't tamed my heart. my polycule was very aware of this)

if admitting to this is the end of me, then so be it--i accept it with arms splayed.

but the truth ends there.

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-and struggling with treating people as just friends. this was the one time it manifested itself as a joke, in an effort to make the gc laugh and also because the guy was taken. plus this was at the point where i'd stopped dating people willy-nilly, i didn't want to make a legitimate advance.

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-people in the years since, with discovering why i fall for and flirted with a lot of the people i met, which i gave a passing mention in my deleted document from august.

i laid love pretty heavy on people since it was honestly all i knew how to do, growing up in places i shouldn't have online-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-i went leaps and bounds over his boundaries and it was really gross of me to do. i apologized two and a half years ago, to which i recall being forgiven, but he's well within his right to take that back. i hurt him and that is my consequence.

i've done a lot of work in how i've behaved towards-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

-chat consisting of a lot of the people in the second image, and at some point a joke popped up saying the guy in question was a dogboy, which i ran with and turned into a running gag where i heavily hit on the guy

irrespective of the others in the gc laughing with me (even years later, as seen)-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

here are the attached images. this is the quality i got them in, sorry if it's unreadable

there's a lot of lies surrounding the message but i will be blunt and say the core accusation is absolutely true. i sexually harassed someone, and it was not limited to this message. it was sent in a group-

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mjncetera @mjncetera.bsky.social · 9d

i'm at the point where i'm straight up losing sleep and feeling a constant sense of paralysis so i think i'm going to get the first public word out and address this. 🧵

(no alt text on this thread since i don't want this drama to spread outside my sphere)

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