Autist, Survivor of Mormonism
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Is it possible to die from taking too many phone calls?
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Is it time to buy more yarn? Yes, obviously. It is always time for more yarn, no matter how much you already have.
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It’s tax filing deadline. That means I get yelled at, threatened to be fired, and told I am incompetent because people left things too late. Your daily reminder not to be nasty to customer service people you want to do extra to help you out of a pickle.
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Apparently Facebook sent me $32 for violating my privacy. So glad for this piece of justice.
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I miss a handful of people I wish lived closer to me. I tell them this. Sometimes. It’s not aggressive. Just love.
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I’m coming to accept (slowly) that my job as a parent of adult children is to create occasions for them to talk safely with each other and without my participation.
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I’m working on being the “cool Halloween lady.” After many years of my kids complaining I don’t give out candy, kids these days seem to love temporary tattooed and light up rings and necklaces. I have candy as a backup.
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I am trying today to accept I can do x, which is not as much as others can do. I admire and sometimes envy, but I cannot do more.
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Trying to figure out why I’m sleeping so much better lately. Yoga is a big change. Is yoga making me not need to pee? Or is not peeing a side effect of sleeping better?
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My mom asked me how I was doing after my hysterectomy and I had totally forgotten about it.

I did say, well, I may not be doing any races.

Mom: well, that’s good because those were always bad for you.

That’s my mom, honest to a fault. She might not be wrong.
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Thinking today about the very orthodox Mormon who said to me twenty years ago “we worship God, not the family,” and wondering how/if she holds onto this today.
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I have come to the conclusion that I am in an echo chamber and need to do a better job of seeing the other side. This doesn’t mean I think what is going on is ok.
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At around age 11, I passed for 17/18. At 18, same. At 27, same. I loved being seen as older and hated being seen as younger.
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My fitness app informs me I lifted 17,200 pounds today. That sounds like a lot.
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Therapist reminding me (along with my boss): you were picked for this pilot because you are a rock star and the company wants to hear feedback on how this might work in the best-case scenario. They are very far from wanting to fire you if you mess up. Phew!
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Tried lychee curry at Thai place yesterday, it was good.
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My grandma always spelled my name wrong. Sigh. Hard name, but it’s HER grandmother
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Then she went on about how DH is so right and Mormons aren’t having enough kids. WYF!!??
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My mom literally complained today that she only had 50 grandchildren because President Nelson had so many more and she was apparently mad I only had 6 (and one of those died).
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I only toyed with quitting twice yesterday, which is much better than Monday or Tuesday. Today was my day off but still wishing I didn’t have to go back. Ever.
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Did a full bedtime routine with grandbaby last night: stories, bath, singing. First time he has paid attention to a book (10 weeks). Still didn’t want to sleep in crib alone. Sigh.
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It’s always weird when I encounter someone who used to be a devout Mormon, sometimes even those who tried to reconvert me recently, who have now also left. Sisters!! We do a secret handshake!
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I didn’t mean to say you will lose it. Only that you don’t necessarily know in advance.
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I would have said this twenty years ago. I was a believer in my DNA. But change happened. I wish sometimes I could go back. But it’s not really a choice like that. Like, not just trying harder. It’s weird tbh.