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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jan 28

I need to tell people and I'm still not sure how to do that yet, but I need to.
I have entirely lost access to my PC and all files etc with it and no longer have my own home and it will be like that indefinitely.
I have no control over this.

The bottom line is, I can't be Jager.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · 24d

There's something coming up soon that I have to face and I just want to remind myself that being me, being a real artist, getting to be a part of something as unique as this, being Jager, was worth it, no matter what happens, or how people may try to twist things.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · 24d

I am very grateful that I was given the chance to be Jager and to be a part of something where people are allowed to be themselves.
I feel like part of a family.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · 24d

I've done a lot of art over the decade and a half, I wish I'd done more. That I made more friends and wasn't as keeping to myself as I was.
But still, I feel like I've contributed to something and that I can say that I am an artist that was able to BE an artist, share a piece of themselves.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · 24d

I did an awful lot to try and make it work, I remember like it was yesterday asking CatMonkShiro how I make this whole commissions thing work.
And over time I built not only a living for myself but also lots of friends. Friends that really see me and allow me to see them for what they want to be.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · 24d

I joined FA and thus this community around abouts 2011. And it's where I've always felt home. Where I've felt accepted and free to explore with my art and share it with others.
It's also the only place I've seemed to find any success in my life. A way to make money to live.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Sep 20

I'm tired, really tired. But I can't sleep no matter the amount of pills the man gives me to cope with the same pain the man deals to me.

I don't know.
And I really mean I don't know.
I've lost my voice and the colour in my eyes.

I just lived and I didn't know it deserved this.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 31

To everyone else, those still supporting me. You have literally kept me alive to buy food too and it means a lot, like really.
I've been around a fairly long time and I never fully appreciated the community we have, one that when I'm back active in will get my full love and respect like never before

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 31

This is the longest I've gone without making art. It makes me sick.
After so many years of being Jager to being forced to not be.
I miss you all so much, really I do. I have a few very close trusted friends of ours helping me through this, without them I would likely be dead, that is the truth.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 4

It's a profoundly difficult situation, one I'm legally silenced by, like I'm constantly having to stop myself from speaking out about. But it's still happening.
I pray once if it's over I can be in an environment that's positive of who I am again.

Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 4

And I'm sorry, I know how all this on your feed is all you ever see from me now. Maybe I should stop and try to not post about it. I just don't know how to explain that what's happening to me isn't okay. It's not right. But I'm just screaming into nothingness.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 4

And as someone who's always identified in some way therian it's a suffering I can't explain that I really hope is reversible.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 4

I used to see Intercision as such a intimately cruel thing, and was glad that it was just fictional.
But I've found that it really does exist in reality, along with all the clinical "it's for your own good to remove the evil"-ness.
I really hope I'm not dead in there. Really.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 1

The trouble is I've only got people around me physically and systematically that want this part of me gone.
I've only really had the one close friend from this part of me that's been keeping me from killing myself already. And even then, they've only physically been words on a screen.

Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 1

I just can't believe this is what this is now. I just can't think back to like a year ago and now.
I just don't accept this reality, I just don't know why it's got to be like this.
I can't.

Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 1

Support has dried up enough that I cant buy food any more, which was to be expected I suppose.
I just don't know what I'm supposed to do any more.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 1

Right now I can't, because of my situation. But I pray that there is the other side of this that allows me to live again and not one where it gets worse.

Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jul 1

If I make it through this I want to live, I want to go to BFC and all the others, I want to be me.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jun 27

I'm told to stop even coming here, to forget everything that I am like I have a problem. Even this they could use against me.
Why, why keep living like this. Why suffer being erased like this.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jun 27

What do you do when you aren't able to exist and there's no fighting back, no escaping?
I just keep being left with the same answer daily and I don't know how to act on that while I still barely have the autonomy to.

I need the innocent days, of expression and exploration.
For me, they're a memory.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jun 24

It's like, I wish things were as simple as just a site not allowing us any more. Babyfurs, ABDL, furry in general.
The fucking hell I'm living and not being able to talk about.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Jun 3

Pride hits a lot different when you're actively being repressed and told to stop interacting with a community.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · May 24

I miss everyone, I miss existing, I'm worried that I'll be forgotten or worse.
The challenges I'm facing, I feel like a bird under 100ft of water being expected to swim.
Everything is wrong, and I can't do anything about it.

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♡𖦹 Ashfurry 𖦹♡ @dreamt.dog · Oct 19

animal otherness 🌀

[ #autism #transgender #therian #otherkin #furry #xenogender ]

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · May 3

I really can't take the stress of the situation I'm in any more.
Really, if you knew exactly what. But I'm not even sure if I can legally say what.
Like really. I'm sick.

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Jager Darklite 🐴🔞 @jagerdarklite.bsky.social · Mar 15

Thank you that means a lot.
It's a bizarre situation and it's difficult to navigate really.
I feel bad for just taking with nothing given back.
I'm trying to at least start taking sfw non abdl or anything commissions at stableforge.bsky.social now.
Hopefully I can work with that towards stability.

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