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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · Aug 31

i want to bed him.

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · Aug 31

hhhrnngrhr. rrrnnghr. biting him biting him

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 19h

i dont know how to live in the long-term. i dont see a farflung "future" to look forward to. all i have are the small things. i want to read the next fic update. i want to play the next esuri event. i want to maybe try and start drawing again and make a fanpv again. a lifeline of little things

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 19h

i told her i stood at the top floor of the dorm building and looked down over the railing and Considered. but decided to "postpone" it to another day. another day, another day. i was just living every 24 hrs promising myself "not today"

i still live like that, to be honest. a mantra of "not today"

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 19h

how to explain? my gramma is trying so hard to understand but she keeps trying to find a Cause. no, i was not bullied nor threatened nor ostracized in uni. i was just not able to be happy. i wish i could tell her how depression is. the fog that just keeps you lost

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Kay F. Atkinson - Unlimited Combat Dolls out Feb. 10 @tinylesbianrobot.itch.io · 1d

windows is an angry parent, linux is a domme

"No. Absolutely not. Put that back. Sit down or I'm turning this car around." (crashes)
vs
"Are you sure about that, baby? If you are, say it to me again with confidence <3" (fucks up your life exactly as instructed)

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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

frankly put, i think it might be genuinely better for me if i just repress all my gender thoughts again. if i simply refuse to think about it then thats just one less upsetting topic to constantly think about. like. will i be unhappy about it? yea, but there aint much else doable

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

oh god why is my phone keyboard doing the glitchy again. plEase

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

if thats the line from phantom that i think it is, ive personally tl'd it as "let us dance, o fellow competitors"? or smth along that. wait. squints. 競走? i thought its 競争?

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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

oh i love how all my computer mice keep breaking their scroll wheels. surely i dont scroll that violently to warrant the damage?

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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

i forget "dead fish" is right there when im mentally trying to tl maguro in That context. idk why my brain defaults to "pillow prince/ss" first when it doesnt sound nearly as insulting

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

i will pioneer and captain every citron rarepair, which is all of them except citoita and maybe guycito bcs citron doesnt rly get shipped at all which is so sad. i love citwon

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

........citojuza..................

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 2d

as a seemingly natural evolution of my "citron dates everyone" hc i now have a fun new thing called "juza gets a lil crush on everyone" spinning around in my head

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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 4d

bought some at a petrol station

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 4d

ah fuck. i didnt bring any of my painkiller meds. ow. ow. owww

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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 4d

geh. werewolfism? here? now? while im out here in the ricefields?

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 4d

its very serene... but i can only tolerate living here for no longer than 2-3 days at a time orz, too much of a city guy

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 5d

long time since ive been back to hometown village... buncha stuff is new and changed

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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 5d

going to stay a night at hometown village. hopefully itll like, reset me or smth

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 5d

oh.

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 6d

does jp not have the sarcasm gesture(?) of "rolling your eyes"/eyeroll ?

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 9d

hi sorry for the uh. Concerning last post i made. very bad things happened so now im in crisis mode

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feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 12d

i need him to come here and kill me before i ruin anything else

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 14d

weow the guy sitting next to me in this waiting lobby is snoring away. go king get that sleep

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 14d

juza with grandma reading glasses...

feya / フィヤ @houfukuseisaku.bsky.social · 14d

but i persist. if not for myself then at least for my ailing grandparents