Dealing with my bullshit by relentless hornyposting

When I realised too late a few months back I was recording video and rolled with it

God it's been at least over half a decade since I ate pussy and I'm going feral about that atm

You gotta understand I'm the kinda girl to consistently do bits while I beat the shit of you

Always said I was more Fun Aunt than Mommy but dunno...isn't feeling as bad a concept now

Only cowards don't wanna embrace complete regression and disillusion

Disregarding your own humanity kinda rocks actually when not wanting to exist is the vibe

I mean outside of maybe going that way myself? I really do feel kinda sad I don't have a Puppygirl in the Cule

Tbh I might take it classic and go Catgirl

I dunno fully how far I'd go, but feel like I'm built to maybe go Puppy

Said beautiful woman getting there as early as possible, being the first one in and so clearly enamoured with me it's sickeningly adorable

Like some girl walking up and down the stairs several times at the gig while I'm talking to my friend/doorman, looking back and clearly trying to get my attention

Trying to get close while I'm dancing solo, sorry babe I got my fill with another beautiful woman earlier tonight this is ME time now

Nothing is more of a confidence boost than knowing there are women pathetically attracted to me

I mean she did see the Grindr bio (when I was still using it) that did say "Fun Aunt over Mommy Vibes" I'm pretty sure she would've understood what that meant but I guess not

Realistically, this is probably why that date back at the start of the year ended up kinda fizzling out and she hasn't talked to me much since

Seemed much more in our discussion, into the proper strict degradation and that's just not me

I like to have fun, it's playful cruelty that appeals to me

I'm much happier now being someone to lightly embarrass, to in the moment be teasingly cruel about how wet I make someone but the minute it's over? I'm happy to find replacement clothes or let someone use a shower to clear up

Never found myself wanting to be the type of person to fully degrade someone. I found myself in very fucked up dynamics in my early exploration of kink because of the expectation I would be this rutting, cruel (masculine) being when that's simply not me

I don't respond well to it either in subspace

A specific strain of soft cruelty that really hits for me

I think there's something a little more fucked up in wanting to have someone submit to my will through softness

Like outside of a scene, that is implicitly abusive shit but I cannot deny how much in the context of consenting adults it hits

I have to stop reading Warhound because I'm at work, even though it's quiet I need to keep my mind away from the thought of how much I adore desperate toys I deeply love and break at the same time

There's something beautiful about knowing how much strength and power I have but keeping it under wraps to make someone feel safe and comfortable

We could hurt each other so good you and I

It's a really new development and I'm unsure just how far or deep it goes but it's there and I gotta admit it