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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Sep 14

Two months ago I chose to quit vaping, and pick up running. Yesterday I ran my first mile without stopping. Something I’ve never done even at my healthiest. I cried twice yesterday cause I thought I still had months before I saw this goal! #running #runner

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Aug 15

Getting to set my wallpaper with a photo I took really hits different 🤣

#sky #iphonewallpaper #skyscapes

✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Jul 20

Weird cough, gone. Chest pain, gone. Head fog, cleared. Energy, up. I can’t hear myself breathing at night anymore , I can walk and talk without being winded. I feel so fucking free. It has been one of the hardest things I’ve done, I’m not near a finish line and I’m not looking for one.

✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Jul 18

Sorry, I hate to ask this or beg. I’ve come on some hard times and have about 20 bucks to my name right now. I start a new job semi soon and could really use some help.

Thank you 😣

✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Jul 15

I went on walk today, found this gem behind my apartment complex, wish the trail went all the way around the lake, but hey look at this view!

✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Jul 15

Changing is so hard, my body and mind are so used to the comforts of life that striving for something different feels like walking in waist high mud.

That’s why it’s about small steps forward, and not getting upset when pushed back a step or two. Learn from this missteps and keep going.

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Jul 13

I can do hard hard things 😍

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Fightful Wrestling @fightful.com · Apr 28

Stephanie Vaquer has made her arrival at WWE RAW.

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

Here’s a picture of my cute cats to make reading this worth!

✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

So, I’m gonna try updating this every so often to keep track of the progress , and to see what happens I guess. I haven’t really thought about it. This whole thread was on a whim. If you read all thank you, and if your taking melatonin , only do it for two months! (Fin)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

That gets us to present day. It’s been 3 nights of no melatonin or unisom. I am practicing clearing my mind at night for bed, I am taking my cute little delta gummy , and I am waking up clear minded, in a good mood, less irritable in the mornings, and more focused than before. (10/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

Sorry, just to fill in. I finally googled (after taken melatonin every night for 10 give or take years) what side effects are of taking melatonin on a regular basis was. The answers, anxiety , stomach problems, and depression. 🤭🫣 (9/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

I finally felt rested. I woke up in a good mood, that good mood was with me most if not all day. I had not as many problems waking up as I was. The cons were, it was hard to fall asleep, my brain didn’t like to stop thinking of everything in the universe. The pros just outweighed the cons (8/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

I noticed I was still tired, never enough sleep, my anxiety was through the roof every night, I was so unhappy and angry. So, I decided let’s see how this edible alone does. Literally never just tried the edible. It was still a challenge to cosplay dying, but we go there, and guess what. (7/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

As it got worse , I added other things including Unisom, and delta 8/9 edibles. My night time cocktail was half (sometimes whole) edible , 1 10mg melatonin, and 1 unisom. This was to help me sleep, and sleep through a partner who snores like a boat horn. (6/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

My uncle advised to take melatonin, it helps sleep, it’s natural, and I won’t OD from it! Yay! The thing is, I never stopped. Till now, my insomnia has gotten (IMO) worse, and I’m never not tired , grumpy all the time, easy to piss off , all things people love and seek in others right. (5/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

So, I started feeling light headed during the day, groggy, and sick. Let my family know how I was feeling and what I did (I did this more than once sadly.) and turns out it was signs of overdosing 🎉🥳. So those were taken away quick fast and in a hurry. (4/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

Let’s welcome to the stage, over the counter sleep medicine. The fun things about these, as I’ve learned, you can build up a tolerance!🤭 Which I did, so what did young me do, take almost a handful (at least 8 pills if not more.) That’s right! How did you know! (3/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

To explain why I started taking melatonin is fairly easy. I’ve battled with insomnia since I was a kid. I wouldn’t be able to sleep while everyone else was snoring. No matter what I did. I tried everything , tea, no screens, lavender scent everything, nothing worked. (2/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Apr 29

I have taken melatonin for YEARS every night to treat my insomnia. This past Saturday , I stopped taking it. I’m now only taking half and edible to sleep. I wanted somewhere to document this cause I’m scared and excited for this journey. (1/🧵)

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Dec 12

Introducing Graybee ladies and gents.

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Dec 12

When we got a cat (she wouldn’t sleep with us) so we would play some nighttime soothing music for her.

Now I cannot stand silence. I play the music all day when I work from home.

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✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Dec 5

I don’t know what it is. But anytime I think “omg tomorrow I’m going to (insert excited plan)” someone comes in and ruins it.

✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Nov 26

I paid to hear Ariana, Cynthia and others sing. I didn’t pay to see Cindy boohoo try to defy gravity. Sing at home, sing in the car, sing anywhere but near me in the theater. Thank you.

Cosmic Marvel @dailycosmicmarvel.bsky.social · Nov 25

Dwayne Johnson says people should be able to sing in theaters:

“Especially if you love music, that's the fun part. Sing! You’ve paid your hard earned money for a ticket, and you've gone into a musical, and you’re into it. Sing.”

(via www.bbc.com/news/article...)

✨FutzPatrick✨ @futzpatrick.bsky.social · Nov 21

I will never understand being a ass in QP on #overwatch2. It's quick play, chill the fuck out.

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