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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 3d

let me just survive this week, I'll survive next week too

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

proof of it happening whenever i feel this close to blowing up. And i must not blow up to people. I have had history of being the last straw that break people's backs.

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

i keep on distancing myself from people whenever i become this angry at the world because like clockwork, i kinda spread the plague of being unlucky if I get irritated at someone in particular.

it's not scientifically correct nor is it a proven causation but I still get

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

anyways.

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

yall really have to wait until i literally keel over, have a meltdown so good, be driven insane, tear my hair, and almost stab myself, tear my heart out, just for you to FUCKING DO YOUR FUCKING JOBS

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

sometimes i wonder why do i have to be driven to literal psychotic levels before people actually do their fucking jobs, like, maybe i should have been batshit crazy and waving a machete or smth on the first day

for legal reasons, this is a fictional imagery

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

gave up 👍 i

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

"we have time"
"We don't have time"
I recommend not living, I guess.

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

bpd sucks. I am definitely experiencing an intense low right now and i have this urge to just throw things like my laptop, my tablet, my figs, and set things on fire and then stab myself silly.

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

It's interesting how I was content with just sitting there in silence, a bland smile on my face, and just listening to people and they talk to me and I just smile and then being told I have a far away stare and it says a lot about my mental health and my i-don't-care-anymore.

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

i experienced life, i recommend lobotomy.

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laur @wintrchu.bsky.social · 5d

Happy Birthday Tsuna
#家庭教師ヒットマンREBORN

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 4d

Crashing out so bad, let me fucking die already.

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 5d

I find it pretty... fascinating when I got to see an actual chart of my health deteriorating at a steady decline and the frequency of how much I have been bed ridden this year. Same with my empathy and self-preservation instincts, idk. Must be the chronic stress.

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 5d

AAAA

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 7d

my head hurts again 🫠

huhuhuhu aaaaaa

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 8d

I ate 2 meals just consisting of fish today.

I want to eat more fish-based foods in the next few meals.

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Celestial Fang 🩸 Illustrator @celestialfang.bsky.social · 17d

Big fan of male torture

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 10d

I need fish in my diet.

I am sure that I feel this sick bec all I've been eating recently has been meat.

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 10d

it doesn't help that each file is like 1 GB

so ahhh the current workflow is me sectioning the illustration by parts into smaller file sizes and just having a masterfile for everything else

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 10d

bruh i still can't figure out a good workflow I can do with huge illustrations without losing the quality of the lines 🥲

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⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 10d

Got validated today that what I'm feeling is really unusual 🥲

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 10d

!!!

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 11d

I *have* been sleeping properly(?),I try to sleep as much as I can 🥹

But i feel like I will be feeling better tomorrow, I just have to rest again and then I can work

(Wth i rest for 2 days ever 1 day of work)

⭑.ᐟ @eryliareid.bsky.social · 11d

and I've been receiving status not so good news reports but at least i think i have reached the point of so cool with anything and everything bec im just chronically exhausted all the time. My brain is tired processing stuff including emotions haha

perpetual DND and brain shutdown mode

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