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Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas

@biteofchaos.bsky.social

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I was born into a life of chaos. I let the pain hurt for a minute and then I let it make me stronger. Biker, Tattooist, Godmother to a few. Dog Mama. 21+ #SOA #MayansMC RP

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Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · Sep 17

It took me a very long time to be proud of who I am. Try to tear me down, you'll lose.

Wife & queen to @rivenlegacy.bsky.social
Mama to a few loons
Founder & President of Roses of The Reaper MC
Tattooist & Art Teacher
Mature Content Triggers MDNI
Ink of #Gomez
21+ RP #SOA #MayansMC AU

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Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 10h

- that’s exactly why he was doing it. He was trying to bring me comfort when nothing else was doing it.]

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 10h

-wouldn’t end well.] I love you, Bubs. Will you let Belle give you some medicine, please? [he groaned at me and just swayed back-and-forth with me in his arms. Again, I knew better than to argue with him right now. to be honest being held like this by my brother was making me fall asleep and maybe -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 10h

- breathing too well. Despite that he picked me up and had me wrapped around his body like I was 12 years old again. “ I’ve got you.” he didn’t care that we were not kids anymore. He wanted to get me as close as possible to him. I knew he was sick, but I also knew if I fought him on this it -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 10h

[I didn’t know what to say so I didn’t say anything at all but at least someone was listening now. What I didn’t expect was for my best friend run upstairs. when I saw my older brother come running downstairs and over to me I froze not because I was scared but more concerned that he wasn’t -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 16h

- thankful somebody was willing to do something finally. “I don’t wanna scare anybody here, but you guys should know this combination of medicine is very dangerous and we’re lucky she’s still alive.” I blinked at that turning to look at my husband horrified.]

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 16h

- and spoke quietly. “I hear you and I’m telling you right now you don’t have to take these all I want you to take Is your asthma meds and the medicine for your ear infection. I’m taking you off everything else until I can figure out what’s going on.” I just fell back into my husband. I was -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 16h

- all tell me to, so I do, but it doesn’t help. [The next question made me lash out unintentionally just out of frustration. “ they who, Ma?” I pointed around the garage] all of them and the fucking doctors. It doesn’t help and I’ve said that, but no one‘s listening to me. [Belle hugged me tight -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 16h

[I must’ve held onto my husband and not said anything for a good ten minutes. To say all of this would be overwhelming would be the truth. When my son and Belle walked into the garage, I froze. It was Belle‘s question of me taking the medicine that made me look at her like she was crazy.] They-

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

If people could leave my house so I could write I'd be happy. I want to spend time with @rivenlegacy.bsky.social

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

- long. I know you did too so you understand what I’m going through. i’m beginning to think everyone around me who doubted me feels like an asshole now. that includes mama.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

- went nomad. He wanted to make sure he was available. God forbid something happened to me or the kids once Vinny lost his dad. I’ve been on a mission to figure that shit out too because he was fine, babe. I feel like I missed out on so much of our children’s lives because of being doped up for so -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

[it was so nice to have someone listen to me and actually hold me because they wanted to not because they felt obligated to do that.] I’m on so many meds that I don’t remember what food taste like baby Pedro believed me, but he was trying to prove it because he never saw you either. That’s why he -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

-cousin because I won’t fucking stop. He doesn’t listen to save his life.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

- she followed me home and gave me the meds for my ears, but nothing else has been addressed yet because I feel like every time I open my mouth nobody’s actually listening so I gave up. Bishop was good about it and so was Miguel Galindo, but both of them are gone. Don’t even get me started on your -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

- tasted like anything to me. I’ve been sick for weeks and I finally got the money from happy to drive all the way to Oakland to see my mother told me to have her tell me that she wouldn’t treat me because that was not enough money so I came all the way back here and that’s where Belle came from -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

(I felt like for the first time in eight years. Someone finally heard me. I know my boys did, but there was only so much that they could do.] when I do try to eat food and either comes back up or it has no taste in it at all so as much as people were excited for uncle Hector‘s food none of it -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

- the shit Evie pulled still fucks with my stomach sometimes and these meds don’t fucking help with it.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

-after I got the call about creeper I switched it. I didn’t know what else to do because I was walking around thinking Tio Hector was dead too. I’m not crazy. I swear I’m not but those meds I can’t. I can’t take them anymore. Basically for the last eight years, I’ve lost a lot of people and -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

[I leaned into him sighing softly. I knew my next words were going to be hard to hear.] Nan was in charge of my medical shit until I lost creeper then I gave it to our son because I didn’t wanna be committed again. I understand what Nan was trying to do for me but it made me worse. So a few hours -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

- don’t, make it so I have no appetite at all.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

[I stood on my toes for a minute before dropping the bag on the floor.] My ten pounds of meds that I'm supposed to take multiple times a day. [I don't like this.conversation. I knew E was different but I didn’t know he would take all of it. ] Most of them make me feel like shit. The ones that-

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

I am going to stuff this fettuccine and my mouth and when I’m done, I will get the rest of my replies out. At least now I’m not going to be distracted for the rest of the day thank God.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

- son also but right now I didn’t want to take him away from Belle until I give Belle the ability to reassess things for me.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

- I stepped into the elevator and waited for my husband to join me. There would be no good time to have this conversation, but I know him and I know what he must be thinking right now. When we were both in the elevator I grabbed his hand squeezing gently.] I will have this conversation with our -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

[I laughed, pulling my husband closer to me.] come for a walk with me? We’re not going very far. I just want to go down to the garage so I can actually hear you without putting my hearing aids in because my ears hurt so bad right now. [I walked into the kitchen grabbing what Nan calls my med bag. -