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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 6m

I need a small woman to walk on my back until every vertebra pops.

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 11h

Alright, who's DDOS'ing YouTube? No videos are playing.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 1d

I've started a publication on Medium called "Modern Diogenes" and today I posted the first entry. Please go read it and pass it along to anyone you think could benefit from its message. #autism #homelessness #mutualaid

medium.com/modern-dioge...

Chapter 1: The Journey Begins

After a devastating job loss, I’m learning to let go.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 1d

Well, the part time gig didn't last long. Guess the guy didn't like my vibe or something. Back to square one.

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 1d

Normally, in my current situation, I'd be freaking out, losing sleep, crying every day, and thinking about ending it all.

Today, I'm free of worry, looking forward to when I'm free of all these unnecessary burdens.

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 1d

I've started a publication on Medium called "Modern Diogenes" and today I posted the first entry. Please go read it and pass it along to anyone you think could benefit from its message. #autism #homelessness #mutualaid

medium.com/modern-dioge...

Chapter 1: The Journey Begins

After a devastating job loss, I’m learning to let go.

medium.com

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 2d

Right now, I'm going through a transformation of perspective and ego. The pursuits society has told us are paramount for modern living are superfluous and arbitrary.

I'm rejecting your reality and inserting my own, as Mr. Savage once said.

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 2d

I'm about to go in for my first shift at my new job. It's always a little rough starting somewhere new and learning the processes, but I've done far more complicated stuff.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 3d

Solid bookstore. One of my favorites when I used to live in Maryland.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 3d

"Water is the softest and most yielding substance. Yet nothing is better than water, for overcoming the hard and rigid, because nothing can compete with it."- Lao Tzu

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 3d

a man with long hair and a beard is smiling and saying thank you .

ALT: a man with long hair and a beard is smiling and saying thank you .

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 3d

I've been spending a lot of time thinking about what I need and what stability means to me. Having my needs met (food, clothing, shelter, safety) defines stability for me right now. Comfort is a luxury. Freeing myself from the burdens of ambition and competition is my main goal right now.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 3d

I found a part time gig that pays horribly, but it's enough to get my journey going. I can pay for my necessities and I'm gonna save up to try and buy a camper van eventually.

Thank you for passing the word on! I really appreciate it!

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 3d

I have put a plan into place to start car living once I'm forced to get out of my apartment. I also have an option to camp on my brother's land if he and my SIL let me. It'd eliminate the worry about safety and access to a bathroom and laundry facilities.

I just have to propose the idea to them.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 4d

Thinking about asking my brother and sister-in-law if I can put a tent up in their yard and live there once I get kicked from my apartment. Think they'd go for it?

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 4d

There's a whole playlist by this creator, Einzelganger. I've been watching them all and now I have a path to follow once I'm houseless. I encourage everyone to watch it and see how it applies to your life.

youtube.com/playlist?lis...

Taoist Philosophy - YouTube

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 4d

Society expects us to strive for results, push against resistance, to work hard to achieve ultimately very little. Yet if one doesn't take action and lets the universe guide them, embracing change and not worrying about outcomes, we are much happier and can achieve so much more.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 4d

I watched it and was introduced to Taoism. This one video made a ton of lights come on in my brain. Why cling to a life of ambition, action, and suffering when I can just let go of it all, go with the flow of nature, and pursue true happiness by not wanting for anything?

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 4d

The other night, I was contemplating my future. I just got a job, albeit a very low-paying one, and was thinking about how much of a loser I was. I figured, "well, I'm a loser. Might as well embrace it." So, I Googled "embracing being a loser" and this video came up:

youtu.be/riy3NMzBqLU?...

Why It’s Okay to Be a Loser | Taoist Philosophy for the Unambitious, Failures and Nobodies

YouTube video by Einzelgänger

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 5d

Well, I gotta part time job. It's $12 an hour and 18 hours a week, but it's a start.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 6d

I'm done being nice about this. I need $3000 right now. My future is hanging in the balance.

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 6d

If I don't have a job within the week, I will have nothing. No money, no food, no gas, nowhere to go, and no way of communicating with potential employers.

I don't see the point anymore.

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 6d

This job search is detrimental to my mental health. Can't I just earn money for just existing please?

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BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 6d

The emotional roller coaster I'm on right now is fucking insane.

BigHeathen11 @bigheathen11.bsky.social · 6d

I can't do this anymore. I'm not strong enough.