Angela
@ardvark.bsky.social
Profile pic is anime me by my kiddo.
Halifax suburbs, NS
Halifax suburbs, NS
I didn’t get any baking done this year and that’s ok. Maybe over the holidays we can bake our ginger bread house. Or not. I mean I could do it today. I have zero things that need to be done TODAY. But I’m going to opt to do nothing. Or more likely, plan to do nothing and then try to do a to do list.
December 19, 2025 at 9:09 AM
I didn’t get any baking done this year and that’s ok. Maybe over the holidays we can bake our ginger bread house. Or not. I mean I could do it today. I have zero things that need to be done TODAY. But I’m going to opt to do nothing. Or more likely, plan to do nothing and then try to do a to do list.
I do not recommend planning a funeral while also trying to make sure Christmas happens for your 9 year old. I am exhausted.
December 17, 2025 at 6:06 PM
I do not recommend planning a funeral while also trying to make sure Christmas happens for your 9 year old. I am exhausted.
My niece found the will!!!! Great niece had Beyoncé’s ‘to the left, to the left’ stuck in her head. The will was indeed, to the left. I swear I looked there Saturday but totally must have missed that spot.
December 16, 2025 at 4:43 PM
My niece found the will!!!! Great niece had Beyoncé’s ‘to the left, to the left’ stuck in her head. The will was indeed, to the left. I swear I looked there Saturday but totally must have missed that spot.
Rescheduled the funeral home appointment for tomorrow. I don’t need to be risking car accidents to get there, or more likely, not getting back up the hill to my house after it. Feels wrong to pause. But one day isn’t going to change anything majorly. Maybe I just need to slow down.
December 15, 2025 at 1:04 PM
Rescheduled the funeral home appointment for tomorrow. I don’t need to be risking car accidents to get there, or more likely, not getting back up the hill to my house after it. Feels wrong to pause. But one day isn’t going to change anything majorly. Maybe I just need to slow down.
I’ve been sleeping better most nights in the last week. Grief exhaustion I guess. But the anxiety kicks in early so I’m up super early. I could use a day of rest if it’s a snow day, but also, kinda need to get to the at funeral home appointment. Life goes on.
December 15, 2025 at 9:56 AM
I’ve been sleeping better most nights in the last week. Grief exhaustion I guess. But the anxiety kicks in early so I’m up super early. I could use a day of rest if it’s a snow day, but also, kinda need to get to the at funeral home appointment. Life goes on.
How to forget about your troubles… get assigned to the preschool room when you volunteer at the dance recital! Woo those kids have energy!
December 14, 2025 at 4:33 PM
How to forget about your troubles… get assigned to the preschool room when you volunteer at the dance recital! Woo those kids have energy!
Taking a break from grieving daughter today to be a proud dance mom. Going to watch my kiddo in two recitals today where she gets to go live her passion. Can’t wait to see her on stage!
December 14, 2025 at 11:30 AM
Taking a break from grieving daughter today to be a proud dance mom. Going to watch my kiddo in two recitals today where she gets to go live her passion. Can’t wait to see her on stage!
My mom passed peacefully yesterday. She’d been in a deep coma all week. As I was saying goodbye and telling her I’d miss her always, a single tear fell from her eye. Maybe that’s a normal part of passing, but I’m taking as a sign that she heard me.
December 14, 2025 at 10:46 AM
My mom passed peacefully yesterday. She’d been in a deep coma all week. As I was saying goodbye and telling her I’d miss her always, a single tear fell from her eye. Maybe that’s a normal part of passing, but I’m taking as a sign that she heard me.
Blessing for the week is I’ve had the chance to spend time with so many family members. I have some awesome cousins and nieces and aunts and uncles. My 22 year old niece taught me how to pay for coffee with my phone yesterday! She rocks.
December 12, 2025 at 10:30 AM
Blessing for the week is I’ve had the chance to spend time with so many family members. I have some awesome cousins and nieces and aunts and uncles. My 22 year old niece taught me how to pay for coffee with my phone yesterday! She rocks.
I need to get through today. Then I need to get through tomorrow. Then Sunday is my daughter’s dance recital so I need to get through that. Not sure how long mom will hang on, but I need to get through until then. Then I can get sick, and rest. Not before.
December 12, 2025 at 9:43 AM
I need to get through today. Then I need to get through tomorrow. Then Sunday is my daughter’s dance recital so I need to get through that. Not sure how long mom will hang on, but I need to get through until then. Then I can get sick, and rest. Not before.
I woke at 2:15 with an anxiety attack. Stomach issues, exhaustion, shivering etc. I waited for the phone to ring to say my mom has passed. It didn’t ring. I didn’t get back to sleep. Now am I sick or am I just feeling the grief and the weight of this week and today? I’m guessing the latter.
December 12, 2025 at 9:40 AM
I woke at 2:15 with an anxiety attack. Stomach issues, exhaustion, shivering etc. I waited for the phone to ring to say my mom has passed. It didn’t ring. I didn’t get back to sleep. Now am I sick or am I just feeling the grief and the weight of this week and today? I’m guessing the latter.
Getting myself mentally prepared to head to the hospital again. My mom is in and she won’t be coming out. Likely not at all, but if she does, she will not be the same woman that went in Sunday. Mornings are when my feelings come. The rest of the day, I hold it together for my nieces and aunt.
December 11, 2025 at 10:16 AM
Getting myself mentally prepared to head to the hospital again. My mom is in and she won’t be coming out. Likely not at all, but if she does, she will not be the same woman that went in Sunday. Mornings are when my feelings come. The rest of the day, I hold it together for my nieces and aunt.
I have a recommendation for hospitals. Dedicated private crying booths. Like a phone booth but somewhere you can just go, have a moment to yourself, and pull yourself back together again like nothing happened.
December 10, 2025 at 12:15 PM
I have a recommendation for hospitals. Dedicated private crying booths. Like a phone booth but somewhere you can just go, have a moment to yourself, and pull yourself back together again like nothing happened.
November was a MONTH and seems December is following suit. Headphones and EMDR playlists for anxiety relief are saving me today. As is the sunshine.
December 7, 2025 at 2:56 PM
November was a MONTH and seems December is following suit. Headphones and EMDR playlists for anxiety relief are saving me today. As is the sunshine.
Phew. Managed to get tickets for my kids dance recital before it sold out! One less stressful holiday thing to do.
December 6, 2025 at 2:14 PM
Phew. Managed to get tickets for my kids dance recital before it sold out! One less stressful holiday thing to do.
Day 6 of my coffee advent calendar and I think I’m getting the hang of the pour over game. These coffees aren’t always my favourite but I’m consistently making a very good cup of coffee! The scale makes all the difference.
December 6, 2025 at 10:07 AM
Day 6 of my coffee advent calendar and I think I’m getting the hang of the pour over game. These coffees aren’t always my favourite but I’m consistently making a very good cup of coffee! The scale makes all the difference.
I took myself out for a sunshine filled walk. I’m still tired and in a mood, but that was a good downtown walk. There is still some good in this day!
December 5, 2025 at 4:45 PM
I took myself out for a sunshine filled walk. I’m still tired and in a mood, but that was a good downtown walk. There is still some good in this day!
Today has been a lot. Panic attack at 4 a.m., power out at 5:45, fun drive to the office after taking the kid to school. But still a full day ahead. TGIF.
December 5, 2025 at 1:34 PM
Today has been a lot. Panic attack at 4 a.m., power out at 5:45, fun drive to the office after taking the kid to school. But still a full day ahead. TGIF.
Well first time really getting to enjoy our generator…
December 5, 2025 at 10:17 AM
Well first time really getting to enjoy our generator…
I’m so over this flash freeze type of weather with the fresh paving on Peggy’s Cove Road that STILL doesn’t have any painted lines. I hate dark night driving in the rain and this makes every drive an adrenaline filled, white knuckle drive. Yay for parent teacher night.
December 4, 2025 at 9:30 PM
I’m so over this flash freeze type of weather with the fresh paving on Peggy’s Cove Road that STILL doesn’t have any painted lines. I hate dark night driving in the rain and this makes every drive an adrenaline filled, white knuckle drive. Yay for parent teacher night.
I treated myself to a coffee advent calendar this year. It is whole beans. I also treated myself to a new grinder and pour over dripper. I'm amazed that I have made two very good cups of coffee so far! Following instructions and using my scale for the win!
December 2, 2025 at 12:05 PM
I treated myself to a coffee advent calendar this year. It is whole beans. I also treated myself to a new grinder and pour over dripper. I'm amazed that I have made two very good cups of coffee so far! Following instructions and using my scale for the win!
First two nights of supplements for sleep went well, but last night, nah. Panic attack, terrible sleep. Oh well. I have high hopes that this coffee will fix enough to not only let me function, but enjoy this Monday at the office. So far, so good.
December 1, 2025 at 11:20 AM
First two nights of supplements for sleep went well, but last night, nah. Panic attack, terrible sleep. Oh well. I have high hopes that this coffee will fix enough to not only let me function, but enjoy this Monday at the office. So far, so good.
Night two of trying some supplements to help me sleep and my daughter has been awake since before 4. Some day I will sleep, right?
November 30, 2025 at 8:35 AM
Night two of trying some supplements to help me sleep and my daughter has been awake since before 4. Some day I will sleep, right?
Took a half vacation day today to chaperone my kiddo’s field trip to see the local high school musical. Sitting in the parking lot now waiting and feel so far removed from that high school era!
November 26, 2025 at 1:13 PM
Took a half vacation day today to chaperone my kiddo’s field trip to see the local high school musical. Sitting in the parking lot now waiting and feel so far removed from that high school era!
Making nuggets and fries at 10:30 so my kiddo won’t be hungry when she goes to the movies with friends today. Food allergy and celiac momma, always have to feed them before sending her out without me!
November 23, 2025 at 2:25 PM
Making nuggets and fries at 10:30 so my kiddo won’t be hungry when she goes to the movies with friends today. Food allergy and celiac momma, always have to feed them before sending her out without me!