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30. BED, weight loss. I don't follow back anyone under my age, I'm sorry

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🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · Sep 16

hi everyone. I had been active on twt weight loss spaces for many, many years, been feeling really alone lately so I'm hoping to find a new little village here

feel free to self promote if you see this and are 30+. I'd love to follow

hw 243.4 lb
70+ lb down so far

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🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 2h

I feel so upset. I was so, so, so happy in 2023 and now things are going right exactly back to the way they were before. I feel like an absolute failure as a Christian.

I think I'm going to ask if I can move in with my step grandma, see how that works out for a while if I can. I need separation.

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 2h

She's crying about "this modern age" and "this high-tech world" I just asked you to put an envelope in a basket????

She gave it back to me so now I have to go through a lot of inconvenience just to pay my tithes. I don't know what her problem is. I have no idea what to do. This is so stupid.

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 3h

I only started losing weight again when I started going back to my church after half a year. That scares me

It has to be different this time. I don't know how but it has to be

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 3h

I have to break the cycle
It has to stop

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 3h

I will be absolutely shocked if I'm not in the 180s in the morning

Same thing happened the first time I left my church. My weight skyrocketed, I gained about 15? lb, then "maintained" (ie extreme yoyo'd) that another 3 months.

I lost my only joy in life so I had to replace it with eating

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 3h

And then she started guilt-tripping me saying "why didn't you put it in when you were going" my finances aren't anyone's business but my own. I did the right thing, I paid back every single cent I owed and more.

This was a big moment I worked so hard for and was so happy about and she ruined it. 👍

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 3h

Gave my grandma my tithes and offerings to put in the basket in our Sunday school class and she's raising a huge stink about it and I don't know why. It's not like it's a huge ask. Drop mine off when you put yours in. What's the issue?

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 12h

2pm and 147 cal left for today

I'll be walking to church tomorrow but I'll probably be getting a ride back (I hope), so that'll be 2 miles of exercise

Sucks that I can't dress up for homecoming (and I'll probably stink after walking 🙃) but it is what it is

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 13h

I feel like I'm going too slow on the grammar but also once I get into more advanced concepts I'll be grateful I stuck with just 1 lesson a day so

feels nice to pick back up on studying Japanese seriously after so many years, I just need to buy textbooks again bc mine were lost 😭

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 13h

I have 3.5 full pages (6.5 sides) of notes from 1 page (1 side) of my Japanese Bible — so a rough estimate for how many notes I'd take through the entire Book is 1,816½ pages lol

I'm gonna need three of the largest binders the store sells 😂

I hope it goes faster the more grammar and vocab I learn

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 15h

Ok starting today at 176.1 lb

If I can manage it, I want to keep my intake under 705 cal today. I can increase that if I lose tomorrow but I want to set that as my goal for today.

My aim is to lose 6.2 lb in the next 16 days

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 1d

My reward for myself for getting to the 160s will be a proper rack to hang my clothes on (rn I just have them laying stacked up on top of each other)

And then ofc a continued wardrobe refresh, I have a lot of clothes that are way too big but nothing to wear to replace them

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 1d

I need to get to the 160s by November 3rd

By the 1st would be even better

Time to lock in and stop the excuses

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 1d

No matter what I do I can't progress any further

I'm just tired and feeling massively defeated

tired of losing and gaining the same 5-10 lb over and over, tired of never making progress

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 1d

Didn't count cal today, too discouraged after yesterday

I'm pretty sure I've just lost all the weight I'm going to lose, I have been trying for a year and a half to get back out of the 170s and I just can't

Either I binge or go into a random plateau every time I get close to 169 lb

🪻 @1itt1ebird.bsky.social · 1d

I keep getting ads for these boots and they're so pretty but I don't really see myself as a cowboy boot kind of girly

Maybe one day I'll buy a cheap pair and see how I like the look

I do wear cowboy hats hence me getting western apparel ads but that's about as far as I want to go haha