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Paradise Eve

@softfantassy.bsky.social

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Stephyhime. feral housecat. 🔞 NO MINORS. ✋🏾Only interested in cute fictional characters. transgressive content.

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 52m

All I ever wanted from them was to be validated and heard. It literally feels like my dad and school experience all over again. I get punished for having Big Emotions.

It's so much easier online bc you get to be fair-weather friend and disappear when things get hard.

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 58m

I'm like a little angry and it will pass so I'm going to stress clean my house.

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 59m

I kinda already don't have enough emotional support to begin with and I'm trying to build it for myself but it doesn't happen in a day or week or month.

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 59m

Really starting to feel like sharing my feelings only gets me in trouble. I can't talk about It and get support from the parties I need it from. Everyone gets to benefit from silence. High key hate that bc that's not community or friendship to me personally.

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 2d

Thank you guys for being here and just letting me vent.... I know its prob not ideal to share all my horrors but it's a way to express myself. It will get better!!!!! ⭐ 😭

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 2d

Thank you 🥹 💕 I am def lacking some self love so you know I'll be working on it!

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 2d

y'all gonna end up seeing every panel before this is done bc I cannot shut the fuck up

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 2d

Yeah I was actually to a point where my nervous system was in over drive for days at a time and it was starting to make me sick. I had to go to the doctor for back pain that ended up being my gut from stress.

Now I have to get used to feeling calm again xD

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 2d

Once I feel unsafe with someone that's it. There's no more trying. No more fawning/people pleasing. That's it. I'm cutting myself out.

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 2d

I gotta stop apologizing for things that aren't my fault. Fawning is SUCH a bit trauma reaction that I give up my own power sometimes just to quell someone's anger.

I'm going to try to focus more on how people make me feel than what they do or say.

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 2d

Them...

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🝤 unfortunate mage ◐ @putrefactions.bsky.social · Sep 8

sitting here, again, with these words from james baldwin.

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 4d

Kevionnnnn! :D

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 4d

I know I am still just a lonely latchkey kid.

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 4d

OC sketch

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 5d

My weekend is going to be me studying, drawing and hearing battlefield 6 along with my husbands maniacal laughter in the bg 😂

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 6d

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Synthkitty Tetra! @eerieviolet.bsky.social · 6d

gyaru witch

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 6d

SAME

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 7d

FAIR (also creative)

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 7d

thank uuuu <3

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 7d

I need to think of some names!!

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 7d

I'm playing on my ds to get away from big computer

Do u like my line up

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Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 7d

Yes it is! Very relaxing -v-

Paradise Eve @softfantassy.bsky.social · 7d

Also drawing doesn't have to always be optimized or "fast." That's just capitalism in there trying to make you efficient (which is okay).

But I prefer nowadays to just enjoy the process so I take as long as I need to esp with my wrist.