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Shailene

@shailenewudley.bsky.social

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Here for my personal digital diary. Ignore the long, boring threads and just scroll. Rahzie👌🏻

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Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 20

Reminder:-

1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.

2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).

3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 4d

Its been 5 days tk bckp dgn bdk 3. Ahh bia la dia. Hidup aku bjln je spt biasa. Lagi tenang tk bckp dgn dia. Tk kene mrh, tk skit hati. Bia la masa yg menentukan bila aku akn bbaik dgn dia smula. Maleh aku nk pkr nk mntk maaf ke ape ke. Thats not my style. Ego? Sure thing. The question; slh aku ke?

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

I will try to change myself.

1. Diam kalau ayah marah2, perli2, bebel2. Jawab dgn tenang and tak emosi.

2. Don’t argue with bdk 3. Let her be. Stick to the plan and Let Allah handle the rest.

3. Jangan tinggal ibdh wajib, rajin bt ibadah sunat, doakan selalu for palestine - the end is near.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Alhamdulillah for the reminder, Allah 🥹. Kalau tk tu mmg tk teringat nk solat. Ada bgusnye jgk borak psl masjidil aqsa tu. Alhamdulillah smpt sunat ba’diah and baca quran and al-mulk 🥹.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

The time is coming. I should not malas2 nk solat ngaji, ibadah sunat and so on. Astaghfirullahalazim, by the time aku tulis ni, baru teringat tk solat ishak lgi weh. Tdi terpkr tk ngaji pn harini pastu bru tringat; mmgla lps briskwalk tdi trus mndi. Sbb biasa briskwalk lps ishak 🥲kkkbye nk solat 🥲

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Risau tau sbb mmg israhell ni setahu aku dia nk something yg dh disimpan bwh masjid tu. maybe perjanjian yg tanah palestine tu milik dia ke cane tah. Pastu diorg nk runtuhkn masjid tu and nk buat temple of solomon gitu for dajjah masa kiamat nnt. Allahu 🥹.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Kdg2 teruk btul rasa. Aku dok focus nk g sarawak lah, bli hp baru lah, nk tkr style fashion lah. Pdhl masjidil aqsa pn dlm emergency situation sbb israhell tgh gali sbb nk cari something bwh dia. Not exactly bwh masjidil aqsa tu but tmpt yg diorg gali tu mcm ad laluan nk g bwh masjid tu.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Tk phm la weh. Sumpah tk phm dia ni. Dia igt dia je betul. Pasni aku nk buat reverse psychology. Bila dia tgur aku mcm2, ad yg tk kene ke ape ke, aku akn jwb ‘yela lang nnt aku ubah la perangai aku. Kau punya prgi tkyh ubah pn tkpe’. Bia dia annoyed. Dgn hrpn dia sdr slh dia jgk. Bkn aku je. Kbye.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

elleehh kalau dulu tu aku nk bt esaimen ke, keje halal ke, dia peduli apa? Ttup je dgn alsn dia nk bgun awl esk nk g kje. Tu tkpe plk 🙄.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Pastu tdi bru je aku ttup lmpu bilik (tbh aku tk sgje. Aku nmpk je dia tgh bt keje pakai laptop but aku ttup gak out of habit). Pastu dia tye mcm sinis ‘knp ttup lmpu?’. Aku mls nk gduh so aku bkk je blik lmpu tu.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Mse nk g kndri tdi pn sama. Aku tggu dia besiap, dia mrh aku suh msuk kete dlu pnskan enjin. Aku pun pkr btul jgk dia ckp so aku trus msuk kete. Pastu kes yg lain bila aku tggu lam kete, expecting her to grk sekali, camtu plk di buatnye aku?

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Aku hangin la. Aku bls blik ‘knpla tk ckp je dri tdi’. Pastu dia bls ‘aik, kau mcm nk copek bona tdi’. Pastu? Ko tkde mulut ke nk ckp ppe? Mse aku suh ko besiap tu ad ko ckp dkt aku suh g dlu ke, jgn tggu kau ke, kau nk solat dlu ke.. ade? Tkde pn.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Harini bpe kali gduh dgn dia. Ptg tdi, kkwa wasap dh smpi baruh. Aku ckp dkt dia eh cptla siap kkwa dh smpi. Aku siap2, dia rilek je men hp. Aku siap2 msuk kete tggu dia. 15min gakla aku tggu, patu aku msg suh dia cpt. Hbs jgk myk kalau mcm ni. Pastu dia boleh kata ‘la pegi jela. Aku nk smyg dlu’.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

ha yela. Mmg sama. Ap yg kluar dkt mulut aku sume menyakitkn hti dia mcm cik suli menyakitkn hati dia. Tp aku tk phm, knp dia nk skit hati dgn bnde tu? Knp dia perlu offended? Tk phm? Ade jelah tk kene aku ni dkt mata dia. Selalu je aggp aku ni mslh. Tp bila ssh, cari jugak aku yg bermasalah ni 😒.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Sbb dia bls ‘ap lg kak?’ Mcm dia annoyed dgn aku. Aku ckpla balik ‘knp nk emosi?’ Dia ckp ‘kau cuba dgr balik ap yg ko ckp tdi’. Aku jwbla ‘aku ckp tgn ko pucat sbb putih sgt. knp ko nk aggp bnde tu negative?’ Dia jwb ‘kau tu sama je mcm acik suli’

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · 10d

Ntahla ek. Tadi aku tgg nk mkn kuey tiaw goreng, tiber nmpk bdk 3 kluar bilik air. Tgn dia putih melepak mcm pale gitu. Sblum tu mmg dia mandi lama tk kluar2 blik air. So maybe sbb tu pucat. Aku tgur la ckp ‘uish pucatnya tgn kau’. Very not in a negative way tp dia aggp bnde tu negative.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 30

Thanks sbb penah wujud dlm hdup aku, bg aku butterflies yang dh lama tk rasa, buat aku rasa special when I've never ever being treated mcm tu from a guy (sbb tula kot aku cpt tgkp cintan, cehhh). Moga Allah temukan aku dgn jodoh yg terbaik bt aku menurutNya. Sekian kisah abang maloi, wassalam :').

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 30

No hp dia pn aku dh delete. Spttnya yg lain2 sekali la. Tp nntila yg lain tu. Also, spt yg di plan, dia tk approve, aku tkkn delete request but still move on la. So gitula citenye.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 30

Tkpela. Jodoh aku dkt tmpt lain kot. Atau dkt dlm syurga? So aku kene usaha la msuk syurga. Sampai disini je kot threads aku psl abg maloi. I'll never speak abt him again unless its necessary cth mcm suddenly dia approve ke kan... Tp kalau bab rindu ke ape ke, tk update dh la. SS je lbih :').

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 30

So aku pn maleh lah. Tk taulah. Dia mmg baik kot tlg aku dlu, cuma aku yg slh phm niat baik dia. Tertgkp cintan plk. Aku positive jelah, maybe Allah dh susun ni yg terbaik utk aku. Maybe jodoh aku masih blum hbis diploma wkwwk. Boleh jdi Allah yg tk grkkn hati dia utk check profile aku.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 30

Sedih and kecewa sbb abg maloi tk accept request aku. Dh 3 hari. Tiga hari tu jgk aku rjin bkk ig nk tgk dia approve tk tp tk ad ppe pun. Harini hri ketiga, aku stalk threads dia ad reply baru tk, sekali tu nmpk dia ad reply satu post semalam, which tkkn la dia tk dpt noti aku follow 3 hri lps kan?

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 28

Then nk tgk utk 1 mggu. Kalau ok, results sama or lg byk turun, bolehla truskn or nak add nasi pun. Kalau tk byk, maybe kne up kan kettlebell swings even on diff day rutin. Risau plk byk sgt ke 7kg 1 bulan? Tkut nnt sng nk naik balik 🥴. Nnt tye chatgpt blik. K tu je nk update. Ngantok dh ni, kbye!

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 28

First week hari2 mkn nasi, but deficit bsr jgk sbb exercise hardcore bantu tmbh deficit. 2 hri je omad. Org kata awal2 mmg turun byk sbb otot glycogen smpn air jgk. So glycogen turun, air pn turun so logik kalau awl2 ni turun byk. But this week nk try workout rutin bru and no carbs/low carbs diet.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 28

Handal la aku make it work. Aku still bangga gak sbb aku mampu capai 63.7kg tu weh! 30 sept ni aku target 64kg sbnrnye. Hrini mmg la 63.7kg tp harini cheat day lol. Esk tah2 64kg blik. So nk tknk air kene mnum berlambak la. Diet mcm biasa! Mana tau sblum konvo mampu capai 55kg 😍. Tp ni berangan je.

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 28

So btul la. Water retention sbb period prediction aku tu btul. But idk plk yg water retention during period ni boleh di trick. Dlu maleh nk try. Aggp mggu period mggu cheat day sbb scale mmg tkkn turun. Klu cmnilah gaya nya, blh la aku detect brt aku yg sbnr tnpa rsa stress scale tk turun2 lol!

Shailene @shailenewudley.bsky.social · Sep 28

Pastu tgh2 curhat psl abg maloi tk accept request aku, aku rase prut aku ni semacam. Nk kencing tu ofc la. So aku pn g kencing. Then rse nk check, ehhhh tiba2 ad drh! Tp prut aku tk de senggugut lg. So aku msuk blik pki pad and ubt sesiap to avoid the worst.