Wizard Tome
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a page from something i was working on. what if i just illustrated my entire life in this format and then laid down and dissolved into the atmosphere due to finally fulfilling my only purpose (to make a really long mid memoir)
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many conversations I have had with complete normie libs, the kind who have a tote bag from donating to NPR and shop at Whole Foods, involve the kind of rhetoric that under no circumstances should be put on the internet

people are very mad
look i was recently talking to a septuagenarian life long dem (who shall remain nameless) and generic lib, and she was like “i just think there should be firing squads and they should sell tickets.”
they did not destroy me with hammers. i live to see another 2 weeks
little angel guy smiling and holding his hands together
theyre gonna destroy me with hammers because i said 2024 payments were probably done and then immediately found like 4 unresolved invoices from 2024 a week later
at least we're all usually remote. one time they were in the office and in one of those conference rooms with glass walls. girlll do NOT put me on a tv. makes me feel like that giant floating head guy from wizard of oz. put me on your smallest screen possible. shut me in a drawer.
anyway the meeting of torment and agony (im catastrophizing. its fine.) is today
theres this specific biweekly meeting that most of my workflow revolves around prepping for, and its creating kind of a Bad cycle for me where im mentally tapping out for 13 days at a time and then on the meeting day im like "wasnt this just a couple days ago"
sorry if these aren't specific enough to trans men though wrt your thread. I have also gotten really weird comments pertaining to pregnancy (or, my lack of wanting to) and wild assumptions about my role in my marriage... I grew up in a conservative area, so the list is unfortunately bottomless 😅
I had a coworker, within our first week of meeting, unload that her nephew came out as trans and she was worried her brother was gonna resort to violence... I had to provide advice, bc obviously no way in hell was I about to just walk away from that... but oh my gosh. I am not a free social worker 😭
It wears on me, but at least it's evident when it's malicious. I can't be bothered to get upset if someone is in good faith.

omg though, it's also wildly common for cis people to vent to me unprovoked about their issues with gender or their lgbt family members as well or something.
at every job I've ever had, a supervisor has asked me about my genitals... my current one asked me during training my first week on the job.

every time I've ever gotten HR involved in anything it only made things worse, so I've given up on that. I just try to express discomfort & politely redirect
i am convinced only being able to do social transition for years before i had access to HRT gave me temporary insanity of some form.
social transition has a "timeline" the same way medical transition does. if the two get desynced too dramatically it increases the spawn rate of brainworms.
12:34 o clock is far more whimsical than 11:11
u can mention having done years of successful therapy and people will still treat it like a Personal Failing if u still struggle with some things after it all. frustrating.
the way people talk about ptsd+anxiety makes it sound like the symptoms stop happening if you get good enough at Thinking And Responding Effectively but ime nothing will stop me from getting the shakes in some settings. i just have to push through it. i can make peace with this but it is rough.
sometimes i get really anxious and procastinate on things that make no sense to procrastinate on bc i get too locked into being frozen in fear. my coping mechanisms for it work fine but its annoying that it happens in the first place regardless. and the response is kind of delayed bc of how it works
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In my personal life I have moved away from thinking of people as stupid. Instead I just think of people as "incurious," where the Doing of learning has become something they are too tired, scared, or proud to pursue. Curiosity is, I think, the greatest human virtue, the Doing of learning.
to me, Doing is a knife that must be continually honed, however small the grind wheel available to you is, because to me it's not about how sharp the knife actually is it's about the process of honing itself. if you are Doing then you are living. there are always opportunities to Do if you seek them
soooo much of really useless trans discourse is spurred on the most by people who are clearly, like, upset about a roommate or ex or something, but for some reason they feel the need to turn those feelings into declarative statements on entire identities
trying not to worry about making it look good at this stage. because that's the progress killer. all the layers are separate in camtasia anyway so i can just swap them out 1:1 if i redraw an asset.
some stills from this one. not sure if i'm going to redo the entire thing later or not. i dont know what style to use. these are placeholders for now.
woman on a boat at night. the sky is starry and there is a big blue eyeball moon above. close-up of the woman. she's holding an oar. purple and blue lighting. giant sea creature with many eyeballs is in the water, approaching the woman on the boat.
I'm cooking I'm preheating I'm starting a simmer
i LOVE it when people marry their supernatural theories with alien shit. it creates the best conspiracy soup. aliens from mars are BORING tell me about your ghost aliens.
dont even bother talking to me if you have fewer than 5 family members who are banned from working at gordon food service
if your boss requests a report that you dont want to do actually all you have to do instead is close your computer and then run over it with a truck in the parking lot outside. have not yet tested this method but figured id spread the word.
worst part of hanging out is determining when to gift them the geode