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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 1d

i'm a little upset about losing some of the original highest quality character art assets though. i don't think i need them but them being gone forever is kinda sad

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 1d

i honestly kinda hate the thought of it but i've recovered enough that i can now say trying to recover the entire hard drive is simply probably not worth it. so i can deal

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 1d

i don't know when i'm going to actually feel like redoing the stuff i lost for my game. but one day

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 1d

being the most stubborn person alive is both my best and worst trait

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 2d

WAIT i only just had the idea to check if csp backed up any of the assets i made automatically since backups save to another drive and a fair amount of them are there. this might actually be workable. still missing some important stuff but.....

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 2d

i think i might try to recover the data. idk what i'm going to do if i can't get it. i'll figure something out but it won't be fun

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 2d

i should really just decide how i want to approach resolving this whole situation already

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 2d

i want to work on my game so baaaad.....

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 4d

i often don't really have much in particular to say in response to something even if i appreciate that thing being said to me. so i don't say anything. this just makes it look like i'm ignoring people because i kinda am

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 4d

i think my general way of interacting with people being "don't speak unless you have something to say" makes me come off very weird in online interactions

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 5d

i never really mention it but i feel like saying i'm autistic is like the least surprising bit of information about myself i could possibly reveal

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 6d

how it feels to be in my body

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 6d

not the chest pain again

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 7d

writing narration in first person feels so incredibly wrong to me. that's not how thoughts work i think

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 8d

i wish i could work on my game rn so bad. i have done like nothing productive for the last week because starting something i don't already have substantial progress on is so much harder

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 9d

maybe i will for something someday but it'd have to be something with very different priorities than the things i see myself making in the near future. which is very possible to be fair

???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 9d

i'm only really concerned with whether or not people get to experience it and not whether or not they have a good experience with it. if someone thinks it sucks i think that's fine but i'd feel a little bad if they paid me money for it

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 9d

my thing with charging money is that i don't really make things with the intention of other people enjoying them nor do i want to. i don't want "but will people like it" to be a thing i have to consider and that becomes much more necessary to consider when a cost is involved

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 9d

i'm kind of fundamentally opposed to charging money for things i make but with how much work i've put into this game and how much grief some parts of developing it have caused me i should probably at least like. open up some way to donate money for people who got something out of it

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 10d

everyone i was talking to said this too

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 10d

i explained the premise of one in a conversation earlier and felt insane

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 10d

i love whenever i get the chance to talk about one of my future projects and it sounds like mad ramblings

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 11d

i would probably feel better about it if i could just tell people outright that's what's going on but i am wired wrong and will only do that if i am asked

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 11d

i'm kinda just watching messages pile up and not feeling good about it but it's so hard for me to get myself to respond to things unless it's an especially interesting conversation topic to me rn

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???? @closedeyesoflove.bsky.social · 11d

i think i may be a little socially burnt out rn

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