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Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas

@biteofchaos.bsky.social

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I was born into a life of chaos. I let the pain hurt for a minute and then I let it make me stronger. Biker, Tattooist, Godmother to a few. Dog Mama. 21+ #SOA #MayansMC RP

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Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · Sep 17

It took me a very long time to be proud of who I am. Try to tear me down, you'll lose.

Wife & queen to @rivenlegacy.bsky.social
Mama to a few loons
Founder & President of Roses of The Reaper MC
Tattooist & Art Teacher
Mature Content Triggers MDNI
Ink of #Gomez
21+ RP #SOA #MayansMC AU

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Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1h

- to do it in front of the boys. Honestly, I was just trying to get all of the kids, including my grown one to wind down a little bit for the night.]

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1h

- then Pedro explained it to me, and I showed her all the videos that were appropriate for her age cause you know we have a few that aren’t appropriate for any age of our children. [I rubbed Abel’s back as he curled into me. There were things I needed to talk to my husband about, but I didn’t want -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1h

[I smiled and looked at my sleeping daughter excited that she has finally attached herself to her daddy.] she really is your little girl. She loves her uncle Pedro, but when you stayed with me when I felt up to it, she would ask to see you. I didn’t understand what it meant for the longest time. -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 7h

- remember this very same conversation with Marcus and Dianna at his age. I never wanted my kids to feel that way and the fact that he does was killing me I was almost positive My husband knew that

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 7h

- Home, which sort of helped some of my issue. I watched Abel for a second and then he curled up in my lap again.] hey buddy, are you okay? [his question broke my heart. “ you guys are going to keep me right?” I smiled, keeping him close.] yes we are. We are family baby. You are safe here. [I -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 7h

[I curled into my husband’s side and spoke softly.] oh you have the magic touch even in person usually when I can’t get her to sleep and junior’s not here I put on videos because she likes listening to you talk. She’s usually asleep within 20 minutes after that. [dad made my dumbass brother go -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 14h

- in the living room to tell me what he was doing. Once they were gone, I exhaled and sat next to my husband silently praying that my daughter falls asleep soon.]

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 14h

- my dad and Pedro start getting into it and I just rolled my eyes because I knew dad would make him leave if he kept this up. He wasn’t the only one that was angry and upset and scared, but he was the only one acting like an ass. Just as a suspected, my dad dragged him out of my house, stopping -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 14h

- main part of the house where the kids were. Of course, as always, my daughter was fighting to sleep. It was nice to finally be able to see her with her daddy though. Part of me was hoping she would crash out in his arms so that we could have a discussion with the boys as soon as possible. I -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 14h

[as much as I loved my big brother holding me. I was pissed off because he should know no one takes me away from E like that. Of course this fueled my temper and I exploded, causing my father to come down the stairs “Lexi what the hell?” I shook my head and jumped down, taking the elevator to the -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

- that’s exactly why he was doing it. He was trying to bring me comfort when nothing else was doing it.]

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

-wouldn’t end well.] I love you, Bubs. Will you let Belle give you some medicine, please? [he groaned at me and just swayed back-and-forth with me in his arms. Again, I knew better than to argue with him right now. to be honest being held like this by my brother was making me fall asleep and maybe -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

- breathing too well. Despite that he picked me up and had me wrapped around his body like I was 12 years old again. “ I’ve got you.” he didn’t care that we were not kids anymore. He wanted to get me as close as possible to him. I knew he was sick, but I also knew if I fought him on this it -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

[I didn’t know what to say so I didn’t say anything at all but at least someone was listening now. What I didn’t expect was for my best friend run upstairs. when I saw my older brother come running downstairs and over to me I froze not because I was scared but more concerned that he wasn’t -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

- thankful somebody was willing to do something finally. “I don’t wanna scare anybody here, but you guys should know this combination of medicine is very dangerous and we’re lucky she’s still alive.” I blinked at that turning to look at my husband horrified.]

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

- and spoke quietly. “I hear you and I’m telling you right now you don’t have to take these all I want you to take Is your asthma meds and the medicine for your ear infection. I’m taking you off everything else until I can figure out what’s going on.” I just fell back into my husband. I was -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

- all tell me to, so I do, but it doesn’t help. [The next question made me lash out unintentionally just out of frustration. “ they who, Ma?” I pointed around the garage] all of them and the fucking doctors. It doesn’t help and I’ve said that, but no one‘s listening to me. [Belle hugged me tight -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 1d

[I must’ve held onto my husband and not said anything for a good ten minutes. To say all of this would be overwhelming would be the truth. When my son and Belle walked into the garage, I froze. It was Belle‘s question of me taking the medicine that made me look at her like she was crazy.] They-

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

If people could leave my house so I could write I'd be happy. I want to spend time with @rivenlegacy.bsky.social

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

- long. I know you did too so you understand what I’m going through. i’m beginning to think everyone around me who doubted me feels like an asshole now. that includes mama.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

- went nomad. He wanted to make sure he was available. God forbid something happened to me or the kids once Vinny lost his dad. I’ve been on a mission to figure that shit out too because he was fine, babe. I feel like I missed out on so much of our children’s lives because of being doped up for so -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 2d

[it was so nice to have someone listen to me and actually hold me because they wanted to not because they felt obligated to do that.] I’m on so many meds that I don’t remember what food taste like baby Pedro believed me, but he was trying to prove it because he never saw you either. That’s why he -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

-cousin because I won’t fucking stop. He doesn’t listen to save his life.

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

- she followed me home and gave me the meds for my ears, but nothing else has been addressed yet because I feel like every time I open my mouth nobody’s actually listening so I gave up. Bishop was good about it and so was Miguel Galindo, but both of them are gone. Don’t even get me started on your -

Alexis 'Lexi' Vargas @biteofchaos.bsky.social · 3d

- tasted like anything to me. I’ve been sick for weeks and I finally got the money from happy to drive all the way to Oakland to see my mother told me to have her tell me that she wouldn’t treat me because that was not enough money so I came all the way back here and that’s where Belle came from -