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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · Feb 8

Shen Qingqiu's Guide to Domestic Bliss

💘 chapter 1/8 5.2k words
💘 unhinged sexually obsessive LBH meet unprepared and frightened SQQ
💘 blackened post abyss LBH
💘 extremely self-indulgent porn ahead
💘 eventual HE

archiveofourown.org/works/628892...

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 3h

🫶 I appreciate you a lot I'm genuinely glad my fics can be enjoyed! I just have to keep grinding to try and get them on the level I'm happy with

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

But I think it's true enough that I make things that have a niche that's not usually filled by other people, that's at least one thing I can feel happy about. thank you for your kind words I appreciate your perspective on things

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

I really do need to just force myself to sit back and try some other exercises to grow as a creator and stop comparing myself to other people I just want to be creative 😭 there's so many people I admire a lot!! so many stories!! so much art!!! I feel so out of place

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

This is a good point that I think it's my inability to fully express what I see in my mind on paper, I think I need to take more time to really sit on the things I want to do... I'm just so impatient OTL I want to just express everything right away and I lose all subtlety when I do that

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

comparison definitely sucks, I try not to but sometimes I can't help myself 😔 there's always going to be someone better which isn't a bad thing, it can be inspiring at the same time. as artists we are suffering together in spirit!!

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

Yeah that's definitely part of it! I really tend to over explain everything and want to make sure everything is extremely clear which just leads to shallow and unimaginative scenarios. I think half the issue is I'm just impatient but the other half is I think there's something I'm missing outright

adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

I do appreciate your words though, I'm fairly confident in how I characterize bq for example but I just want to dig deeper and I have no shovel or any idea where to start OTL

adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

I really like stories that have a lot of hidden depths that get slowly revealed but I think what I end up portraying is quite shallow and you get hand fed everything without any mystique... That's what I really wish I could write, more complexity, but I fear I'm too simple minded to do so

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 4h

I think that's the core issue, that there's usually a lot more to chew on when it comes to complex world building and an extravagant selection of characters and dynamics to examine. BUT even when it comes to one on one focused scenes I tend to write very... superficially?

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 7h

It makes me a little sad although I know it's all on me for not doing more, that I'm not on the same level as others in the fandom even, let alone otherwise in terms of creators. comparison is the thief of joy and all that but sometimes it just gets in my head and I wish I was smarter 😔

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 7h

although I've been enjoying writing and drawing lately quite a bit, I always come back to the realization what I create is... not very good. I have no patience for world building, taking time to refine details, especially for fic things tend to just get hand waved and i just settle for less

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 1d

My friend reminded me about this last night and I was just 😭 at this point I'm not even surprised lmao. I actually like that he's not very PC because that's the kind of thing I think tackling in characters is fun but that just adds onto my thesis of how Not Okay he'd be transmigrating into a woman!

adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 1d

He has a tendency to view girls who act girly as being stupid ie when NYY stops having a crush on LBH that's when he starts viewing her as intelligent which is...rough. but I had forgotten he uses the tranny word until a friend reminded me. god help me he's so embarrassing 😭

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 1d

but LBH with a fem!SY would just be..... deeply unfortunate. I guess because I read LBH as being purely gay, and SY as being bi. No matter the amount of soulmatism LBH wouldn't be truly happy with a woman imo

adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 1d

I agree on the dynamic where SY would like LBH in all forms and genders though his misogyny would definitely be at play there. You could still write something compelling and making SY get over himself and how he feels about women

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 1d

I've always had a fondness towards the Thai design because he looks like a cold bitch and I find that very suitable for 1) being a villains design 2) so much funnier for him to look like That while we know inside he's a complete mess of a man

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 2d

I gen don't think he knows what trans would even mean, he'd only understand "femboy". But he would still not be trans if Sqq's body happened to have a vagina, because SJ presented as male, was considered by society as male, and considered himself male. As would SY - so the trans aspect falls apart

adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 2d

archiveofourown.org/works/389544... it's been ages since I read it and I don't think I was in the fandom when it got finished so I need to reread anyways but this is what I was thinking of!

To Conquer an Emperor - Chapter 1 - zarasu - 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù [Archive of Our Own]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

archiveofourown.org

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 2d

I agree!!! I think it would be a LOT for him to repress and cope with and it would not be pretty at all. Idk if there's any fics like this out there? I have seen one that I remember distinctly where he was transmigrated into one of bingges wives and goes to to get a male body again

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 2d

you could make a trans man allegory for sure & I like envisioning worlds where he IS trans, but re: the novel's actual SY he isn't trans. If you gave a cis man a vagina I don't think they would immediately feel "I'm now trans" or "I'm now a woman" they would just feel upset and/or violated 🤔 imo!

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 2d

Yeah mainly this is what I meant - for me being trans is when you are making a choice to act on the incongruity of your assigned gender vs who you actually are. In his case, SY wouldn't be trans because he WAS actually amab. so there's no journey to undergo unless it's being a trans woman

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ketsal 🎐🌾 @ketsalkotta.bsky.social · 2d

s-shizun….! your hands!!!! >__< #bingqiu #svsss

SQQ resting his hands on top of white lotus Binghe’s head as he talks to someone offscreen. Binghe is spiralling into the mental abyss from happiness

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 2d

this being the binghe that gets his heart crushed is why it's so sexy tbh

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cwn's fat pussy cinematic universe @bingliushens.bsky.social · 3d

luo binghe at 17 is sooo

"Why does Shizun keep looking at me?"
he asked. "Could it be that this disciple was gone for so long that Shizun also missed him?"
"I'm not allowed to look at someone I
raised?" asked Shen Qingqiu.
Luo Binghe chortled. "Of course Shizun is
allowed. Am I pleasing to look at?"

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adam ✨🍑🍆 @adamwithspice.bsky.social · 2d

having a side of you so repressed for so long only to have it so abruptly uprooted and shoved in your face would be so much to deal with! his poor wives, they need to unionize