I dont know. I want to give up.
November 28, 2025 at 1:01 PM
I dont know. I want to give up.
Am i stupid for trying after so many years? Should i just give up in the face of the evidence that I dont meet the standard to be wanted? I dont fucking know anymore.
I feel like i keep trying out of habit, grasping at any small semblance of attention i can get from the people i love.
I feel like i keep trying out of habit, grasping at any small semblance of attention i can get from the people i love.
November 28, 2025 at 12:59 PM
Am i stupid for trying after so many years? Should i just give up in the face of the evidence that I dont meet the standard to be wanted? I dont fucking know anymore.
I feel like i keep trying out of habit, grasping at any small semblance of attention i can get from the people i love.
I feel like i keep trying out of habit, grasping at any small semblance of attention i can get from the people i love.
Speaking of dying alone. My neighbour did this week. Heart attack, 58.
No one gave a shit, no one came, they threw all of his stuff in the back of a tip truck and drove off. Place will be up for rent and itll be as if he never existed.
At least i wont have to worry about what happens after.
No one gave a shit, no one came, they threw all of his stuff in the back of a tip truck and drove off. Place will be up for rent and itll be as if he never existed.
At least i wont have to worry about what happens after.
November 28, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Speaking of dying alone. My neighbour did this week. Heart attack, 58.
No one gave a shit, no one came, they threw all of his stuff in the back of a tip truck and drove off. Place will be up for rent and itll be as if he never existed.
At least i wont have to worry about what happens after.
No one gave a shit, no one came, they threw all of his stuff in the back of a tip truck and drove off. Place will be up for rent and itll be as if he never existed.
At least i wont have to worry about what happens after.
But i just hope i can find someone who will willingly spend more than a couple hours in my presence. Maybe someone who could ever like me, find me any semblance of physically attractive, and more than just some useful idiot who makes people laugh on the internet.
November 26, 2025 at 7:18 AM
But i just hope i can find someone who will willingly spend more than a couple hours in my presence. Maybe someone who could ever like me, find me any semblance of physically attractive, and more than just some useful idiot who makes people laugh on the internet.
This is just my screaming at social media as a means to vent and seek attention. Dont take me too seriously, and dont view my issues as anything worth worrying about. This is my little space and Ill scream in it. Ill live.
November 26, 2025 at 7:16 AM
This is just my screaming at social media as a means to vent and seek attention. Dont take me too seriously, and dont view my issues as anything worth worrying about. This is my little space and Ill scream in it. Ill live.
Perhaps im at my wits end. Maybe im tired. But today i feel like im so close to pulling another disappearing act and just starting again under a new identity.
I wont, because ive worked too fucking hard with my stream and my books to bail on that. Theyre all i have.
I wont, because ive worked too fucking hard with my stream and my books to bail on that. Theyre all i have.
November 26, 2025 at 7:15 AM
Perhaps im at my wits end. Maybe im tired. But today i feel like im so close to pulling another disappearing act and just starting again under a new identity.
I wont, because ive worked too fucking hard with my stream and my books to bail on that. Theyre all i have.
I wont, because ive worked too fucking hard with my stream and my books to bail on that. Theyre all i have.
Some days i feel better, and the hurt days feel invalidated. And i dont know why. I dont know why i dont feel consistent. But those days dont feel so bad.
But today. Fuck, today. I dont know why it hurts so much today.
But today. Fuck, today. I dont know why it hurts so much today.
November 26, 2025 at 7:13 AM
Some days i feel better, and the hurt days feel invalidated. And i dont know why. I dont know why i dont feel consistent. But those days dont feel so bad.
But today. Fuck, today. I dont know why it hurts so much today.
But today. Fuck, today. I dont know why it hurts so much today.
I am lonely, and i have tried so hard. And the best i can get are empty words.
Some days it hurts more, like today. I could do anything for a friend to spend time with me. But im instead going to spend all night alone.
Some days it hurts more, like today. I could do anything for a friend to spend time with me. But im instead going to spend all night alone.
November 26, 2025 at 7:11 AM
I am lonely, and i have tried so hard. And the best i can get are empty words.
Some days it hurts more, like today. I could do anything for a friend to spend time with me. But im instead going to spend all night alone.
Some days it hurts more, like today. I could do anything for a friend to spend time with me. But im instead going to spend all night alone.
It sucks and it hurts, but thats my place. People come to me to be entertained. Or an extra body for something they want to do. But when I need the company, or I want to do something, people go quiet or they find any reason to back out.
November 26, 2025 at 7:09 AM
It sucks and it hurts, but thats my place. People come to me to be entertained. Or an extra body for something they want to do. But when I need the company, or I want to do something, people go quiet or they find any reason to back out.
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Lovin these two dorks. Been waitin for this page to go public, now I can finally post this!
November 7, 2025 at 11:33 PM
Lovin these two dorks. Been waitin for this page to go public, now I can finally post this!