Thinking "good lord it is taking forever to revise this chapter" and then I finally checked the word count and it is nearly 20,000 words. Uh. I think I'm splitting it in half WTF, past me. (I was dividing into chapters based on days so now there will be Day 5, part 1 & Day 5, part 2 good grief.)

I don't know if anyone who likes this ship or fandom and my writing will want to read so many stories that have the same things in them, I guess we'll see. It's wild seeing the seeds of what I would write about (better I hope) in later stories (some not posted/finished yet though).

Anyway. I'm proud of this nonsense because for all my life I was convinced I could not write fiction & now I guess I can. That I can at all impresses me, regardless of quality though gosh, it's cool some people have liked what I write. & cool that I'm slowly getting better at it. 🧵

I write without a plan & it probably shows and I probably shouldn't post WIPs as I write so I have room to go back and adjust things or change things so it all fits together better. One day maybe I'll have a plan. Though I guess as I rewrite this I do know where it is going . . . 🧵

The thing I experienced for the first time writing that was the experience of writing to see what happened next and then the very cool moment when suddenly things started to come together and an actual plot and ending (OMG an ending) appeared.🧵

But OMG changing the tense is a PITA even though I think it makes the fic better.

I was kind of proud of this fic, the first one I finished, even though it was awkward and written in first person because that was the best I could do as I was learning to write.

Going through it now is interesting as is seeing what ideas worked their way into stuff I wrote later.

I was thinking "wild how many people took a chance on a 100,000 word thing" but oh right, when I posted it, it was just a 7,000 word chapter and I didn't know how long it would be (and neither did anyone else obviously). Good god.

I suppose it's good that I'm reading some of them now and thinking "ugh, that's clunky" and realizing my writing has improved since then but then I think about one day I'll look at what I posted now and cringe over it. We'll see I guess. Improving is good, yes. Uh-huh.

It was annoying it's on a story I'm really proud of so I was eager to see if anyone would read it and comment. Then the comment was very generic & trying to get me to talk to them away from AO3 about something they wouldn't name. Uh-huh, sure.

I'll put up a more coherent bookmark rec at some point when I stop flailing.

(You lovers of rarepairs understand what it's like when a story drops—yay!—and it's actually really fucking good—so much more yay!)

I love how whenever I post a screenshot from AO3 I invariably wind up changing the title or summary or tags almost immediately after I do so it's kind of obsolete.

LOL. Just a short little story I wrote. Not entirely happy with all of it, but I had fun writing it and learned some things as I did and at least a few people are enjoying reading it so good enough.

104,764 word count on what was supposed to be a shorter story. Ah well. I did post a 25K story!

Chapter 17 is up! Putting the story at 99,713 words. 😂

The chapter was going to be longer but I decided to move some of it into an epilogue (yes, there's still a little more to come but the main story is concluded).

Oh hooray, i got through and got it updated. I wasn't satisfied with the very end before but I'm happier with it now. I should really probably have sat on this a bit longer and done another reread of the whole thing before posting but whatever. (At some point I have to stop rereading.)

Oh sure, I go and rewrite the last couple of sections and want to post them to AO3 and I'm getting a cloudlare error message and can't get to AO3. Rude!

It's all brilliant stuff, I'll have you know. (I didn't go over the last bits so much before posting & now I have.)

This fic is giving me even more of the "oh here's my heart on a plate" sensation though. No worries, I'm fine. Writing fiction is weird.