The weird part was knowing I was in a dream, and still trying to go to sleep. I had a dream in a dream. I heard my mum shouting for me in the dream. Very odd; I'm just glad I didn't text anyone irl while asleep bc I had a moment in the dream where I thought I had.

i still don't think i'll ever top "Papa's Cathedraleria DELUXE" though

I can't listen to the song without thinking of

anyway i don't think this'll sway me to come back but it has me at ease knowing i wasn't fully hated the way i thought i was at the time. i know some people still liked me now and wanted to find me (ilu gilly and mort i'm glad i kept y'all here) and it made me cry a wee bit but it's put me at peace

like there was a lot of shit surrounding why i left but i didn't think people liked me at all outside of a small handful and looking back that should have been enough? but i wanted the numbers and the clout at the time i guess ("lol what clout" ik shut up i was mentally ill)