i'm actually ordering it ooooouugh
it should be arriving next year on march-april (could be late tho)

Learning to draw can help you overcome that kind of discomfort. It helped me realize early on in my life that it was no big deal. I can just try again until i get it right. Drawing taught me how to be persistent, because it taught me that frustration is a fragile barrier that can be broken through.

adult beginner artists struggle to overcome, is the frustration barrier. The self-shame of doing something "incorrectly" or "unsuccessfully" just so completely takes them out. We are so adverse to feeling that sort of discomfort, that giving up (or not trying at all) is the "better" option.