communism is where I ride the trains to run the trains

I genuinely love running events but that sweet sweet sense of Nothing To Do Afterwards is really where it's at.

like holy shit I am literally vibrating under my blankets. I am clutching my baby blahaj to my chest. I am having butterflies about this.

FUCK you got me now I'm responsible to someone else so I have to

you got it

"completely selfish" does include taking @rosspayton.bsky.social to the airport after he takes me for a Monday brunch YMMV

also I'm relearning that crying during or after an emotional experience doesn't make me toxic or untrustworthy or unstable (I don't think this about other people, I just have a lot of shame around my own tears) and that's helpful if not comfortable

even with all the emergencies and not-so-emergencies and the never getting to bed before 2am between Thursday night and today and the Go Go Go all the time I'm so happy I made NotAConCon2 go and me and my co-runner have great ideas for next year.

mail me some i have been a very good Jax

w a o w