Ryan
@rtb176.bsky.social
Used to go by Big Jim. Former (?) speedrunner. Now I just wage and play games for fun. Ask me about anything and I probably have an opinion. Twitch handle is Big_Jim and Youtube is Big1Jim
It's been 10 years so why do I still miss her all the time. The human spirit is too hard to understand, and being understood is part of what I miss
December 2, 2025 at 5:08 AM
It's been 10 years so why do I still miss her all the time. The human spirit is too hard to understand, and being understood is part of what I miss
Big freaking melancholy tonight
November 20, 2025 at 6:17 AM
Big freaking melancholy tonight
When I get old Ill give up on what little remains of my fem image and get a huge coat and beard and a cane and stand overlooking the stormy atlantic ocean to aura farm insanely
November 16, 2025 at 2:59 AM
When I get old Ill give up on what little remains of my fem image and get a huge coat and beard and a cane and stand overlooking the stormy atlantic ocean to aura farm insanely
Been bummed out all day about failing (?) a job interview yesterday that I had been focused on for a month. It was a huge juncture in my life and I was really hoping to finally be out of what I'm doing now. I'll persevere though because that's just how life is
November 15, 2025 at 6:42 AM
Been bummed out all day about failing (?) a job interview yesterday that I had been focused on for a month. It was a huge juncture in my life and I was really hoping to finally be out of what I'm doing now. I'll persevere though because that's just how life is
Noticed at trend I'm sure others have in japanese science fiction: biological aliens that can inexplicably shoot lasers. A lot of japanese scifi comes from western influences but this seems unique
November 12, 2025 at 5:35 AM
Noticed at trend I'm sure others have in japanese science fiction: biological aliens that can inexplicably shoot lasers. A lot of japanese scifi comes from western influences but this seems unique
Think im finally feeling better, hooray
November 9, 2025 at 5:15 AM
Think im finally feeling better, hooray
Instantaneously came up with the phrase "right/left hand drive toilet" when looking at new apartments based on which side the toilet paper is
November 8, 2025 at 4:25 AM
Instantaneously came up with the phrase "right/left hand drive toilet" when looking at new apartments based on which side the toilet paper is
I only get sick about once per two years and I always forget just how much it makes life awful
November 5, 2025 at 5:44 AM
I only get sick about once per two years and I always forget just how much it makes life awful
Japan being obsessed with the word 'the' in the same way english speakers are obsessed with the word 'desu' is very interesting
November 3, 2025 at 4:15 AM
Japan being obsessed with the word 'the' in the same way english speakers are obsessed with the word 'desu' is very interesting
I wonder how many people like me assumed Weapons was a jordan peele movie based on the name and vibes
October 23, 2025 at 5:43 AM
I wonder how many people like me assumed Weapons was a jordan peele movie based on the name and vibes
Twitter crosspost: Because of a dream I had I feel the need to make a psa to the extremely limited number of girls who might read this: people are attracted to abnormality in all it's forms, it's not inherently bad either physically or mentally and you shouldn't lack confidence because of it
October 10, 2025 at 1:18 PM
Twitter crosspost: Because of a dream I had I feel the need to make a psa to the extremely limited number of girls who might read this: people are attracted to abnormality in all it's forms, it's not inherently bad either physically or mentally and you shouldn't lack confidence because of it
I invented this character who only consumes products and media pitched to them through content creator sponsorships and I hate them
September 26, 2025 at 9:48 PM
I invented this character who only consumes products and media pitched to them through content creator sponsorships and I hate them
Education is an important duty when you have a platform but I think it's almost as important to give people something positive to think about, because we only live once (probably) and helping people feel better is a noble cause, as long as it's not concealing the truth
September 24, 2025 at 11:27 PM
Education is an important duty when you have a platform but I think it's almost as important to give people something positive to think about, because we only live once (probably) and helping people feel better is a noble cause, as long as it's not concealing the truth
I do appreciate the content people like Shaun, Contrapoints, Folding Ideas, etc. put out, because it's very educational and also somewhat entertaining, but constantly being reminded about how far gone elements of society are without an element of hope is soul crushing
September 24, 2025 at 11:26 PM
I do appreciate the content people like Shaun, Contrapoints, Folding Ideas, etc. put out, because it's very educational and also somewhat entertaining, but constantly being reminded about how far gone elements of society are without an element of hope is soul crushing
I watched the flcl sequel series and... It would be wrong to call them bad but it's clear the people making them did not have the passion that drove the original team or even the passion it's western fans had that lead to their creation. Possibly the best term is "unnecessary"
September 18, 2025 at 5:42 AM
I watched the flcl sequel series and... It would be wrong to call them bad but it's clear the people making them did not have the passion that drove the original team or even the passion it's western fans had that lead to their creation. Possibly the best term is "unnecessary"
Anyway sorry for that thread but I feel a bit better now. I don't want anyone thinking I'm going to unalive myself, I can wait another 60 years or so for that. I'm a super genius, after all, so I'm sure I'll find a way out of this maze
September 6, 2025 at 1:52 AM
Anyway sorry for that thread but I feel a bit better now. I don't want anyone thinking I'm going to unalive myself, I can wait another 60 years or so for that. I'm a super genius, after all, so I'm sure I'll find a way out of this maze
I know I'm just yelling into the void but its some kind of release valve for all the mental stress I've been feeling over the last month, multiple aspects of my life hitting what feel like low points, no clear path to a better future
September 6, 2025 at 1:36 AM
I know I'm just yelling into the void but its some kind of release valve for all the mental stress I've been feeling over the last month, multiple aspects of my life hitting what feel like low points, no clear path to a better future
it sucks to be a cis male with a maidens heart because you're constantly longing for the pure and possibly unreal lesbian relationship that you can never have
September 6, 2025 at 1:00 AM
it sucks to be a cis male with a maidens heart because you're constantly longing for the pure and possibly unreal lesbian relationship that you can never have
I'm ready to die and be sent to a world of breakbeats and ps1 model anime girls
September 5, 2025 at 6:01 PM
I'm ready to die and be sent to a world of breakbeats and ps1 model anime girls
It's insider trading if I tell you to invest in depression
August 29, 2025 at 8:28 PM
It's insider trading if I tell you to invest in depression
Checklist:
ask a doctor why my leg doesn't work
Get a new job
Find love
I think i can multitask the last two but it's tricky because money makes everything easier (I would make it top priority but the leg injury is too pressing)
ask a doctor why my leg doesn't work
Get a new job
Find love
I think i can multitask the last two but it's tricky because money makes everything easier (I would make it top priority but the leg injury is too pressing)
August 5, 2025 at 4:35 AM
Checklist:
ask a doctor why my leg doesn't work
Get a new job
Find love
I think i can multitask the last two but it's tricky because money makes everything easier (I would make it top priority but the leg injury is too pressing)
ask a doctor why my leg doesn't work
Get a new job
Find love
I think i can multitask the last two but it's tricky because money makes everything easier (I would make it top priority but the leg injury is too pressing)
If you're up for watching a foreign drama, I highly recommend 'drive my car', it might just be because I've mostly been avoiding drama for years but it struck my soul in a way I almost forgot could happen
July 31, 2025 at 4:26 AM
If you're up for watching a foreign drama, I highly recommend 'drive my car', it might just be because I've mostly been avoiding drama for years but it struck my soul in a way I almost forgot could happen
Famous people dying and vshojo imploding is just way too much drama for one week. That's like a lifetime of events for a peasant in 1632
July 25, 2025 at 1:59 AM
Famous people dying and vshojo imploding is just way too much drama for one week. That's like a lifetime of events for a peasant in 1632
The human spirit was really not meant to go through life alone huh
July 20, 2025 at 12:53 AM
The human spirit was really not meant to go through life alone huh
Trump stealing the fifa trophy and claiming it was given to him unprompted is extremely funny and if it's true it's just sad
July 14, 2025 at 7:40 PM
Trump stealing the fifa trophy and claiming it was given to him unprompted is extremely funny and if it's true it's just sad