You could say that, as a result I have spasms and now I’m unable to get a job because of it.

Just disagreements, accusations, anxiety, betrayal and depression is all. No biggie.

It’s okay, I’ve talked plenty with people I trusted before. I thank you for the concern and consideration of my mental condition.

Thanks Zaku, I appreciate it a lot.

I’ll try, but it’s really hard not to think bout this stuff. Guilt is all I feel now. I just wanted to be able to show them I can change somehow.

Heh I see, I wonder how long it’ll take for me to be redeemed and forgiven all these years later 😔

Haha awh I’m honored >.<

Well I can’t promise anything, but I’ll try.

I really hope that can be true. I’m just scared of coming out anymore. 😔

But still thank you, it means a lot. 🥹

I’m sorry, I’ll be deleting this thread soon. I just wanted to vent. I’ve been shaking so much writing this too.

I’ve already owned up to my mistakes, I don’t want to make the same mistakes again nor any more fanart. I don’t want to run the risk of hurting anyone anymore. Is it naive? Maybe.

I know I shouldn’t have made that donation two years ago. I lashed out when I shouldn’t have and it has caused irreparable damage to both my mental and my reputation.

It’s why I sought to apologize, But it didn’t go that way. It’s why I won’t forgive myself and continue to hate myself.