I really sincerely appreciate those who dropped by and hung out regardless!

I promise tomorrow will be much more awake and energized!

This is relieving!

This made me audibly laugh omg

I'm wondering if that could suffice my dopamine enough to not really have to set up therapy cost (for now, if at all).

It's just really strange.

I feel like all things considered, I've been relatively consistent this year on Tuesday/Thursdays (minus my terrible health luck).

Maybe I need more!

I can't afford to really stream this consistency (6x/week) naturally. But waiting a week to play a game with Kashil, or hanging out and just TALKING to people... It's not enough to really fill that void, y'know?

I'm considering maybe try a x3-4/week schedule.? Leapfrog days for cooking and editing.

BUt!!

November really has been such a change of pace. I've called it "busy enough to be distracted". I've been happier, more excited to get home not just for Tuesdays and Thursdays.

And part of me is nervous if I'm going to inevitably nosedive in December.

I fought tooth and nail to find some way to get insurance as a means of being DESPERATE to get into affordable therapy.

I genuinely didn't know what else to do, and only knew it was affecting me to the point I could no longer mask at work, at home, on stream, nada.

I still haven't gotten therapy,

During August, throughout the first day of November, I was MISERABLE. I mean that in every sense of the word.

I was chronically tired, demotivated, unfulfilled, angry, sad, the lot. And it spiraled severely where I had to have talks with Kashil about my mental health. It was /bad/.

This also means I'm dropping the X3/Day Upload and maybe testing just a ... X3/Week upload after November concludes? Miniature highlights and the such.

And try to keep things a bit more present-time for those who want to jump in streams to Q&A the present interest fields.