to hold that in or push it down.

I just don't get it.

Or the Grinch with Jim Carrey🤣

player is a creep or an asshole. There's good people out there; they're just extremely hard to find. But when you do find them, it's a very rewarding thing

I didn't even meet through Overwatch; we met outside of the game but just happen to play & enjoy it. And through playing OW together, we've found some good people through the game & other servers who ended up being good friends too💙

I'm grateful for those people, truly; showing that not every OW

with their whole chests to "get back into the kitchen". I had kids in matches screaming at me when I was healing them; so I stopped trying to make friends with other players.
And then everything that went down with the community just pushed me away from friendship in general. the friends I have now

at the time; always threatening us if we didn't play with him & manipulating us to do what he said. When he ended our friendship, thank god, I ended up learning he was being creepy to children.
After him, I kept running into very misogynistic men who mocked me for playing Soldier 76 & told me

Thanks Bones!
I honestly loved doing this and I'm definitely making more!✏️

how much more fight I have left in me bc I really can't see a future with myself there.
Or even what a future for me would be like; i didn't think i'd make it this far.

& that energy would've went into genuine support that I didn't have. But this is a selfish world; people really don't care about each other.
I watch everybody through this metaphorical window as they got good stuff going on and I'm just struggling to find a will to live. I don't really know

exist when poverty is inescapable, abuse is inescapable, and it feels like any hope is dead? So many days of isolating, crying to the point of physical pain & just begging for something good to happen
I think if most people understood what I went through in life, I wouldn't have gotten attacked

and it's both confusing and overwhelming.
I'm trying to stream & can't
I'm trying to do art comms & don't get any
I'm trying so much & it's like nothing I do yields anything.
Any dream I could possibly have has a price tag on it with numbers I've never even seen before. How am I supposed to just