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Yeah, it sucks a lot. I'm real grateful that I have friends around me who are supportive now, and that I'm getting to learn things about myself. I wanna be able to play with how I am in art because it was fundamental to my experience of the world.

In short, growing up was hard because it was obvious I was weird, but no one seemed bothered to examine why, just that I should stop.

Getting told off for fidgeting, stimming, talking too loud or too quiet, speaking for too long about something... I also have some problems with coordination and spatial awareness which led to just getting called clumsy a lot.

It's been kinda a raw deal, learning that so many specific problems I had could have been avoided, but at least I know about them now. So, if I do more Milo Puppy art then expect a lot of it to deal with like... retroactively being gentle with myself about things others were not gentle with me about

long story short, I never got diagnosed with anything other than ADHD when I was in my 20's, but later found out two separate clinicians suspected I was autistic, once when I was like 7 or 8, and again when I was 15. I never got referred for a formal diagnosis, and self diagnosed in my 30's.

Huh, now that you talk about it like that...