my art and what value i can give to others, ya know? because, im trying to remind myself, something i cringe at even thinking of saying, lol, but honestly, i hold value just by being, and we all do, so just yeah, take day by day, or as they say inch by inch life's a cinch, yard by yard, life is hard

talking about it, makes it so that other people feel safe talking about it? or feel seen? and just idk, just i want to say sorry for not posting art! but also, i think i just genuinely need time and space to get a little bit more stable in life, and maybe not make my world revolve around just

also apologies for any weird wording, i just, kind of rambled it felt like? i kept thinking oh i should say something on my account, why im not posting, but then kept being defeatist of like well its not like anyone cares/whats the point etc, but idk, maybe someone else is also struggling? and maybe

tw: suicidal ideation/mental health/disability
there is a lot of text that is too much to add to ALT, i apologize, and uh basically, life keeps fucking me over it feels like </3 but im taking the help i can get, and im putting myself on hiatus so that i can truly focus on me for a little bit ❤️