just in case there was any damage to my Branding from sharing this

Im a top

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stamped in red over the word HOPE.

At 19 a friend told me I gave the impression of always leading a big horse around everywhere on a halter despite the obvious inconvenience but since I never brought up the horse eventually friends assumed it was impolite to mention it, which I think was the closest I got

it feels like everyone got the memo except me sometimes, like everyone else had a better handle on the fact something was Up in school after school

Color spreading above Solar-Terrace Mountain,

Blow up, and ruine, myne, and countermyne,

Anyway. Those are my thoughts communicated in an honest way, My Therapist, bane of my life. Idk about in a healthy way. Frankly that feels like it's your bailiwick, not mine.

It makes me feel like I'm bad trans and failing all my sisters especially that I am still fundamentally disgusted by the mirror. This is not the narrative we like to get out there. What if an egg saw it and lost hope?

Anyway this is probably not something I should be thinking about while I'm really fucking depressed but it is frustrating that I keep trying to get 1 snap I like in the bag, to at least quiet the 'what pic will they use at your funeral' recurring thoughts, dedicate time to the problem, and... zip

Like even a very ugly person should fluke a nice snap once in a blue moon, an angle that sorta works, a candid they're in the background or a pro camera bringing out the best. Like what the fuck

I hate every single photo I've ever been in and even when I kinda liked how I looked after a whole evening of prep and help to try and take nice photos (1 for me and 1 as nice as feasible given the rules for ID) and it's genuinely improbable, no?

Forcing people into small cells in harsh, prison-like facilities and preventing proper support is cruel and totally unacceptable. We urge the government to change course on this deal and stop harming people who have already lived through war, torture and trauma.

thanks Mae, I know evening beer showers & hitting things with a trowel doesn't sound very balanced but I am trying, will try my best. I'm one nhs email away from all of this being swept aside in relative importance so there's also that, any day I could just get lifted. just gotta make it that far