SHAKING YOUR HAND SO HARD
I had someone with “15” stated in their bio try to follow and interact with one of my posts and like— BRO PLS CAN YOU READ

Oh no no don’t worry!! You have been nothing but sweet and very appreciated <33

WAWWGGHH thank you thank you <33 I do like this place, and especially the people I’ve gotten to interact with. I don’t *want* to leave, I wanna stay and keep talking to friends, but I feel like the effect people’s reactions have had on my mental health is starting to outweigh the benefits :(((

Again, so sorry for the random downer!! Especially after I talked about potentially writing smut (I might still go through with that but just share it with a few people. And same thing for any nsfw art I’ll make in the future)

that I feared would happen if I started an nsfw account has happened although spared from the more extreme fears (thank GODDDD) If I had known this would be the consequence of starting an nsfw account when I first started— I probably wouldn’t have made one.

account since, again, the interactions here have been wonderful, but I’m worried that even interacting will still cause the same or similar issues.

And again, I’m still on the fence about this, but I still want to put this out there in case I do end up deactivating this account. Almost everything—

people I’ve gotten to meet through here and I definitely still want to keep that interaction and contact as you’re all so wonderful <33 However, if I do end up deactivating this account, I will still be around as any other lurker— and there’s always to option to still interact through that alt—

(and in case I don’t I’ll just delete this lmao) but when it comes at the cost of what I stated previously and just feeling gross about my own work because of it, as well as the exposed feeling that comes with this many people seeing my nsfw art, I’m not sure it is worth it. I still love all the—

to take interest sjkkdjfjfe— It has been wonderful finding like minded individuals who’ve encouraged me and that I’ve gotten to talk with, that’s part of the reason I’m making this so in case I do decide to go through with deactivating my account it wont just seem like I disappeared out of nowhere—

as long as there’s easily accessible, and knowledge that I create nsfw this will continue to be an issue.

And secondly, I just think I’m no longer comfortable sharing my nsfw art with such a large audience since a lot of it is extremely self indulgent and I simply never expected this many people—

and on here because it became such an issue, as well as trying to be firmer on my boundaries, but there’s only so much I can do. It feels like once people know I’m “freaky too” that’s all they see me as instead of just someone who happens to draw nsfw sometimes in their free time. I believe that—

or friendship despite me being ace, or those that allude to my nsfw content on my tumblr despite me wanting to separate the two. I haven’t even been on bluesky for a year and these issues are already prominent enough to make me want to quit. I’ve already had to add a section about this on my FAQ—

Furthermore, and I know these people mean well and I do not hold it against them as a huge part of it is me being ass at asserting my own boundaries, I’ve found that because I post nsfw people have very quickly assumed that I’m fine with discussing nsfw topics in private without prior conversation—

Firstly, and most importantly, I’ve noticed a shift in how people interact with me since I’ve started posting nsfw content here. Despite how I only post roughly once a month— I feel like I’m still being seen as nsfw first sfw second, even though it is the opposite.

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