NANA ≒ ellen yeon kim
@elle-nana.bsky.social
trudging through pain and self-excoriation with vain arrogance and a pathological need for control
I know one means well saying “I dont know how you do it!” but also i really need stop me from saying “it must be difficult to know so little.”
May 8, 2025 at 3:59 PM
I know one means well saying “I dont know how you do it!” but also i really need stop me from saying “it must be difficult to know so little.”
genuinely feeling sorry for people believing there is no genocide, no apartheid going on.
feeling sorry for their intellectual capacity, lack of surroundings to tell them otherwise.
kinda like in the same way some feel sorry for my illness
feeling sorry for their intellectual capacity, lack of surroundings to tell them otherwise.
kinda like in the same way some feel sorry for my illness
March 3, 2025 at 9:20 AM
genuinely feeling sorry for people believing there is no genocide, no apartheid going on.
feeling sorry for their intellectual capacity, lack of surroundings to tell them otherwise.
kinda like in the same way some feel sorry for my illness
feeling sorry for their intellectual capacity, lack of surroundings to tell them otherwise.
kinda like in the same way some feel sorry for my illness
going through medical bureaucratic huddles often feels like im punished for having coped so far
February 27, 2025 at 8:30 AM
going through medical bureaucratic huddles often feels like im punished for having coped so far
with crippling self-doubt, but just not enough to shut up.
February 19, 2025 at 10:48 PM
with crippling self-doubt, but just not enough to shut up.
i often think about how 1984 is in german. i can imagine the newspeak fitting in so neat, losing eeriness for the german readers but then my german is not good enough to judge that
February 18, 2025 at 8:40 AM
i often think about how 1984 is in german. i can imagine the newspeak fitting in so neat, losing eeriness for the german readers but then my german is not good enough to judge that
i dont particularly get jealous of other ppl’s successful careers but i am jealous of anyone who wakes up rested, instead of feeling like just hit by a car
February 11, 2025 at 8:38 PM
i dont particularly get jealous of other ppl’s successful careers but i am jealous of anyone who wakes up rested, instead of feeling like just hit by a car
i took me 40 years to learn you‘re not supposed to be able to bend your finger sideways.
February 8, 2025 at 11:38 AM
i took me 40 years to learn you‘re not supposed to be able to bend your finger sideways.
i get uncontrollable rage every so often. not sure if it started with my illness or live-streamed genocide.
February 6, 2025 at 11:54 PM
i get uncontrollable rage every so often. not sure if it started with my illness or live-streamed genocide.
im editing my old texts like this will be my last words, not intentionally but that seems to be what‘s happening
February 5, 2025 at 8:24 PM
im editing my old texts like this will be my last words, not intentionally but that seems to be what‘s happening
one of the most pettiest thing i heard today is US state department swapping LGBTQI+ to LGB this is mindblowingly dangerous and petty.
February 3, 2025 at 5:02 PM
one of the most pettiest thing i heard today is US state department swapping LGBTQI+ to LGB this is mindblowingly dangerous and petty.
i think about how we as in human are a machine constantly abjectifying groups, making people as violable whether individual or collective. I had complete false assumtion we were past that for a while and that‘s embarrassing.
February 3, 2025 at 12:02 PM
i think about how we as in human are a machine constantly abjectifying groups, making people as violable whether individual or collective. I had complete false assumtion we were past that for a while and that‘s embarrassing.
i think i was mad bad sad girl for a while in my life and now turned bitter grumpy angry lady.
February 1, 2025 at 9:25 AM
i think i was mad bad sad girl for a while in my life and now turned bitter grumpy angry lady.
it‘s interesting how most of art galleries and spaces won't even declare their wheelchair accessibility on their website or google map let alone make it accessible.
January 30, 2025 at 10:37 PM
it‘s interesting how most of art galleries and spaces won't even declare their wheelchair accessibility on their website or google map let alone make it accessible.
One thing I can't deal with around the topic of disability is “to be proud” of one’s disability. It does feel like taking a piss. Proud of what?
January 29, 2025 at 10:41 AM
One thing I can't deal with around the topic of disability is “to be proud” of one’s disability. It does feel like taking a piss. Proud of what?
i utterly hate the notion of poetic justice, karma, 권선징악. It hints when bad things happen to someone, it could have been because of their fault. or it's just karma you need to worry about when being awful. i get that it‘s cathartic or consoling to think that but it doesnt sit with me right.
January 27, 2025 at 11:11 PM
i utterly hate the notion of poetic justice, karma, 권선징악. It hints when bad things happen to someone, it could have been because of their fault. or it's just karma you need to worry about when being awful. i get that it‘s cathartic or consoling to think that but it doesnt sit with me right.
whenever I see your face accidentally on other people's picture, hatred curls up in me. I wonder if anyone thinks of me with as much disdain I have for you.
January 27, 2025 at 6:49 PM
whenever I see your face accidentally on other people's picture, hatred curls up in me. I wonder if anyone thinks of me with as much disdain I have for you.
four on the street, late for sth important, walking briskly; one passes out; one ignores that and keeps walking; one gets annoyed for being late, calls emergency, stays there; one gets emotionally agitated, worried, heads to the important sth, and talks about how they worry if that person’s okay
January 26, 2025 at 1:43 PM
four on the street, late for sth important, walking briskly; one passes out; one ignores that and keeps walking; one gets annoyed for being late, calls emergency, stays there; one gets emotionally agitated, worried, heads to the important sth, and talks about how they worry if that person’s okay
skill set: excellent at only getting mild
anxiety after weeks and weeks of quasi solitude and very little accomplishment due to illness
anxiety after weeks and weeks of quasi solitude and very little accomplishment due to illness
January 26, 2025 at 12:41 PM
skill set: excellent at only getting mild
anxiety after weeks and weeks of quasi solitude and very little accomplishment due to illness
anxiety after weeks and weeks of quasi solitude and very little accomplishment due to illness
우매한 나는 자꾸 커다란 쳇바퀴를 돌면서도 아, 여기가 어디인가 많이 온 건가 조금만 더 열심히 가보자 하고 있는 모양이다 사실은
쳇바퀴 위라는 걸 알면서도 아니지 않을까 하며 조금 더 우매한 나는 우매한 나를 바라보며 부숴버리고 싶어 하는지 모를 일이다
쳇바퀴 위라는 걸 알면서도 아니지 않을까 하며 조금 더 우매한 나는 우매한 나를 바라보며 부숴버리고 싶어 하는지 모를 일이다
January 26, 2025 at 11:23 AM
우매한 나는 자꾸 커다란 쳇바퀴를 돌면서도 아, 여기가 어디인가 많이 온 건가 조금만 더 열심히 가보자 하고 있는 모양이다 사실은
쳇바퀴 위라는 걸 알면서도 아니지 않을까 하며 조금 더 우매한 나는 우매한 나를 바라보며 부숴버리고 싶어 하는지 모를 일이다
쳇바퀴 위라는 걸 알면서도 아니지 않을까 하며 조금 더 우매한 나는 우매한 나를 바라보며 부숴버리고 싶어 하는지 모를 일이다
made bsky account without knowing what it is, i failed twitter --before it got probagandary-- but maybe i can carry on here???
January 26, 2025 at 11:19 AM
made bsky account without knowing what it is, i failed twitter --before it got probagandary-- but maybe i can carry on here???
sometimes i think ‘that’s so unbecoming of me’ then learn i have been just like that just got (a teensy tiny bit or not even) worse after being ill
January 24, 2025 at 12:41 AM
sometimes i think ‘that’s so unbecoming of me’ then learn i have been just like that just got (a teensy tiny bit or not even) worse after being ill
Someone with a history of mental illness and violent incidents killed two. One of them was 2 year old. He is despicable, to say the least.
Surely, tho, what failed and needs to be looked at should be more of a social services structure not “let’s deport immigrants!”
Surely, tho, what failed and needs to be looked at should be more of a social services structure not “let’s deport immigrants!”
January 23, 2025 at 5:59 PM
Someone with a history of mental illness and violent incidents killed two. One of them was 2 year old. He is despicable, to say the least.
Surely, tho, what failed and needs to be looked at should be more of a social services structure not “let’s deport immigrants!”
Surely, tho, what failed and needs to be looked at should be more of a social services structure not “let’s deport immigrants!”
im weirdly adamant on writing small cases like children unless it's official document then i recently heard it is fuckboy thing and now im more confused about me than ever
January 23, 2025 at 1:55 PM
im weirdly adamant on writing small cases like children unless it's official document then i recently heard it is fuckboy thing and now im more confused about me than ever
im on a mission to figure out what one does get out of by laughing at others, specifically at their differences
January 23, 2025 at 1:53 PM
im on a mission to figure out what one does get out of by laughing at others, specifically at their differences